Look To The Stars

Last Week of Fuck-All

2012-02-12T23:33:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, I wish that I had been given a character creation screen. You know, like one of those video games where you can cherry-pick all aspects of your character. Things like facial features, body type, hair, ethnicity, special skills, special flaws, superpowers and so on. Then I could've chosen to be a cyborg. Looks perfectly human, but with a processing chip, not a fucking heart. A cold, logical, machine. No emotions, no morality, no complexities of life. Just logic, reason, and a goal. It would bloody well have made my life easier. I mean, I'd probably be the perfect bloody Terminator, if you remove all my flaws and my emotions. It's a pity, then, that I never got to that screen. All I got was the randomizer. Just like everyone else, really. No point complaining about it. But sometimes, I wish.

Last week of school. Apart from the exam. I'm ignoring that. Most tiresome semester ever. Probably to blame for the high blood pressure. Too many fucking idiots. I'm one of them, sometimes, so don't go crying about language, or moral high grounds, or painting people with the same brush. Who the fuck ever came up with that line, anyway? Painting people with the same brush. It's not like anyone would literally do that. Bloody waste of paint.

Where was I? Right, too many fucking idiots. Yep, I meant that. And if you're reading this and wondering hey, did he mean me, then what the fuck do you think? But there's light at the end of your tunnel. I hope it's a train. End of the semester, I'm gone. Finished. What passed for a casual acquaintance, and was probably just a vindictive rivalry, done. I'm removing you all from my life, as you would probably want to do to me. Let's not piss around. You lot think I'm an arrogant bastard, and I think you're worth less to the world than the sticky, decaying gob of pink gum I found stuck to my shoe that one time, so don't pretend to be anything else. Rather not see you again for as long as I live, however short that is. Or long. Doesn't really matter either way. In the grand scheme of things, it never does. And yes, the list is long and distinguished. Just like my Johnson. Make of that what you will. Or not. You probably didn't get the reference, did you, you lilliputian-brained slime-sucking imbeciles.

And if anyone wants to call me out on all the aforementioned statements, you can't take a fucking joke, can you? Fuck you, and go fuck the yeti you rode in on.

Whatever Happened To Saturday Night?

2011-04-19T06:54:00.000+08:00

And along with it, 2 years of my life? I sure wish I had some of it back. But I guess that it's time to start yet another chapter, and sign off on the last one. Sometimes I wonder, what would our stories all look like in a library. Whose would be in the funny section? And who would be a tragedy? Or perhaps we're all doomed to be simply, non-fiction.

The last 2 years in CMM have been well spent. Granted, I wish I could have said some things different, and done some things very different, but sadly, I am not a Time Lord. Besides, the year has been kind. Granted, I've gotten into a scrape or two, and probably cheesed off several people, but I seem to have turned out relatively alright. And was I really all that scary in first year? I find it hard to believe when people tell me that. I sure don't remember walking around with a scowl on my face all the time. But if I did scare people off, my bad. Sure didn't mean to.

Time for internships! To quote my partner in crime, my job involves [CLASSIFIED CONTENT], which means I get to [CLASSIFIED CONTENT] most of the day, which involves [CLASSIFIED CONTENT], and also [CLASSIFIED CONTENT] which I find remarkably enjoyable. I could tell you what I do, but then I'd have to kill you. Heh heh.

But honestly, the new job looks like a blast. The dress code rocks, too. Jeans and polos completely normal. A bit overdressed, even. I shall bring my windbreaker, just to look semi-formal. AHAHAHAHAHA. The only issue I have at the moment? My lack of expertise with Final Cut Pro. But that can be remedied, I think. A quick call to Mr Awesome Guo, and he shall impart to me his 1337 technomancer powers. Failing which, TO THE INTERNET!

It's my first day on my own, and I miss everyone so badly. It's like when I turn to my left, or right, I expect to see one of the guys, up to something stupid again. Or one of the girls, happily discussing how the guys are always doing stupid things. Today's just Monday, so just imagine how bad it's gonna be tomorrow, on what used to be Broadcast Day. Or Thursday, once Multicam Day. And Friday, when we all went Radio Gaga.

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Dilemma of the Day

2011-02-13T23:59:00.000+08:00

Okay, so tomorrow is Monday. Not too bad, I can deal with that. I mean, not too much happens on Mondays, right? Hit the gym, clean up, head to school. Triple C classes, lectures, then go home. Not too complicated.

Hang on, it's February 14th tomorrow. That means... ERIC CLAPTON!!!! That's right, ladies and gentlemen, Slowhand himself is in Singapore! And I have a ticket! OORAH!!

But it's not just Clapton Live Appreciation Day tomorrow, it's also Valentine's Day. Even at this late hour, I'm torn on whether or not I should get something for the girl I'd like to be my Valentine. I mean, I was hoping for some kind of courier service to deliver a bouquet, but there are none, and I'd rather remain an anonymous admirer for now (with oh-so-stunning alliterative skills).

Also, I don't want to make my feelings absolutely obvious, as there is the huge chance of making a right fool of myself in public. For some reason, I am given to flights of romantic fancy from time to time (blame those Austen novels I read when I was a kid), and might say or do something incredibly stupid/sappy/embarrassing. Hell, I even wrote a poem and made a card for her, but scrapped it after reading it through. I might post it on this blog next time, when I am drunk as a judge. Like that'll ever happen.

Oh, and I'm scared that if anything goes wrong, I lose a friend as well. Or friends, as the case may be. Word travels fast in my course. If only life was as easy as a book or a movie. Or perhaps a box of chocolates. That's it! I'll get her some chocolates! Hang on, maybe she doesn't like chocolates spiked with liqueur.

And of course, there's the complication of my dear classmates. I suspect some of them know what's going on, and are prepared to hang as much shit on me as they can, if I make any moves this time. And here I was thinking I hide my feelings pretty decent. Ah well, c'est l'amour. Happy Valentine's Day, everyone.

Adaptation or Institutionalization?

2011-01-11T23:38:00.003+08:00

Right, it's been awhile. Lots of stuff happening, and the holiday train simply flew by, with little to no interest in stopping to let me on board.

New term's been a heavy hitter so far. Deadlines and commitments are piling up like there ain't no tomorrow, and they've no intention of slowing down. At times, I really hate our subject leaders for how (badly) they planned it all, and then I remember that they are in as much of a pickle as us. There are of course exceptions to the rule, but I name no names. I will however say that I absolutely detest Triple-C at the moment. It teaches us nothing, the person running the exam is only interested in regurgitated keywords, and its required reading/watching list is absolute crap. The Joy Luck Club? Seriously? WHAT A WASTE OF MY TIME. Stupid, sappy, weepy, overhyped, overrated piffle. Piffle Piffle Piffle. It is as bad as all that crap them white crackers used to pull about "me love you long time". Absolute drivel. Oh, and did I mention it's a laugh riot? I did? WELL I LIED!

That apart, I'm coping a little better with the other stuff. Broadcast is awesome as always. Radio could do better with its deadlines and project topics, but no major complaints. MEP is annoying as ever, but compromises can be reached. And Multicam is fairly straightforward, just needing a little work on deadlines too.

Which leads me to the topic in question. I have three theories as to why time moves differently in CMM.

Theory the first, we are all Time Lords (or at least Time Knights), and can manipulate time to adjust our deadlines, so we finish right on schedule. Also, hammerspace.

Theory the second, we have simply adapted to our conditions and surroundings like the smart critters we are, and cannot be killed by them deadlines. We are simply too strong. Too fast. Too good. Can't touch this.

Theory the third, we have been institutionalized. Like inmates of a prison, or the local nuthouse where screwies end up, we are part of the system. We meekly accept, rebel in small ways, and simply sink into the slimy quicksand of our own slavery.

And there we have it, JJ's guide to the CMM hypothesis on the question of relative time. Hope you enjoyed that little bit of insanity.

The End Is The Beginning

2010-10-19T00:00:00.000+08:00

Alright, so I'm finally updating my blog... silly, eh? It's taken me a whole semester and a bit to get back to writing. But I have my reasons. First and foremost, last semester ran me off my feet. Literally. So much has happened in such a short time. But another chapter has closed, and I am left with the usual. Memories, laughs, a musing or two, new friends, and as always, a few regrets. Still, I am happy. At least until the next time I see a textbook, lecture notes or a timetable.

Okay, I'll start talking academics. This has probably been one of my favorite terms, just because I got to muck around with radio and film equipment. Plus, I got to talk rubbish on radio, edit it, and turn it into hilarity. And my grades haven't been half bad, either. So yeah, this run's been much better than previously. I've also made quite a lot of friends along the way, so I'm all the better for it. To think, at the start of term I was absolutely morose, just because I refused to be more open-minded. Well, lesson learned. Thank you, CMM class S1-T02-2010, for being a real eye-opener. I especially thank all those who were my fellow group members, for putting up with my slightly deranged moments. I hope I haven't scarred y'all for life. No hard feelings, yeah?

Getting our classes all mixed up again wasn't that cool at first, but I guess we all coped with it in our own ways. Plus, we got to use the MediaBiz Studios as our hangout/chillout/do all kinds of nonsense/sneakily eat and drink spot. Cool, huh? Plus, free air-conditioning! Sweet, sweet canned air.

Alright, so we have a whole new semester coming in less than a week. And I'm not going into one of my "here we go again" moods. I'm actually excited about this semester. I mean, what with my grades improving and all, it should be a blast.

So, what have I been doing this round of holidays? Well, not a lot, if you must know. I've been going to the gym regularly, and hitting the pool occasionally. I guess I'm finally able to adapt to a scheduled workout as part of my week. I only hope that next semester's schedule can continue to give me time for a workout. I do wish that people would schedule more sports activities, though...

Right, what else have I been up to? Well, I have yet to rebuild my movies, music and games collections, after my last laptop crash coincided with a hard disk problem that has left me rather peeved with technology. So yeah, I've had to make do with my iPod, singing along to Youtube videos, and some television. Pity there isn't much rugby on the telly at the moment. And no, I refuse to subscribe to Singtel until they integrate their damned set-tops.

So... one week of holidays left. How should I spend said week? Top of my head, I have five things to do.

Get some new belt buckles. Or perhaps a pair of cowboy/trooper boots.
Buy new jeans, my old jeans have gotten rather loose and baggy. I'm down to 2 wearable pairs.
Plan a new wishlist, budget accordingly. Possibly negotiate increase on allowance *Not ruddy likely*.
Consider whether I should repair my shoes, or buy new ones.
Have dinner with a friend. Or friends. Whoever I can get hold of first.

And there we have it, my holiday in a nutshell. Last week of freedom. BRING! IT! ON!

P.S. For those I haven't met in a while, I have long hair now! And it's just a matter of time before I can rock an Elvis do...Bring back the 60's!

Circumstances

2010-05-04T13:39:00.000+08:00

Things seem to move fast these days. And some things just don't work out, I guess. But as always, the trick is not to rail against the injustice of it all, but rather, roll with the punches and hope everything turns out fine.

Year 2 of my stay in Temasek. For some reason, my elective options didn't work out. I guess going in two day after everyone else wasn't one of my brighter ideas. Pity, I thought the computers would've sorted things properly. Ah well, spilt milk under the bridge. Heh heh....there's a whole bunch of cows somewhere mooing in protest at that statement.

My new class mostly isn't the "party animal" kind of cool, which is good. I'm aware that some people in my year have cheap liquor running through their veins, but hey, that's their life, not mine. How they want to ruin it ain't none of my beeswax. Anyway, back on topic. My class...yeah, they're awkwardly interesting. And maybe I need to moderate my view on one or two members. Nobody's perfect, I guess.

I have new subjects to take! Unfortunately, lectures so far have been dry and soporific. On the flip side, tutorials have been a blast. I just hope that we can all get through the semester and our group projects safely. And I need to stay ahead of my work. One or two things went a little out of hand last term, so I'm not taking any chances this time.

I'm hosting TP's Got Talent this Friday, alongside Genevieve. Should be an interesting time, especially since there are new changes to the dang script.

Arthur and Stanley are leaving the region...two less reasons to be part of the youth. I grew up alongside them, so I feel it's kinda stupid to move 'em over technicalities. I hate bureaucracy. And I hate blinkered leaders even more.

Right, gotta go. Audio Production tutorial in a bit. Til next time.

Wild Berries On The Boardwalk

2010-04-08T00:34:00.002+08:00

I visited The Resorts for the first time this evening. I had a delicious dinner, an enjoyable ramble through the resorts, and a refreshing dessert. I sat at the side of the bay, taking in the spellbinding view, talking and laughing.

And above all, I spent time with a great friend. Thanks, J. You were wonderful tonight.

P.S. The view of the bay was the second-most beautiful sight tonight.

Marching Into April

2010-03-30T00:40:00.000+08:00

March holidays are here! Wait. hang on, I've been on holiday since Chinese New Year. My course is awesome, right? But what have I been doing so far?

1) Sleeping. Yes, I know, I do that all the time. It's just that I've been getting a bit more. I'm happy about that. It means my body recovers faster, and I can thus be happy, longer.

2) Eating... Slightly Less. Miraculous, ain't it? I've actually brought my diet under some semblance of control. Apart from that nice Feeding Frenzy a few weeks ago, I'm done eating my usual gigantic portions, unless I'm absolutely sure I'm starving. Also, less carb intake. According to my dad, I don't need too much extra energy, so I need to reduce the amount of rice, noodles, pasta and other such things. Fair enough. I am on holiday, after all. Of course, I'll still get plenty of meat and fruit. But I still don't like most vegetables. They still taste like boiled grass.

3) Exercising. Okay, I'm pretty proud of myself on this one. I've been rather out of practice, but when I hit the gym or the pool, it feels good to be up and about. It's just not much fun working out alone. And of course, there are those who sleep and rise at very odd hours, making it nigh impossible to go exercise with them. Oh well, c'est la vie.

4) Guitar Practice. I have 3 chords down, but I need a lot of work on my laborious chord changes. Anyone free to teach me?

5) Reading. For some reason or another, I've re-read all my old paperback novels, and most of the hardcovers. Also, the ebooks and the comics I grabbed off some highway. Heck, I even went through the military history and technology books, just for kicks. I used to love reading when I was a kid. Guess that wasn't a bad thing. The bug just left for a little while, I guess. But the bookworm part is back, and I think it's back for good. Once again, that ain't a bad thing.

6) Outings. Gone out a few times with the different bunches of crazy people I know. Then again, I'm probably the craziest of the lot. Heh heh.

So yeah, that's what I've been doing with my holiday time. Hell of a way to spend a vacation. I have a few things left on the to-do list.

Keep exercising. Exercise is good.
Go kick, throw, or punch a ball with some friends. I need the social side of sports too!
Buy some new tuning pegs and strings for my classical G.
Ponder on my choice of Broadcast as an elective option. Should I have taken film theory first? Should I ask to switch options?
Go to the Chili's at RWS with someone.
Go to HRC with someone.
Spend an entire day with someone.
Download more e-books. Read more, read often.
Play and practice on my guitar. Sing my songs.
Smile.

Until we meet again.

Congratulations, J.

The Holiday Clock Ticks On

2010-03-11T23:07:00.001+08:00

Wow, has it really been more than a month since I last wrote in? Well, I guess now's as good a time as any to update. The match highlights don't start til 12am, and I can't go to sleep because my muscles are aching peacefully. More on that later.

My first year in Temasek has been great. No disrespect to my other classes, but 04 currently occupies top spot in my list of "The best classes I've been a part of". I wonder what happens now. Do we stay as a nutty bunch of friends, or do we all slowly drift apart? I pray we all remember each other, and stay in touch. Because y'all are seriously awesome.

Staying on the topic of 04, the beach outing was one hell of a time. For those who missed it, why? Y'all missed a great day at the beach, and the Ultimate Frisbee game! But maybe we'll have one more party, eh? Somebody rent a chalet or something before we go back to school. Hopefully Mr. E can turn up this time. We owe him a party, at least.

I do wish that the classes stay the same next term, but I don't think that will happen. Anyway, I've signed up for Broadcast, so I hope I made a good choice. And apparently we'll have a killer subject or two to study for..(yes, I'll be having exams again... Humbug!) Anyway, I will have to keep up better with my classes, which means *gasp* LESS GAMING. Yes, I know, kinda hard to imagine, eh? But what with my bro going off the net to get ready for the A's, I can't do the lazy bear act I usually pull off, ot he'll make me look bad. So yes, I'll be reducing my gaming hours.

Rahman's been sent to the Fire Brigade. Hope he can make good and proper friends there, not end up as the educated man amongst the sea of stupid manatees named "Hugh". How the hell a man of his talents ended up in a horrible posting, I'll never know. Ah well, such is life, unfair as it is, and each man to his own.

Big thank you to everyone who turned up for the Feeding Frenzy. The thing was a great success, and I'm grateful y'all could come and break bread together. Now I've got to go to the gym tomorrow as penance for tonight's excess. Heh heh. No pain, no gain. Unfortunately, since I'm tremendously out of form, there's a lot of pain involved.

Oh, you haven't heard? Yes, I'm going to the gym now. I don't think I want to go to NS unfit and slow, so it's time to get to work. Yes Bryan, I know that me getting even bigger might sound scary, but hey, I'll still be the same happy fella. Just a little fitter, that's all. And odd as it seems coming from a guy who loves food as much as I do, I'll be reducing the amount of food I eat. The good part is, that includes vegetables. I never was a big fan of them anyway, especially the leafy stuff. Darn things often taste too much like grass, and I don't mean the kind you smoke. XP

Next time, I discuss more holiday plans, muscle aches, and how I view how the world views me! Stay tuned!

Feeling February First

2010-02-01T21:34:00.001+08:00

Two months into 2010. So far so good, I'm staying afloat with all the projects and deadlines. A few tests on the horizon, and a few presentations. Bit of a hiccup on permission for our photography project, so my backup plan is to go photograph the MMA gym. Good idea, but aerial shots might be hard to get. Still, nothing totally nuts yet. That's a good sign. Sometimes life throws a leg-spin at me, but so far it's just been fast bowling. I can handle that.

The Brotherhood will not meet til after Chinese New Year, thanks to an interesting job choice from the Panzer and the Hermit Crab. Ah well, at least we'll have enough money to splurge on a buffet. I've missed all the nonsense and mischief we usually get up to. Seems like we're growing up. Heh. Anyway guys, if you're reading this, we meet sometime after CNY and exams, so keep 50 bucks plus aside yeah?

Another buffet raid is planned, this time with Arthur, Ivan et al. Where and when, I have no idea. Suffice to say we'll all have money after Chinese New Year, so once again, we wait. Hope we can go somewhere I can be in my element...as a natural carnivore.

February 14th. Usually it's just Valentine's, but this year it's red packet day as well. Darn...guess I gotta put any Valentine's Day plans forward or back. Still, I can afford to take my time. The horizon's looking pretty clear at the moment, and the weather forecast is good.

10pm edit: Nuts, just saw a post on Facebook. A very good friend lost her iPhone... Called to confirm, and was rewarded with no answer. Dammit. Curse whoever nicked it. And bless them if they return it. If they don't, may they get knocked over by a cement-mixer, survive and end up brain-dead in hospital for the rest of their misbegotten life.

Now I'm pissed off. All I can do is howl at the injustice of it all. Otherwise, I can't do a thing. I hate being unable to help. Bollocks.

19 Springs. 19 Summers. 19 Autumns. 19 Winters.

2010-01-25T23:45:00.005+08:00

I'm 19 today. It's Burns Night. Another year goes by. It's really been a wild ride this past year. I've made so many new friends, and seen so many new things. Life; it never gets old.

Big thank you to everyone who wished me a happy birthday, regardless of how y'all did it.

Semester's winding down. A few more assignments, a few more tests, and I'm done. Then, I go into holiday mode. Hopefully our class can put together a proper outing before we go our separate ways. I'd like that.

And a song for everyone, because it's a wonderful world.

Deadlines, je t'aime

2010-01-20T04:21:00.001+08:00

1.37am
I seriously hate this week. What, 4 assignments/projects due? Dammit, I've managed to squeak by so far, but this is bullshit. No kidding. I mean, does my poly deliberately coordinate this shit? Just to piss us all off? Anyone with the bad sense to tell me how slack poly is, will get their face busted in, No questions asked. I need more java, and a quick nap. Bloody writer's block.

2.23am
Damned writer's block. Still can't concentrate. Forgotten what I was working on. Sociology's done, though. Commentary on "Singapore Dreaming", topics of social mobility and symbolic interactionism. 5Cs and how Singaporean rats race. Humbug. 9 cups of coffee since 8pm. Not enough bean. Liked wrong photo album on FB. Blame it on a lack of bean and my stupid live feed. Try to fave a friend's album, feed updates, like wrong friend's album. Look like a total arsehead. Get called for it. Apologize. Still reading MMP/Percomm project. Still wondering what the hell I'm supposed to be doing. Bloody Hell.

4.10am
Fuck this. I'm off to bed. Can't do shit at the moment, don't give a flying fuck either. Bollocks to it all. To hell with the projects, I will go to dreamland.

Ham & Cheese

2010-01-15T04:24:00.004+08:00

My Class Is Awesome!

But I bet y'all knew that already. But I'll say it again. MY CLASS IS AWESOME!

Why am I rather high at the moment? Blame the fashion photography on Tuesday, which allowed me to ham it up in front of the cameras. Heh heh. I think I really count as the boisterous bruiser trope. Let's bring up a checklist, eh?

Part of an ensemble band? Check.
A Large Ham? Check!
Might inadvertently send someone flying across the room? Check.
Might buy them a drink after picking them up? Check.
Big, Loud & Scenery-Chewing? Check!
One man wrecking crew/army? Check.
Mighty Glacier pulling Tank duty? Check.
Preference for Big F***in' Guns & other over-sized weaponry? Check!
Not exactly the brightest spark? Check.
Can be played by BRIAN BLESSED? CHECK!

There we go, the boisterous bruiser. BWAHAHAHAHAA! CHISWICK! FRESH HORSES!

But seriously, this year has started off great. And it just keeps getting better. Jan's party tomorrow, and a church costume party next Friday. I shall attend as...*drumroll*...The Spirit! And yes, I found somewhere to rent a trenchcoat.

Before I forget. Note to self: Projects dues soon.

Spring Cleaning

2010-01-05T22:51:00.002+08:00

It's time to go through my things again. Put away all the old stuff, take out the trash, and clear some space in my life. After going through my wardrobe for the past few days, I've found plenty of stuff that I presumed lost, or thrown away. So many things hold so many cheerful memories of a childhood spent laughing, crying, reading, watching, playing, growing. 18 years and more gone by. What a ride it's been.

A big congratulations to Jan for appearing on TV! And Jan, you looked great, and did great. I hope you get a smooth journey during the last few months of work!

I am a happy polar bear. =)

Into The Sun

2010-01-01T23:59:00.000+08:00

The old year is over, and 2010 is in. It's funny. I went through the whole of the Christmas season, without actually feeling very festive at all. Something last year just didn't sit very right. It was as if something was just keeping everyone's spirits down. No matter. It's a new year, and time for a new chapter.

I've actually had a pretty good time this holidays, compared to some of the turmoil in previous years. Then again, chaos can be more fun than order. Anyway, I thank everyone whose made 2009 a good year for me. To 04, y'all are one of the top classes I've ever been in. To 3/4, you guys have done great. Stay united, and don't ever fall apart over small things. To the Bros, let's keep going, shall we? Even if we seem to have skipped the teenage havoc stage, and have gone on to the swap old stories stage.

I have a few things on this year's to-do list. 5 things, to be exact.

Spend my money wiser. Less eating, more money to use for better things.
Keep singing, and learn to play the electric guitar. I can sing, now for something to keep in tune.
Keep more regular hours. I play too much games, I concede. And it's not a nice feeling to wake up and feel like shite. Conclusion? I need more sleep.
Pick up a sports CCA. Doing nothing is great and all, but I really wanna get into better shape. Gotta think about the future, y'know?
Lastly, spend more time with the people I love. I guess I haven't really given as much as I took last year. Time for a change.

And with that, I bid 2009 adieu, and step into the year of Our Lord, Two Thousand & Ten.

Ring Them Bells

2009-11-30T00:49:00.005+08:00

And so it begins. The last day of November is upon us. The Yule spirit is in fine form this year, the high roads and low roads alike are festooned with garlands, banners and bright lights. Optimism seems to have returned, after all the doom and gloom of last year. I blame the HNIC. Or maybe not, he's not really done anything, has he? Anyway, this week sees more crunch fixtures coming up. How's about I go on about schoolwork now, and save the happiness for later?

Okay, my J2 article is still unwritten. I have notes, I have a structure, but I need to force myself to simply write the bleedin' thing. It's been a distraction the past few days, getting the sodding interviews done. Still, I hope that can be done with, so I can move on to Photography. That's the real killer. Food for thought has left me needing inspiration. My photos of chefs at work were all crappy, and most I asked weren't interested in being photographed. Damn my moral compass. Plus my MMP blog malfunctioned. And to top it all off, I broke the DSLR filter when I fell off the stairs, and had to blow my last $80 for a new filter. Bloody effin' hell. Why does everything go wrong at the same time?

Right, that's enough of that. Think happy, JJ, and let the cards fall as they may. It's all about timing and knowing.

Rehearsals for both productions are going extremely well. More practice needed.

Breathe For Another Day

2009-11-28T04:47:00.001+08:00

Don't know how, but the cards fell right again. My assignments are in for MMP and PerComm, plus overtime for Photography and J2. Metaphorically speaking, two winning hands and two reshuffles. I can live with those odds, I guess. But here's the problem. No good ideas for Photography, and a rotten idea for J2. The themes really threw me for a loop, I guess. Still, I live to fight for at least another day.

Review time. J2: Flashmobs. Photography: Food for thought???

I hope I get some inspiration.

Deadliners Before December

2009-11-24T10:58:00.004+08:00

Right, it's deadline week again. The time when everyone scurries around, attempting to catch up on all our assignments. Here's a break down of what I need to finish if I want to see December.

Photography Assignment - 30 Photographs (Food For Thought)
Persuasive Communications - 3 Reflective Journals
Media Management Principles - 1 Job Advertisement
Journalism - Individual Assignment 1

Yep, I think that's everything. Seems a relatively doable target, no? I certainly hope so. I just wonder why things coincide at such a time.

Three thousand bleeding dollars to stay Down Under for 3 weeks...and not even on holiday. What a rotten deal. For $3000, I could fly to Oz, crash with my relatives, and go out on my own. Even then, things, friends and girls I want are all here, so no need to hightail it out yet. Plus, I'd rather like to go to the UK, Ireland or America for a holiday. No way am I gonna blow 3k on a lousy study trip. Betcha TP's too cheap to sponsor us. Ah well, at least I can make my own plans.

Media fast my arse. Whoever dreamt up that idea is a bleeding moron, and you can quote me. If I had to do that crap, you wouldn't see me in school for a month. In any case, corporate youth leadership strikes me as a bunch of assclowns, content to bow and scrape before the great white stick. Well, they can piss off, and take their bovine brains with them. I've had it. Bloody herd of sheep. Worse still, the malady seems to be filtering to my region. And for FUCK'S SAKE, stop the holier-than-thou attitude! That's how the Church in Europe and across the Pond got to be seen as stuck-up sods with no sense of humor!

I'm looking forward to the long weekend. Friday and Saturday seem like good days to go out for a lark, and I think I can find some partners in crime. Hope Jan and Rach are free. I miss the Wild Boys, though. Sakae buffets are so last year. Let's do a number on Kuishin Bo Next!

Say It Isn't So

2009-11-11T21:50:00.002+08:00

Yeah, so my life is rather confusing at the moment. But I guess that's how it always is, right? And I kinda like it that way.

School's been back in session for about a month now, and I'm clicking back into the swing of things. I like all my classes so far. Shame I couldn't take another CDS, but then again, that leaves me with some time to kick back with a good book and a nice cup of tea. I love how everything seems to fall into place sometimes. The Socio group's got Singapore Dreaming for our focus movie. I've never watched it, but I hope it's good. Open-mind approach, activated.

Okay, so I might not be an expert at photography. Thankfully, there's plenty of people willing to teach me and guide me along the way. To everyone who helped me so far, thanks for the boost!

I want to try out for FOC facilitator! I mean, no-one from CMM turned out last time, so we should at least be represented this time around, right?

Christmas is strolling back into season again. How time flies. It seems like yesterday I was grumbling about Christmas being over too soon, and yet, here it is again. Aaaaah, holidays are always welcome.

Watching movies is a nice way to spend your time. Watching movies with somebody who appreciates them is even more fun. Watching movies with a girl who appreciates them, and actually has lots more to offer than just an airy "Yeah, it was nice", is AWESOME. Thanks for a wonderful time, Ms. K, and here's hoping for much more to come.

There's no Christmas morning service in church this year, so we should have a party at my place. That would be fun. Try inviting 50 teens, and watch the place go crazy. Or Andes can arrange the chalet for selected guests only. No party poopers, and no high-mighty-and-holier-than-thou attitudes.

I think I like two girls at the same time. How's that for screwed up? Heh heh. Oh, and I think one of my seniors is really hot. Yep, that's the definition of screwed up, last time I checked. Oh well, I'll just grin and enjoy the pretty women in my life. =)

The Golden Boy

2009-10-25T20:54:00.000+08:00

Freddie Mercury is a LEGEND! Of course, you already knew that, didn't you?

School's back in session, and the holidays are well and truly over. I may not have accomplished everything I set out to do, but I did manage to do a few things, and I'm happy to be back in the saddle for another term.

The flavor of the month is tea. I've become addicted to a cup of tea in the morning, it really kick-starts my day. I might even give up all my other more fascinating concoctions for it. Then again, maybe I won't. And I like a girl. I hope she likes me. She's not my age. Her smile is beautiful. Every little thing she does is magic. It just makes me want to break out into song sometimes.

The last week or so of holidays has been kind to me. I watched a movie, I played football with some old friends, and I made something incredibly tasty. Best of all, I got to go out with a beautiful girl, I ate ice cream with a great friend, and I went out for a quiet err....meal with two other good friends. Yes, I'm incredibly blessed.

First week of term's been okay. I mean, I kinda expected how the cards would fall, in terms of forming groups for projects. The lectures have been cool so far, except for my CDS. Boy howdy, is that lecturer a boring old fart. Anyway, I'm skipping all his lectures this term, since everything is already in the handbook. Which means Friday is a 2 hour day, ending at 11am! Better yet, Wednesday follows the same format, and I only have an afternoon lecture on Monday. Can I get an AMEN?

But seriously, I need to do better this term. Less sleeping in lectures, less last-minute rushing. Maybe more caffeine. I've got MMP (the online module), PerCom, Photo, J2 Feature, and Socio. I might need to borrow a DSLR, and I definitely need models for my photography tutorials. Yes, I mean you gotta come in as photo subjects. So if anybody wants to volunteer their services, I would like to know. I can't afford to pay you, but I'll probably take you out for dinner after that. I'm not a professional yet, y'know.

Another reason why the first week was bearable: Friday. Dropped in on Jan while she was working, gave her a little surprise. Hope it brightened her day up! She certainly cheered up my dreary afternoon.

Everything seems so much brighter this year. I wish it could go on forever. And my adventure continues...

Sunny With A Chance Of Hyper

2009-10-11T22:51:00.000+08:00

The holiday is winding down again. Another holiday, and yet I haven't gotten as much done as I would have liked. I still haven't done the beer-battered fish and chips, I haven't had any time to learn guitar, and I still owe someone a treat and a movie. I have managed to finish an internship, I've created a new drink, and had lunch with some of my friends. So, with a week left, I would like to do a few things.

Meet the gang and raid a buffet together.
Go out for ice cream.
Watch a movie.
Get out in the sun and play!
Cook something incredibly tasty.
Restring the old guitar I found in the study.
Go out for a proper drink.

The year so far has been kind. I'm in a much better mood than I was the whole of last year, and I'm living a much more stable way. Less late nights, no 3 or 4 day hiatus from sleep, and I can afford the odd day of aimless drifting once in a while. Guess I adjusted better this time.

Bicycle day was enjoyable. Thanks to Arthur, Pamela, Lavette, David and Ivan for turning up, and livening a week when I was bored out of my skull. Among the teens in church, y'all count as some of my closest friends.

I wonder what kind of career I'll get when I finish studying. I hate maths and sciences, I excel in English, I love history, politics, literature, music, movies and theatre, plus I like sports. I can talk my way out of damn near anything, I am not a great artist, and I feel awkward around girls. What a profile to have, yeah?

Sod that, though. Here's to one last blastin' week o'fun!

Happy Holiday Hindsights

2009-09-23T01:03:00.000+08:00

Right, it's been three weeks into my holidays, and I'm doing pretty well. Err, except for the numerous cuts and bruises on my left side, and the muscle ache all over my body. Heh heh, business as usual on the football pitch.

Big thank you to Andes, Arthur, James and Ivan for a wonderful time at Crystal Jade. I was feeling a little down that day, so major props to you guys, for being inviting me to one of the best dinners out I've ever had with friends.

This is my last two days working. Yes, I actually got off my arse and got a job. Pretty cool, huh? I'm an intern (no, not interned in a prison), at a law company downtown. I'm quite the happy camper! I've learned a lot during my nearly-a-month at the company, and experience like this is always welcome.

Anyway, plans are still afoot for a 1C04 gathering. I'm just not sure what to do. I mean, the cost of booking a chalet seems a little restrictive when we could just crash at someone's place and have a blast, but who's got a house to take us? And I'm not sure we can hang at Sentosa til the next morning.

Monday's party was AWESOME! Sadly for some of us, Pamela and Janilyn couldn't make it. But still, there was good food, and great company. What's not to like about that? Bonus points to Arthur for the ample supply of root beer and ice cream. Yes, I'm a root beer addict. Nothing wrong with that! =)

I'm really looking forward to Rahman's party. It will be great to see the GOB network, and reacquaint myself with a particular hermit crab. If he sees this, yah boo sucks to him, cos I'm feeling rather irrepressible at the moment. I wonder if my extra-strong, extra-sweet cup of tea had anything to do with that.......Nah, not important.

Why do I seem to be such a klutz around girls, especially good-looking ones? Gaaaah, I blame 10 years in a boys' school. But if I hadn't gone there, I might've never met The Wild Bunch. So I guess the benefits outweigh a little social awkwardness? Yep, it was worth it. Once again, I had an argument with myself and won. I'm a VERY happy camper!

Another benefit of being at a law company, you learn such interesting things while doing research. Like how I can own a REAL sword when I'm 18, as long as it's for display purposes. Wow.... I can finally get that 1796 Heavy Cavalry Sword I've been eyeing since I was 15. IDEA!!!

By the by, damned playlist.com seems to be afraid of the record companies. Never you mind though, I still have Groove Shark!!!

Winding Down The Clock

2009-08-27T06:17:00.000+08:00

The clock's ticking like a time-bomb, but at least the last two plays have brought me closer to the goal line. Crucially, I've run the ball out, stopping the clock, and buying me some time for thought. I guess this is it. The last one for the year. My goal is survival. Hail Mary full of grace.

Kick Into Gear

2009-08-18T07:04:00.002+08:00

Right, now that semester is over, time to study. Next week is gonna be rough, so I've gotta enjoy the small break and the opportunity to revise. Speaking of revision, nothing's sticking. I need some study buddies, or I'll go spare studying on my own.

New plans for the year. I'm back in the pool, so I need to maintain that. If I can bring my weight down to maybe 88-91 kg, I should be fine. Also, do better in semester 2. I won't have the design modules weighing me down, so I must do better. Not to say that CMM design modules are horrendously difficult, it's just that I'm not great at design. Them's the breaks.

I wonder how everyone's getting along in their revision? I mean, I check Facebook every few hours, and I see people complaining about studying and $300 handphone bills, and some randy little pervert in Taiwan raving about the girls there. If he likes 'em so much, he should marry one and stay there, wouldn't you agree? Maybe I'll go blog browsing after my swim. Gotta run!

This is ourselves.............under pressure.

Fortune Smile On Us

2009-08-07T23:56:00.005+08:00

Goodbye Ms. Winnie Tan, and thanks for all the memories. You've taught us and guided us for one great semester,and we wish you all the best.

It's been a great day. All my assignments are in, I have no more projects due, no more note-taking, no more losing sleep over project or assignment deadlines. Just a little bit of work left. And with the long weekend, I get some R&R time. I really need some rest, and some ice for my elbow.

Speaking of my elbow, I played some football with the CMM guys today. I'm very happy that I joined them for the game. They are really decent blokes, you know? Bollocks to all the stuff I might have thought previously, they are great fun. And I surprised myself with the display I put up for goaltending and defensive duties. I'm normally not anywhere near that great, I'll admit. But today I hit form, all the better for everyone. And best part is, my adrenaline managed to prevent me feeling the full extent of the bumps and bruises until I got home.

Tomorrow should be great. Hang with the guys and shoot the breeze, while eating and drinking. It's always nice to catch up with old friends.And Monday's footy day. I sure hope it doesn't rain... And that I've recovered by then.

The EXAMS are coming. Granted, I have it easier than most, but I still want to do well, even if that means actually studying. For all the guys and girls who are about to take their exams, God and fortune smile on us all.

Here Comes Time

2009-08-04T23:48:00.002+08:00

I Love My Class. Granted, they can be exasperating, annoying and cheerfully unaware of some things going on in the world, but I don't hold that against them. Maybe I'm just too serious sometimes. In any case, this is the absolute BEST class I've ever been in, 4S1 running in a very close second. And we have one heck of a Care Person. That's the TP version of a form teacher, by the way. I mean, how many other teachers can put up with so much hyperactive and zany behavior from one class, and then buy lunch for that whole class? Mr Ethan Guo, We Salute You!

Okay, for once, I have all my stuff prepared for GDF and EssGra. Both projects are ready and waiting, the only problem is that the EssGra project needs to have a few spanners in the works sorted out. Nothing too drastic, thankfully. And I put my trust in Jiaqi to sort them out. She's a smart cookie, she is. Kudos to Michelle and Shafiq as well, for contributing so much to the project.

Now, my checklist for school simply reads: Journalism 1 assignment, and prepare for exams. That's right folks, my major assignments are all in, and I'm almost done with the semester. Perhaps at the end of the week, I will post my views on the WHOLE class. Well, maybe an exception or two. After all, if you've nothing good to say, don't say it. And since Friday is Ms Tan's last day on the job, I think we should get her something, don't you?

Right, another game of football coming up on Monday. That's probably the highlight of my weekend, unless I go beast some sushi joint with the Crazy Gang. Hope they're free. I wonder how they are all getting along. Time for a surprise inspection! Heh heh. Barge in at their houses and crash on the couch time! Nah, won't happen. I'm too nice. =)

Oh yeah, I'm told we are at a disadvantage playing other regional teams, as our defence is not that great. Well, what the hell did you expect, since our idea of defence seems to be leaving a lone sweeper to cover, and letting every other player charge up the bloody field, without listening either to the sweeper or the goalie? Way to go, geniuses. You can't expect Alan and I to catch every bleeding thing thrown at us, and do so with no defensive cover, or anyone tracking back. JBC. To any prospective defenders, have some sodding discipline. BFH.

Presentations, presentations, presentations. Had quite a few this term, don't know how well I did. Hope what I gave was enough. Maybe next semester will be better, since there won't be anymore exams. Also, I'm told some subjects are great if you can use flashbangs and smokes, so I have my fingers crossed. I certainly won't do that great for this semester, unless I can spring a major surprise. Hope springs eternal in the human breast, et cetera.

I should legally change my name to JJ Seah Junjie. I'm a little tried of people not being sure what my name is. And JJ is good. I used to want Craig, or Johnny or something, but maybe when I really want to GTF outta here and go somewhere far away. And that don't look like happening anytime soon.

I have a possible job offer. Got the word over the past few days. Sounds extremely tempting. And with the job market so bad, any openings are certainly worth consideration. I don't have that much to do, anyway.

I need less coffee, and more sleep. My energy levels seem to crash during the late morning to early afternoon, and again at night. Eight to twelve cups a day is unhealthy, especially my kind of blend. Well, the first step to recovery is recognizing the problem. And I need to stop swearing so much...NOT. It ain't me, babe. It just ain't. And I need more swim partners, it get's boring cranking out 40 laps by yourself. My shoulder and back problems are finally gone, thank God. Now there's just my knee I gotta watch. I wanted a motorcycle. My dad wouldn't let me. I'll settle for a muscle car, or at least a muscle car bodykit on a good set of wheels. Time to look into getting my license.

Johnny Cash Songs on an Electric Guitar. Dreams Will Come True.

Cutting Close To The Line

2009-07-25T23:29:00.003+08:00

I'm not that complicated. People are my friends until they stop being my friends. How does that happen? Well, first, you've gotta do something that really pisses me off. Then, you've got to refuse to admit it, or be completely unapologetic about it. If you don't know what it is, I would probably tell you. And if you don't like something I'm doing, will you for fuck's sake have some goddamn bloody guts and tell me to my face? Don't bloody skulk around in the shadows and poison the well, step up and take a fucking swing. We might both actually gain something out of it, even if it's only a black eye and a bruised ego

Some people might know what I'm talking to, some people might not. If you aren't exactly understanding why I'm so pissed, come talk to me, and I'll tell you.

Now then, apologies are in order for some people.

Firstly, to Lee Cheng and Na'im, I am extremely sorry for not giving you a fair shot in the beginning. At the start of the school year, I will admit I was not exactly happy to have you guys in the marketing group, and didn't expect too much effort. But you have both worked extremely hard, provided invaluable knowledge and experience to the group, and proved me wrong. Without all of this, we would probably have fallen apart from stress. Please accept my sincere apologies for having misjudged you both.

Next, to Eudora Shin. I am sorry for the way I so spectacularly lost my temper on Friday afternoon. I did not understand that you were just cracking a joke, and completely blew up at a small remark. Even though it was a long and trying week, there was still no excuse for losing control like that. As assistant class chair, I'm supposed to be more in control of my temper, and I failed. I am truly sorry.

Finally, to the Gang, sorry for not meeting up with y'all more often. I am more busy than I anticipated this term, but maybe now I can stay in touch better, yeah? I hope you guys understand. Thanks for being such great friends. Brothers For Life!

By the way, HAPPY BIRTHDAY WJ! Yes, you big lug, you're finally 18. Time to live it up a bit, no? Welcome to the club!

PS. A big thanks to everyone who made this week such a success. I love y'all for it.

Running Late For A Train

2009-07-22T23:57:00.000+08:00

Okay, I really gotta kick things up a notch or two. I know I can do better.

Term's almost done. Unfortunately, my grades have still been uninspiring. My general attitude is still holding strong, and I'm still happy to be in the course. Even better, I'm really grateful that I ended up with such a great class. I took the road seldom traversed, and it paid off. To think, I might've missed out on all this.

My back and shoulder is still shot from Saturday's football. And I'm still pissed that I let in cheap goals. Lighting bloody well better not strike twice, or I'm gonna have some strong words with the bastard. Also, I'm gonna fight during the hols! Or at least learn to fight, and evolve to Human Wrecking Ball Mk2. Now, should I opt for wrestling or MMA? Or both? Decisions, decisions.

Still gotta keep to my deadlines. I have MedSoc GA, Essgra GA, GDF IA, and Journalism IA left to finish. Marketing GA is almost done. I will survive!

Before I forget, I must once again note: I have a wonderful class! Especially the girls, they take the trouble to explain the female mind (or at least some of it) to me. Without them, I'd probably not catch anything half the time. Hats off to the ladies!

Photographic Perception

2009-07-15T23:50:00.004+08:00

Yeah, the title ain't saying anything, right. I agree, I'm talking a load of humbug. I just wanted to have an alliterative title.

Well, I've survived, so far. But I'm starting to feel a little weary, what with assignments constantly rushing at me and so on. Anyway,before I started going into the whole "I'm-too-worn-out-to-care" bullshit, I need to remember that I do have other things going on, and that I'm not the only student in the world. Hopefully all my friends can help keep me sane. They've done a remarkable job so far, wouldn't you agree?

Okay, I still have no idea how to use Photoshop, and I'm just too sleepy to keep going. I'll finish it off in the morning, have another argument with my dad about punctuality, run down to the shop, and get the bleeding thing printed. Right, simple as that.

By the way, why are girls such complicated creatures? I mean, I've been around the girls in my class for what, 3 months now, and I still don't understand a lot of what they are going on about, and sometimes it just drives me spare. Oh well, just avoid trouble and bumble my way through, albeit a little obliviously. I still think the girls in my class are wonderful, by the way. They really are. Anyway, I have an appointment with the Sandman. Goodnight everyone!

PS. Enjoy the video!

Note to self. Update playlist.

Another note to self. Drink less coffee.

Pans And Fires

2009-06-29T23:49:00.000+08:00

Well, I managed to survive the week. Scary as heck, it was. Majorly rushed several assignments, full on smoke, mirrors and charm. I think my presenting skills are still intact, thank God. Hope I don't go all to pot on my projects, though.

I've lost some weight over the holidays, down 6 kilos to 97kg. I think I shall give myself a round of applause, and a root beer. *Slurps*

There, that's better. Where was I? Oh yeah, keeping fit and healthy...or not. Now, term is back in full swing, and everyone is probably fixed on the 2 graphics projects. Oddly enough, so am I. My grades last term were rather insipid and uninspiring, something I really need to correct. Now let's see, the to-do list for these next weeks.

Essential Graphics [Photoshop] project
Graphic Design project
Marketing project
4 more Marketing journals
Media & Society group project
APEL folio
Catch up on my sleep.

On number 7, I calculated that if my average amount of sleep was supposed to be 7 hours, from 11pm 'til 6am, I'm currently short 91 hours of sleep for the month. I suppose I have quite some catching up to do, in that case.

Friday was extremely fun, I had lots of fun at Arthur's. I learned a lot about our region, and also about my friends. I have much more respect for some of them, decidedly less so for others. And to my surprise, I am something like the regional mystery. How that figures is beyond me...or maybe people just don't have the time to try and read me. Here I was thinking I was a happy open book, when apparently I'm the exact opposite. Oh well....guess I'll stay closed. It's better when people don't know what to expect. Wild Card, Maverick, Joker in the pack. Hope my close friends don't find me cold, private or distant. If I am, tell me. Ask me about something, I just might tell you.

Media, Society And A Pig

2009-06-25T21:52:00.000+08:00

Right, I need to rewrite my bloody MedSoc letter. Damn it to hell. I hate the bloody thing. I mean, what's the point of writing the letter if it won't make one little bit of difference? Why should I bother? Oh wait.....it's counted in my grade points. Ah nuts.

Okay, time to multitask. Rewrite letter, and when tired, do the notes. Oh, and drink coffee. So much for deadlines, timelines, datelines, hotlines, storylines and every other kind of line. Yes, even the Siegfried and Maginot lines.

Swine flu. Everyone is up in arms. Panic, chaos and mania. Jeez people, grow a backbone...it's not like it's the end of the world. Just be careful, that's all. Don't do anything stupid, like traveling to infected countries and breathing the infected air, and then coming back to "give back to the community". I wonder how the pig who started the whole damn mess feels about all this. Did it die and go to piggy heaven? Where it looked upon its ultimate revenge and laughed like crazy? Oh, look at those humans going spare trying to figure my cold out! See how they run! Who's crying wee wee wee now, eh?

Alright, time to get back to work. I'm running outta time.

Here We Go Again!

2009-06-21T20:57:00.002+08:00

Right, holidays are over. Back to school, back to lectures, back to tutorials, back to waking up at 6am cos my dad believes in waking early even when class starts at 1pm, and back to seeing all my friends. Thing is, first week of school's normally a blur for me, as my body is resetting itself. Sadly, this means I can't sleep at 4am and wake up at 2pm or something. Also, I may get glassy-eyed in class, have a faraway look on my face or for some reason, keep hearing a rockin' band in my head. Whatever the case may be, please don't wake me up. I'd like to pretend I'm still on vacation a little longer. Then again, what with pig cold and all, we might be getting an extra week of break.

Well, here we go again!

Five Of Freedom

2009-06-14T16:19:00.007+08:00

This has been the best week of the holidays! The food, the fun, and the freedom! So much done in such a short time. A real battery recharge and boost. Once again, I thank everyone who turned up, and made it happen!

Best 2 days? Easily Thursday and Friday! Kuishin-Bo buffet with Arthur, Ivan and Wendy was nothing short of spectacular. There was so much to eat and drink, and even more time to do it! And the food quality? Excellent. Well, maybe the soft-shell crabs could have been bigger, but still, I'm not exactly complaining. Oh, and I swallowed a large piece of prawn shell without realizing it. Thank God it hung around somewhere less obstructive than my throat, and I could cough it out later, instead of having to choke on it.

Apart from that little incident, we ate. And ate. And ate. And drank. And ate. And...well, you get the picture, yeah? Food, fun, chaos and laughter when Master Chef 1V4N decided to make a wasabi tart. Heh heh. Yes, it looked odd. Pics are on Facebook. No, for once I didn't eat it. Surprising, no?

Sleepover came right after that. Well, I didn't exactly sleep, but I did get a night full of talking, laughing and general tomfoolery. The two cans of soup, the movies and the first season of Mind Your Language were much appreciated. I hope everyone else had as much fun as I did!

You'll forgive me if I don't remember so much of the sleepover. I didn't exactly get much sleep, and was high on fun.

Breakfast after that was nice, though we didn't get to try Lavette and Evelyn's pancakes, since they decided not to cook. Ah well, some other time, I guess.

Everyone's headed off for camps, holidays and so on. I've got five days of freedom, home with just school projects to do. Wonder what I could accomplish? And why do I feel like having a drunken house party? Wait...bad idea, I'd need to clean up after. Happy hols, everyone!

(I Wanna Be) Your Steve McQueen

2009-06-08T12:32:00.000+08:00

I'm too darn happy to bother about minor setbacks. Sure, I have scorch marks all over my back (which feels like someone took a blowtorch to it), sure, my laptop charging pin may have broken, but I just can't help being cheerful! There's so much to look forward to this week! And for the rest of the holidays too! A shame I can't remember when we're supposed to go back to school. Hee hee, score another point for me.

Stuff I'm looking forward to:

Kuishin-Bo Buffet!
Sleepover Special!
My Sun Scorches Leaving!
My Repaired Headphones!
My Repaired Laptop!
Windows 7 Release!
Seeing All My Friends!
Watching My New Mel Brooks Collection (THANKS GINNY & LIZ!)
Eating All The Chocolate In My Fridge! (THANKS AGAIN, GINNY & LIZ!)

Yeah, so how can I let a little problem or two ruin my week? I'm sure it'll all work out fine.

There's an online debate raging about who is the King Of Cool. Is it James Dean? Marlon Brando? Steve McQueen? Personally, I'll take Steve McQueen. Enjoy the video!

Shoot To Thrill

2009-06-07T07:47:00.001+08:00

What other guy finishes his exams, then goes home and scoffs two plates of noodles and a plate of chicken rice? That's right, I'm the one of a kind, original Beast North East!

Heh heh. Recent activities have been, to put it mildly, brilliant! For all those who organized the Sentosa outing, and relentlessly badgered people to come, a very heartfelt thanks for making it happen. Thanks to those people who came as well. More people equals more fun!

The only drawback to going to the beach? Sunburn. I really need to get more effective sunblock. Ah well, no point crying over spilt milk. Juts bring on the moisturizer.

I should finish all my assignments ASAP. Then I have more time to party!

Sleepover planning going into overdrive! Oh, and two words for the week: Kuishin-Bo and Buffet!

Okay, I gotta go get ready for church. Duty calls.

Switch And Arrange

2009-06-04T22:44:00.000+08:00

Okay, Journalism 1 midterms tomorrow. I've looked over and revised the concepts, but I still have no bleeding idea how the test's gonna look like, except for the sample Adam gave me..Thanks Adam!

Weird feeling, obsessing over a test. I must've drunk or eaten something off. Oh wait..... it's just me studying for a change. Hmm, I need a break. And a stiff drink, or a speed drink.

Sentosa Saturday coming up. I wonder who planned it. Anyway, it's a good way to go relax. And I can legally buy booze. Heh heh.

I want a sleepover! Or two....or parties! Yes, lots of parties!

I need to drink less glucose.

Man. Monster. Mountain.

2009-05-31T23:49:00.003+08:00

Yeah, yeah, so I drank two cups of foul-tasting sauce. Honestly, it's only bad at the bottom, where all the stuff settles. Still, it was funny to see everyone go loony over that. And, that proves I am the sickest person in the youth. Not sick as in cough and sneeze sick, but sick as in WICKED SICK!!! By the way, the sauce was vinegar, Tabasco and wasabi.

Let's see...put away around 15 dogs, still had space for dessert and some dim sum. Oh, and a burger when I got back home. Plus a can of root beer, and 2 1.5l bottles of water to flush the system. Yes, I AM a monster.

Discussed a sleepover with the 3IV bunch. Guests should not be more than twelve, I guess. Wonder who should Arthur invite?

A day to mid-terms. 2 papers, 2 hours, and freedom. Watch this space.

Dogs And Deadlines

2009-05-28T22:23:00.004+08:00

This is gonna be a short post. I've got piles of stuff to do, and not much time to do 'em. Once more, once more unto the brink!

Okay, just had one hell of an argument with my dad about the whole hot dog holocaust thing on Saturday. Granted, he has a point about unhealthiness and carcinogens, but sheesh! Can't he cut me some slack in this? Sure, the youth are gonna be their usual cheapskate skinflint selves, but what can we do? There's an inordinate amount of gluttons that we have, so should we buy proper, classy stuff for them to scoff? The blighters probably wouldn't appreciate such stuff. No point in casting pearls before...well, you get the general idea. That's why I'm rather cheesed off.

More deadlines. Oh well, school has always been about handling, coping and not going bloody spare. At least, that's what it always seemed to be about. Thank God for an awesome class! Without such fun people, I probably would have gone nuts. The fact that everybody seems to willingly accept each other's quirks and oddities is extremely encouraging. 1C04 Rocks!!!

Not to self: J1 IWA1 and MedSoc Proposal due tomorrow. Press on. Deus Vult!

Flash Panache

2009-05-21T08:21:00.002+08:00

Well, I guess I saw it coming. Graphic design ain't exactly my thing, and you might get a good design outta me once every few months. Guess what Ms Tay said is true...plenty of hard work and ideas, but basic, and simple artwork that lacks a focus. Still, I hope that my pitch may have at least helped me pass. I am at least proud of my pitch. Now to work out how to sell ice to Eskimos and sand to desert nomads. The complimentary color choice helped too. I wish I could've done better. Then again, my design ideas are a typical guy's, and I favor the old-school, which I make no apologies for.

Quote of the moment: "There's no school like the old school, and I'm the fuckin' 'eadmaster!"

But enough on that. Next deadlines: Journalism story and Med Soc proposal, Marketing journals due Friday. Okay, so I've started four and finished two, so another two more to go. I should get them done ASAP. So much to do, but I guess, enough time to do 'em.

EssGra tutorial later, and I'm still a little slow on the whole Illustrator thing. Skills test is next week, apparently, and I sure as shit don't wanna fail. Time to get outsider help! Failing that, textbook osmosis!

The ISA Took My Baby Away

2009-05-17T08:27:00.006+08:00

Where's a boxing gym near your house when you need one? Dime a dozen Stateside, but here, no, this is Singapore, sonny, we're nice people, we don't do boxing. So no way for me to blow off some steam by just hitting a bag repeatedly. Great. Where's a sparring partner when you really need one? Wait, did I scare 'em off?

I think the pace of school is picking up a little. I'm actually having to start reading the texts more, rather than rely on surface knowledge, smoke and mirrors. Speaking of smoke and mirrors, thank you ISD and Mr WKS for screwing me over so damn nicely. My hat's off to you folks. The day my story proposal is submitted, you geniuses take it upon yourselves to pour cold water all over it, by actually addressing the issues! Now I have to use my reserve, or get a new one. Bollocks.

Let's see, Journalism, Marketing and Graphics Design assignments due this week. And me without Adobe CS4. Then again, the Mac labs are free on Tuesday, maybe I should cut lectures and finish my work instead. It would be interesting, but hell of a risk. Also, I'm beginning to think my marketing journals are a load of crap. Call me perfectionist, but all of them seem to be too similar to each other, and each seems to be sticking on familiar turf, and not really exploring new grounds. Still, work is work, and deadlines are deadlines.

I want a leather jacket!

15 Words

2009-04-29T21:22:00.004+08:00

Interesting tutorial today. Graphic Design Fundamentals it may be, but it was much more fun than the name suggests. Oh yeah, and I still can't draw for nuts. Well, I can learn, I guess. Also, I need to remember to watch the cussing during presentations. That might've lost me points. Alas for the spilt milk!

Objective? 15 self-descriptive adjectives. Here are mine. Feel free to comment, critique, and add you own. All responses are welcome.

Sarcastic
Cynical
Strong
Divisive
Loyal
Loud
Rough
Passionate
Old-School
Hopeful
Musical
Patriotic
Bold
Deep
Footloose

That's me. Next time I do that I will add quotes, figures and ideas that represent those words. Also, I'm considering replacing some words, with things like brash, reckless, headstrong, stubborn and foolhardy.

Note to self: PACEsetters application due tomorrow.

Journals And Journalism

2009-04-27T23:19:00.008+08:00

I like being the last one awake. It's quiet. Everyone's asleep. Just me and my thoughts. The stillness lets me gather them. All I need is a good drink to keep me awake. Excuse me while I hunt for my soda.

That's better. Now for the serious article. Today has been fun, a little tiring, and all-around interesting. I liked how it ended the most. APEL class was enjoyable, and it got me thinking about comfort zones. I guess we all have our own comfort zones, and yes, it is extremely difficult to get off my ass and move, but that's what life's all about. No fun if you don't risk anything, right?

Next class, Marketing 1, and here the problems started. Okay, I'm in a new group again, and I like half of em. Sad state of affairs, no? But anyway, here's how I got myself into that mess.

We were supposed to form project groups. Five or six per group. For some inexplicable reason, I invited the two repeats to join us. Dammit, I should've known better. To Adam and Christel, I'm sorry for the bad call, and I am willing to cover extra if they lag a little. But I won't do their work for them.

How do I always get myself into these problems?

Far Gone, More Ahead

2009-04-26T13:52:00.006+08:00

I took a few hours on Saturday to look back once again, and remember where I was this time last year. Big difference, and it's very welcome. I must always remember to avoid repeating old mistakes. Bit of a mouthful, but it's true. I can't change my past without a time machine, but I sure as hell can learn from it. So, I thank all those who have walked through the halls of my life, if even for a split second. You've all been part of the learning process, you've taught me something important, and you've kept me sane (well, nearly sane).

CMM rocks! Alright, so there might be a ton of required reading, and challenges like Essential Graphics, but hey, what's life without challenges, eh? Oh, anybody mind giving me a crash course on graphic design and art?

Class outing didn't happen. Oh well, shit happens. It's how you deal with it, that defines you. I choose to be nice about it. Admittedly, it was spontaneously planned, so I shouldn't have expected more than a lukewarm response. Still, I hope we can go out as a class sometime this few weeks. The idea is that if we are a tight-knit unit, we will have no problems working together in different groups for our projects. Also, I'd rather we all start off as friends.

I need to do a few things this week and next. I have a few bills to settle, choose which cover I will use for my laptop, purchase a bokken or two, restring my classical, purchase textbooks, and catch the peninsula plaza shops when they are open. I need one or two more buckles. Other than that, I've got school. Yeah, I'm not as free as I was, but not yet at the busy busy busy kind of juncture. Life's lovely.

Class In Session

2009-04-22T11:20:00.001+08:00

Well, I survived my first class day unscathed. Excellent! So far, journalism looks the most interesting of the modules. Maybe it's because the teacher is a fat happy bloke who gambles, swears, drinks and smokes. Or maybe it's just me. The Graphics teacher is a little scary....stickler for discipline, she is. Still, I suppose that's a good thing.

I need art supplies! Yeah, I thought I wouldn't need any more color pencils.....oh well. WJ suggested Art Friend, so I'll probably go down on Saturday. Anyone wanna come? We can try getting some discounts!

Class outing set for Thursday. Yes, we do have another free day this week. What are the odds of that? Anyway, I think it would be better for the outing to be this week, rather than next week during the Labor Day holiday. Everywhere is sure to be crowded during that long weekend. For some reason, I'm much more enthusiastic about class spirit than usual. That's a good thing, right? Back to the topic, our options are bowling, a movie, ECP, Sentosa, hanging around town, a barbecue, Pasir Ris Park, or a Sakae raid (No prizes for guessing who suggested that.) We vote on the issue at 3. Oh, today's CCA day. Should I sign up with something, or stay under radar for now? We shall see...

For now, that's it from me. Updates when I update! =)

Burns And Patches

2009-04-20T18:20:00.000+08:00

Three days since orientation finished. I'm sunburned, unfortunately. Also, I've got a patch on my arm from where the fake tattoo was. Ah nuts. Hopefully I won't look like a right idiot come Tuesday.

Day 2 was fun. I learned more about my class, course, lecturers, and schedule. Y'know, I didn't have class today. No kidding! No tutorials the first week of class, except Friday, and that's to make up for Labor Day. Lucky, ain't I? Yes Bryan, you hate my guts. Sorry bud, but that's the way the cookie crumbled. No hard feelings, eh?

Spent most of Saturday and Sunday recovering from the sunburn. Also sent the router in for servicing. If I don't configure the next one, my downloads will not connect. Great, just lovely. Brilliant, even. Damn thing.

Monday.......ah, Monday. My last remaining vacation day for a week. And what do I do with it? I spend it shopping. Go me! Walk up and down North Bridge and Orchard, and end up with two new belt buckles, and a reserve order for another one. Since my clothes are kinda low-key compared to others, I guess my standout options are limited to accessories and shoes. And maybe my jackets, if I can get my hands on a leather jacket. Hopefully, one that doesn't have a lot of pockets, and can fit on my shoulders. The one I tried had too many pockets, and wasn't cut broad enough for my shoulders. Oh well, I still have my maroon hood, my black alumni reversible, and my denim number. Maybe I should get some boots, a drover hat, a leather fedora, and a motorcycle as well. Okay, maybe not the motorcycle.

School's in tomorrow, and I get to see all my pals again. I must remember that this is my chance for a whole new start, at something I hope I'm good at, somewhere I like. So if I start complaining before next year, can you guys do me a favor and hassle me until I stop? Thanks, much appreciated.

PS. 1CO4, if you guys happen to stumble across my blog, please gimme a shoutout and link up!

First Day Of The Rest Of My Life

2009-04-16T20:49:00.004+08:00

Just got back from TP an hour ago. It's been a great day, in many ways. I'm finally back in school, my classmates rock, and my course is looking more and more interesting by the minute!

Got an early start today. Registration and all the minor details are not important. What is important, is the rest of the day. Sure, we started as all freshmen normally do, bored and wondering exactly how it is we got where we were. Still, I think we've all wound up good friends, or at least we will try to make the effort tomorrow, if we didn't today. Props go to Harold and Zul for making the conversations more interesting, Rachel for being such a nice dance partner(and not mentioning the fact that I still have two left feet!), and Jolene for being on the same bus as me, and saving me from a boring trip back home. Oh, and Leonard for being a co-anchor. To the rest of my class, 1CO4, your names will all be up as soon as I can get 'em. Link me, if you happen to stumble across my blog before I ask you. 1CO4 ROCKS!

A note to the wild bunch: All the girls are pretty awesome...nyah nyah. XD

Free As A Bird

2009-04-02T17:09:00.004+08:00

FREE THE WEB!

Yeah, idealistic, over-simplistic, and unrealistic. Still, something to hope for.

First imeem, then YouTube, now Project Playlist. Copyrights, legal restrictions, lawsuits pending, self-proclaimed police of the internet... Where did everyone's spine go? Damn the recording companies, media moguls, and all their ilk. Down with the fat cats! Off with their swollen, self-righteous heads!

There, that's better. Rant over. We have normalcy.

One Month

2009-03-30T17:30:00.001+08:00

Okay, one more month to go. I've cleared my backlogs, packed my supplies, horse is saddled, guns are loaded, and I'm itching to be back in the saddle. Time to leave one chapter behind, and open a new one. It's been a long rest, time to saddle up.

Last week or so has been busy. I've managed to clear up most, if not all, of my backlog. I'm officially registered in Temasek, I've finally gotten my NS deferment approved, and I've re-modeled the interior of my bedroom. Not too bad for one week.

I wonder about what will happen when I go back to school. I do hope it will be a different, rather than indifferent, start. I've learned from bitter experience what an indifferent start can do, so I resolve to start much better, and much happier. I also hope they don't ask me to buy a laptop. I love my old one too much. I will upgrade if necessary, but no new ones please.

Now, moving on to different topics. My dad had a little piece of advice for me...keep my head down. Under the radar. In the background. Behind the scenes. In other words, avoid airing my controversial topics on trivial topics like race, religion, rights and freedoms, censorship, music, movies, politics, war, and so on. Ah nuts. There go my plans to turn establishment on its head, subvert the dominant paradigm, and cause anarchy in the UK! Wait, we ain't in the UK. Rats, foiled again!

My dratted cough is back again. Bleeding thing just won't die, will it? And to compound matters, it's a dry cough. The irritating one that just won't go away. Keeps me awake at night, stops me from running far without stopping to cough my brains out. Lovely.

Speaking of running, I'm going back to swimming. Anybody wants to join me? I've got nothing to do these days. Absolutely nothing. If anything's happening, call me, yeah? Thanks, guys and girls. I'm off to roast some meat!

PS. How's the new playlist? Comments/Criticisms are welcome.

If The Train's Late

2009-03-14T15:00:00.000+08:00

What happens if your train's late? Nothing, I guess. the train arrives when it arrives. Story of my February, really. Nothing really happened, til right at the end. And then, when you're expecting to cop a break, sit down and catch some shuteye, your train's right there. Blink, and you miss it.

It's been a good end of the month, though. SK2 Party was excellent. A little rushed, perhaps, but we pulled it off perfectly. Perhaps the only downside was that I may have made too much food. Still, better surplus than lack, right? Thank God for all the guests. And that was only February...

March has been even better. First piece of good new? I'm in TP! I have been offered and accepted a place in the Communications and Media Management (aka Mass Comm) course! It ain't exactly what I planned, but I will take it. Back to school in April!

Finally managed to make it to a class gathering. 4S1 Class of 2007...still as perverted and mischievous as ever. We all seem to get on much better now. Except for hairstyles, height, and build, we are still the same....no major personality changes, no deaths or hospitalizations...I'd call that a pretty good ride so far.

Last bit of good news for this post. Free Lunch! Yeah, I actually got a free lunch. Yesterday the family went to a place owned by a friend of my dad's, called Greenwood Fish Market & Bistro. The owner's name is David, and he's a friend of the family. Anyway, he invited us to the re-opening of the restaurant, and they've added a bakery to it! Great place, fresh sashimi, fresh oysters, so on and so forth. (You guessed it, their specialty is seafood.) I definitely recommend it. Menu's a tad pricey, but for quality of that sort, I don't really mind.

Okay, holidays are running their course for everyone. I must plan at least one food raid with the Band of Brothers. Oh, and download more stuff! I'm still addicted to piracy, and will be for some time. so the RIAA, the big-time producers and the rest can shove it, with their respect copyright law crap. To hell with that, I want my free stuff!

So, my to-do list. Plan a raid, play games, exercise more, have fun. Sounds do-able. Oh, and long term, find enough courage to tell her I like her. Yep, definitely do-able. That's all, folks!

Kansas City Shuffle

2009-02-03T11:10:00.003+08:00

Someone tagged me to do this, and I thought it might be fun. Oh well, here goes nothing. Oh, and please remember that my music library is loaded with rock n roll, country, oldies, and so on, so we might get some really funny stuff coming up.

1.Put your iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag 10 or more friends who might enjoy doing this as well as the person you got it from.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Have A Drink On Me - AC/DC

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
You're In My Heart (The Final Acclaim) - Rod Stewart

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Back In The Saddle - Aerosmith

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Fast Cars And Freedom - Rascal Flatts

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Rock N Roll Heart - Eric Clapton

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Mona Lisas And Mad Hatters - Mandy Moore

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Heroes And Villains - The Beach Boys

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Way Back Into Love - Hugh Grant and Haley Bennett

WHAT IS 2+2?
Cherry Pie - Warrant

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
You're My Best Friend - Queen

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
What Makes You Different (Makes You Beautiful) - The Backstreet Boys

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
I Walk The Line - Joaquin Phoenix

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Englishman In New York - Sting & The Police

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
I Just Called To Say I Love You - Stevie Wonder

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Don't Dream It's Over - Crowded House

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Bless The Broken Road - Rascal Flatts

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Free Bird - Lynyrd Skynyrd

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Californication - Red Hot Chili Peppers

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
I Wanna Be Sedated - The Ramones

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Something Happened On The Way To Heaven - Phil Collins

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Livin' La Vida Loca - Ricky Martin

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
The Ghost Of You - Michael Learns To Rock

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Everything - Michael Buble

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For - U2

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Believe - Josh Groban

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
What Hurts The Most - Rascal Flatts

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
My Love - Westlife

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
I Won't Say (I'm In Love) - Disney Soundtrack

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Words I Couldn't Say - Rascal Flatts

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Funeral For A Friend/Love Lies Bleeding - Elton John

Second Verse, Same As The First

2009-01-15T00:36:00.004+08:00

The new year has become just another year. The holiday euphoria has worn off, and I believe we can all go back to the comfort of the familiar. Routine, habit, ritual and practice. It had to come sometime, but believe me, I wish it never would.

Imagine. By the end of this year, we will all note the drop of another grain of sand in our hourglasses. Will we truly be "another year older, another year wiser"? I certainly hope so.

So far, so good. Things have been going along very well. I'm still working, probably til end Feb. However, I am on vacation...now, what should I do with said vacation?

Goals...ever so simple, and yet, so far away from achievement. Oh well, here goes nothing.

Stabilize weight at 90kg
Learn to play my electric guitar
Get into my course of choice
Be nice to people.
Ask a girl out properly, without somehow pissing her off or frightening her away.
FACEBOOK!
Celebrate my birthday.

Okay, that's all from me. Targets haven't changed too much, I guess. Second verse, same as the first.

Checklist...Cheque Please!

2008-12-29T14:20:00.004+08:00

Right, so I've spent a bomb on Christmas this year. I hope next year ain't so hard on my wallet. But still, I hope that everyone liked their presents. Next year, I ain't so sure about what you guys will get.

The New Year is charging forward like a runaway train, and we're all in the way. Once again, I will not make any resolutions, because I sure won't keep 'em. However, I have a few achievable goals in mind. No drastic changes, I hope. I've had enough this year.

I'm going back to school
I'm switching to yogurt for lunch in school
I'm gonna learn to play the guitar from scratch
I will save more money than this year
I will learn to laugh more, and cuss less

That's all for what I plan to do next year, year 2009. It will be the 18th year I walk this road, and I'm looking forward to it.

Oh, here's a checklist for what I still want to get.

New Backphones
Effects Pedal
Adidas Cobra Gloves
Twin Red Oak Bokkens
Leather Jacket
The Complete Lord of the Rings Collection - DVD and Books
The Complete Harry Potter Collection - DVD and Books
GTA IV
James Bond DVD Collection
Football Manager 2009

So there, hints on what I want for my birthday. Cash is also appreciated. *Cheeky Grin* Anyway, the next post will be a review of December, so please don't think this blog is dead. Thank you very much. Oh, and one more thing. THANKS FOR ALL THE FOOD AND GIFTS!

Season's Greetings

2008-12-25T00:00:00.002+08:00

To all my friends and relations: Merry Christmas, and a Happy New Year. Thanks for another great year. I Love You All.

The 12 Days - My Christmas Wishlist

2008-12-13T22:20:00.009+08:00

We all know that song the twelve days of Christmas, partridges, doves, rings, the whole caboodle. Well, here's my Christmas list, one item for each day.

Epiphone Les Paul Special 2/SG Special
Laney 20W Amp
Twin Red Oak Bokkens
Adidas Cobra Gloves
Levi's Jeans (straight cut)
Harley-Davidson/ Hard Rock Cafe Leather Jacket
The Complete Lord of the Rings Collection - DVD and Books
The Complete Harry Potter Collection - DVD and Books
The Dark Knight Special Edition DVD
Superman Returns Special Edition DVD
James Bond Complete DVD Collection
GTA IV

Oh, and I need to upgrade my computer and internet speed. This list may change by next week. Cheers, and a Merry Christmas to all!

Turn And Face The Strange

2008-12-01T01:29:00.009+08:00

November's been a crazy month. So many different things have happened, and I think that I really should write it all down before I forget.

Arthur asked me to do this, so I might as well get it over with. Yes, that whole ten things crap.

I'm in love again
I'm still a rock n' roller
I'm obsessed with the 60's
I still can't play more then 4 chords
I have a Christmas list to put up
I've put up the Christmas tree
I'm finally on Facebook
I want an electric guitar
I Believe In The Man In The Big Blue Sky (and His absurd sense of humor)
I waiting for the Hammer to Fall

Right, now that that's over and done with, tag 10 people. Right, how hard could it be?

Tessa
Jiahui
Arthur
James
Rachel
Rachel
Rahman
Jeremy
Esther
Wei Jie

Alright, that's that. You are all free to try and guess the significance of those names.

Now, what else do I need to update people about? Oh yeah, Christmas. Party at my place (the annual one) isn't confirmed yet. I need to have things to do. Sitting around eating and talking seems like an awful waste of a nice big space that I call my house. Perhaps I should get a karaoke set...NAH! But a games platform would really be nice. And if my dad's sound system was working, yeah, that would be great too.

People ask me, what will I do with my pay? Well, some of it I'm saving, some of it is for Christmas, and some of it will be for my guitar. Yes, I'm going to get an electric guitar. Now here's a problem: what happens to my old guitar? Should I keep it, sell it, or give it away? I don't know. You tell me.

Hard Rock Cafe night was really good. Food, friends, music, and a live band. But it could have been better. For some reason, a patron decided to treat us to a godawful 40+ minutes of AVRIL FUCKING LAVIGNE!!! WHAT THE FUCK???!!! That sure as hell ruined the evening. I thought Hard Rock Cafe was about rock music, not all this girl-power skater chick trash. And I also happened to hear Fallout Boy and MCR. What happened to the old Hard Rock Cafe? The one that played classic rock songs? All that seems to have disappeared. No disrespect meant to the DJ, but some of the song choices were extremely poor. Loud, noisy, and not in the least musical. At least the live band made up for that. Classy act, Enigma. Very classy. And finally got my apple crumble. Bliss.

2008's gonna be a strange year. I'll be a year behind everyone, I'll be going back to school, I'll hopefully know where I'm supposed to be, and maybe my life can finally move on. Chapter needs finishing. We'll see how this one ends.

The One Constant In The World

2008-10-18T23:11:00.000+08:00

Change. Ya gotta love it. It comes along out of the blue, and smacks straight into you when you're just going on, minding your own business. Bolt out of the bloody blue. Whoop-de-effin-doo. Anyway, here's confirmation of my current status, and my plans.

I have officially dropped out of my course. I am now an intern at a finance company. I plan to resume my studies next year. I have no intention of returning to my old course, or other engineering/science course, for that matter. I still plan to get my driver's license. My endpoint is still the same, just that the route has changed slightly.

I have made a few promises I fully intend to keep. First off, I will pay for the net's popcorn. I am completely serious. Second. I will learn as much as I can on my job, and not succumb to possible boredom. Third. I will pay attention to a friend's advice that sometimes, she might be right in front of me, but I might not see her...once I figure out what the hell that means. Fourth. I will keep going to the gym. Fifth. Start my Christmas list.

To all who are gonna have exams soon, all the best. For those starting school again, just chill... you'll get over it...it's another tequila sunrise, that's all.

Life Is A Highway

2008-10-04T21:57:00.002+08:00

I'm less tired than I was at the start of the break. Also, less bored. Several interesting events have unfolded. I'm much better for them. It's been a good few weeks.

I have a few announcements to make. Firstly, I am leaving my course of studies. Whatever was taught sure hasn't stuck. Probably never will. I will be getting a job when term re-opens, and will not be returning to school, except maybe to pinch some movies, books and the like. Or I might do that during the last week of break. Whatever works out, I guess.

Secondly, I am giving up my pursuit of her. I did send her an email asking her out, just for a movie and coffee, but have yet to receive a proper response. Also, since I am leaving my course (and most probably the polytechnic), it don't seem too sensible to keep her thinking I'm trying something. I leave that part of my life to chance, fate and time.

Third. HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAHMAN! Yeah, yeah, I'm weeks late, but still, better late than never, eh? (I really need to stop procrastinating, retyping entire articles and deleting them). Anyway, here's wishing you all the best for promo results. Ride on, my brother-in-arms!

Fourth. I am trying to hammer out a plan for my life, or at least the education part of it. Yes, I'm actually thinking hard during a holiday break. No, I don't mean that I was not thinking when I was talking about your life. Of course I was thinking, and not on autopilot. It's just that I am putting as much serious thought as I can into this. All better now? Good. Thank you. Now sod off, you hypersensitive bitch. No wait! I didn't mean to hurt your feelings, it was meant for the other guy. Yeah, you at the back, the one who didn't get it...oh never mind.

Now, for something a little less serious.

I've been going out a lot more lately. 2 badminton games, 1 basketball game, lunch, a school tour, a gaming spree, and more food and drink. For once, I actually enjoyed myself bags more, rather than the usual sitting in front of a computer, like I'm doing now. So, to the cool cats of region 3/4, who planned and organized all the events, thanks for a job well done. Boredom has been alleviated.

Let's see, am I missing anything....nope, don't think I have. Well, til next time chaps. Oh wait. Yeah. Paul Newman has gone to the great roundup in the sky. This video is posted in his honor. To the Hudson Hornet.

Sod It All

2008-09-15T03:15:00.002+08:00

Holidays. Bloody hell. More like boredom, if you ask me. Me dad is still stalling over the job, I have no idea how my exams went (though I hope I failed everything), I don't have much to look forward to, all my games have gone stale, and I've finished watching all the stuff my dad and i bought on our $500 spending spree. Oh yeah, and some updates on that list of mine.

Get The Girl. - Big mistake. She seems to be too busy/uninterested in guys at the moment.
Get my JJ-ness back. - Well, this one's a little better. Despite being utterly bored, I've at least started reading books again, and I'm trying to understand how my thought processes, beliefs, ideas, philosophies and experiences were formed. In short, I'm beginning to understand me again.
Get a job. - Like I said, my dad's stalling. Maybe Gold 90FM has a student DJ position.
Get money. - Besides my weekly pittance, not much unless I get a job....
Get lots of fun. - Everyone seems to be busy or camping, so no fun as of yet.
Get fit. - Faring the best. Knocked off about two kilos so far, should be down to 91 by the end of the hols.
Get ready to rock 'n roll. - This one's half and half. I found a nice Epiphone guitar pack (Les Paul Special II no less) for about $600. Problem? I need $600.

Bloody effin' hell, what a lousy rotten holiday this is. And it's now 3am on a Monday morning, with results out tomorrow and a day of badminton to look forward to. A favourite line of mine, hopefully prophetic at this time...Business is about to pick up.

Fluctuations And Other Obscenities

2008-08-20T21:45:00.000+08:00

A Chinaman walks into a restaurant and orders some food. After the meal, he looks at the bill and asks why it is so expensive this week when last week he paid 20% less for the same dishes. The waiter replies:" Fluctuations", to which the Chinaman replies, "Fluck you too."

A Jew says to a Chinaman:" Hey you chink, stop squinting!" The Chinaman replies," Hey, it's your fault, Jew, you sold me these cheap glasses!"

This ends my little presentation. Thank you very much, ladies and gentlemen.

Prices are going down, and portions are going up. Oh, wait, that's the other way around. Ah well. Guess it will do me good to eat less than eight meals a day. Yeah, I used to eat breakfast, a mid-morning snack, brunch, lunch, an afternoon nibble, tea, dinner, coffee and finally, supper. Oh, and add in various miscellaneous bites of this and that when I'm feeling peckish. So yeah, I'm just your average ordinary everyday polar bear...err, I meant teenager.

Exams have ended. I might do well. Pigs might fly. Whales might walk. Aliens might exist. I might stop cracking racist and dirty jokes. Yeah, like that's ever gonna happen.

My holidays are until the 12th of October. Yep, read it and weep, buddies. 12th October. Bloody hell, that's a lot of time on my hands. Time to start getting of my arse and getting a good job. As a chef. Yeah, that's an idea. Poison people with too much sugar, milk, cream, salt, eggs, pepper and other ingredients and condiments. Oh, and salad. Wait, what? AAAAAH! Think junk food! JUNK FOOD! CHOCOLATE ICE CREAM WITH VANILLA CREAM CHOC CHIPS COOKIES CHOC SAUCE PEANUT BUTTER STRAWBERRY CREAM ICING APPLE CRUMBLE CHEESECAKE AND A BIG FROTHY MUG OF COFFEE WITH FULL FAT MILK SUGAR SOLUTION CHOC SAUCE TOPPED WITH WHIPPED CREAM SUGAR GLAZING AND A CHERRY ON TOP! Yes, much better now.

Y'know, most if not all the nice girls I know have gone to or are in other countries, are attached, or very uptight about getting attached. Was there never a tale of more woe, than Juliet, and searching desperately for her, Romeo?

But soft! What light through yonder window breaks? It is the east, and Juliet is the sun! Arise, fair sun, and slay the envious moon. It is the east, and Juliet is the sun. - From "Romeo and Juliet, Act 2 Scene 2"

Yeah, and I wrote all that without referring to my copy of R&J. Jolly well done, old boy! Good form and all that. My literature skills might be dormant, but they sure as heck still exist. That's comforting.

Moving on, my plans for the holidays, in no particular order.

Get The Girl.
Get my JJ-ness back.
Get a job.
Get money.
Get lots of fun.
Get fit.
Get ready to rock 'n roll.

Here's To Fast Cars, Freedom and Jiahui!

It Ain't Over Til It's Over, And It Ain't Over Yet

2008-08-07T22:46:00.000+08:00

Yeah, I know. Title's a real mouthful, ain't it? But hey, it reflects life at the moment. Crisis points have been reached, and they are passing. I am growing stronger and more confident. I like my class much better now. I still want to change course. I wanna rock!

Business is about to pick up. I am reaching the end of the semester. Crunch time. The day of reckoning. Blah blah blah and all that horseshit. I have projects unfinished. I have no classes on Monday. I have much more to say, and not much is related to school.

FFB team has been set. That's right, I ain't a free agent no more. Yessir, I'm a team player now. No more lone wolf, cos I'm running with the pack! I have no idea of the team name, but I'm fully confident of its players. We have the meanest defense this side of Ngee Ann, and I'm their newest addition! Clear The Way!

I finally convinced my dad that I should change course. Now he's all for it, but he ain't as sure that FSV will be a good option. He leans more towards another engineering discipline, due to his belief that engineering builds discipline and trains thought process. I think he's right, but thing is, I don' t want to be an engineer. I want to be something else. This is not my call. It may be a stepping stone, but not a call. I'm sure that there will be further developments, so I must try to keep this blog updated. Moving on!

My school library really needs to wake up. I mean, half the movies I've already seen, and quite a chunk of the music is either boring John Lemon crap, U2 soundalikes, emo piss-shit, and some obscure stuff nobody, not even me, has ever heard of. And a third of their listed available movies are missing or damaged. That really is a shame, y'know? Just when I want to see a good movie, it ain't there. Oh well. Such is life.

National Day's on Friday. Oh, wait, BRYAN says it's on Friday. Not me. Geez, that guy must never read the newspapers, watch TV, check his watch or his phone. Anyway, I'll be going back to my alma mater. Saint Andrew's. Gee, just saying alma mater makes me feel like some old man. Hmm, I shall go back and piss all the sec ones off by telling them how in my day we actually used ink on paper.........actually had to write notes, actually had to queue up in the canteen.......okay, enough with all that old fart nonsense. Little hand says it's time to rock 'n roll.

I Think It's Gonna Be A Long Long Time

2008-07-18T00:09:00.001+08:00

This is one heck of a song. And these days, though I am feeling more at home in the poly, I am still lonely. I miss my bros. I really do. Yeah, I'm hanging with a new crowd, but most of them can't hold a candle to the old gang.

I'm beginning to find silver linings behind clouds these days, even though I sound rather depressed. Truth be told, I'm just tired. But I trust that strength will come from somewhere.

I've been nosing around in the library, and discovered some interesting stuff. Soundtracks, rock albums, old movies and rare books. I really love just browsing through and enjoying them in what little free time I have. And I really want to change course. Easy option accusations be damned. I just want for once, to do something I want to do. But first, I must finish my fight. Tie up loose ends, and leave no doubt.

It's a good thing many Flag Football (which henceforth will be referred to as FFB,) people are in ECE division. It helps to have some experienced operators around to help the rookie. And they are really nice people. They are probably the ones who most remind me of the old crowd, a bunch of crazy, fun, hyperactive and friendly guys, obsessed with playing and girls, but also serious about studies...to a certain extent(grin at the broken SS rule).

And ever since I saw her, I can't stop thinking about her. How is she? Is she happy? Is she stressed? Will she turn up next time KTH has an outing? When will I next see her again? Will she give me a chance? So many questions, and I might never get any answers. But I say again, better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all.

Through The Barrier

2008-07-02T23:45:00.005+08:00

Time flows on. I am tired. I am battered. I am bruised. I am weary. I am one with my pain. I am one with my hurt. I am at peace. I am free.

It's been a hard day's work. Woke up late, again(aaaagh, must kick the habit), and got to school, late. Had to put up with remarks from my class. Y'know, I hate most of them. Faggots. They think they are all so goddamn clever, eh? Most of 'em are assholes. I won't waste any more space on them. But to the few who make my classroom life a little more enjoyable, I thank you. Bless your hearts for the kindness you've shown. Thank you.

I'm aching, bruised and battered all over. Flag football was one heck of a battle today. The Atlas Knights played The Black Knights. We lost. 4-1. Respectable, but we could have done better. I went down three times. Once, to a clothesline from Nadia(though she didn't really mean it), once to dive tackle Hashim, and once because something in my back gave way. That last one hurt the most. For a few minutes, I was unable to even stand properly, but had to play through the pain and finish the match. Limped off, and tried to fix it myself. Failed miserably, but still managed to get to a nearby pillar, to lean on and take some strain off.

The funny thing is, when I was slumped against that pillar, I was hoping for something to take my mind off the annoying, and very persistent ache in my back. I sure as heck got it. And what a boost it was.

She walked by. She Walked By. SHE WALKED BY! And all I could say was f*cking "Hi!" Dammit, I couldn't even stand properly, let alone walk up to her and ask her out. WHY! Why is it that Lady Luck and her daughter Ms Fortune absolutely must walk hand in effin' hand? Jesus, Mary and Joseph in Tinseltown! Oh, Mary Magdalene! All the Saints and Martyrs and Jesus! Did I happen to mention Jesus? (Spot the movie reference.)

But despite all my bemoaning of Lady Luck's daughter, I still feel really light-headed. I don't know. It's like the minute I saw her I forgot what the hell was wrong with my back. Every nerve in my back was screaming "Sit down, you fool!", but I couldn't give a rat's ass. I swear, even my brain seemed to shut down for a while, and I lost most powers of speech.

I have not seen her in a long time. But her face seems somehow etched in my memory. Like a program you can never delete, and don't want to. Somebody told me at the start of poly, if you don't forget her after three months of not seeing her, it's probably not just a crush. But never rush these things. Be a friend first, boyfriend can wait. Wise words, and I'll follow them. But perhaps I'll allow myself the little indulgence of saying... I Love You.

Omnia Mutantur, Nihil Interit.

2008-06-19T21:42:00.000+08:00

Omnia Mutantur, Nihil Interit. Much has happened, much more has changed. And yet nothing is lost. Once again, it's been a long while since I've updated, and I am weary. For someone like me to be bereft of inspiration to write is, well, absurd. And yet, it happened.

After the common tests, I found myself drained. So drained that I simply went blank. Everything somehow ceased to have meaning, and fun lacked any feeling. But I guess it might have been expected. I actually bothered to study my brains out for MATHS and PHYSICS, which ain't exactly my strong points, so perhaps burnout, while not an iota of fun, was worth the trouble. It means I actually put some effort in. God, I hope it pays off.

The holidays have been fun, and given me a much needed respite and recharge. I guess I'm about ready for school, except there are one or two things still left undone. Damned EECAD. Yet another reason for me wanting to change course. Alright, enough moping, time to gear up for the last days of fun!

Oh yeah, I must recap what I've done the past few days. Apart from the usual eating, sleeping, watching TV and playing computer games, I've watched Kung Fu Panda, bought some new CDs, opened a bank account, eaten a high-class lunch at The Padang, and generally run amok. Oh yeah, one or two outings for movies, food, coffee and bowling. I got three days left. Hey waiter! More fun!

Oh yeah, I still like her. Her birthday was during April, and I somehow forgot to get her something (short notice and all). Well, here's a few videos, some for her, and some for my personal inspiration.

Omnia Mutantur, Nihil Interit. Everything Changes, Nothing Is Truly Lost.
Wish You Were Here, But You're In My Heart.

A Confession To Make

2008-05-27T22:49:00.001+08:00

I have a small confession to make. Okay, maybe not so small. Alright! A very big one, to me at least. I like someone. I like her very much. I really really like her. I.....hmm, too early to say that. Give it another month or three before I can say that. Bad luck to say that too early. Wait, sod that last comment. You make your own luck. But I gotta keep a hold on myself. Don't rush things. Don't act stupidly. Just hold on for dear life. And shut my trap. Yeah, that'll work(I hope). Here's looking at you, kid.

Oh, a little musing for all my friends as well. For Rahman and Wei Jie, a dream is always alive, as long as there are one or two fools left to dream. For Dino and Kay, JUSTINA!

I've been reassessing my life, and trying to put everything in perspective. I realised that I joined AE for all the wrong reasons, and that I was being foolish in trying to make a weakness and strength. I pray that the Man residing in Heaven sees fit to give me a chance to change course and redeem my foolishness. God help me. Amen.

A talk with my advisory lecturer has gotten things looking up. I told her my whole problem, and she said I seemed to have pretty good reason for a transfer. Add that to my CCA records, and I get very good credentials to make my case.

And according to another friend of mine, people have transferred for lesser reasons. It seems that business is about to pick up. Now, time for some serious work, and a little strategy. Fundamentals of Aerospace Tech is open book, so I will print all the relevant lecture notes and bring my textbook. Haha! A Cunning Plan! More cunning than a fox wot 'as been appointed prof of cunning at Camford University! More on studies to follow, soon.

Now, net on Friday equals potluck equals stuff myself and comment on how everybody else does light dishes. What happened to the pot in potluck, people? Sometimes, you guys really amaze me...

Here's some other less depressing stuff. Flag Football league is starting up soon, a chance for me to tear up the fields, thundering towards the foes! Wonder who should I join...Faugh A Ballagh! Garryowen And Glory!

49th. The 7th 7. What An Achievement! Here's a little spark for the upcoming summer!

A Warm May Holiday

2008-05-19T20:15:00.004+08:00

What a day! I'm tanked up on coffee and food, blogging while listening to my music, and ready to rush my e-learning tomorrow, so I can sit in front of the computer, finish my projects, and kick back. I've had much fun, so it will soon be time for the work to begin. Strangely, I can't wait!

Day started off well. A great Monday, what with it being a holiday and all. Woke up on time, and met up with Rahman, Jeremy and Weijie at Bryan's house. Abel came along later. We had some fun mucking around with guitars, a pool table, and cards. Not too much interesting stuff happened, but all of it was fun nonetheless.

The original plan was to muck around at Bryan's, then head off by ourselves, but plans change. We ended up at more or less the same area(Suntec and Marina), so I guess that counts as a slight deviation. We had lunch, and slacked around talking in a Coffee Bean for an hour or so, catching up. I hope we will have more days like this, which are both serious and fun at the same time, where we laugh, and learn even more about each other. My hope is that this whole group will stick together for a long time to come, and never forget one another.

We ended up in Carl's Jr later having drinks and fries. Went home with Jeremy after that. We had a very interesting conversation on the train, about the possibility of forming a band. A very strange one, with a stranger name and a weird musical sense. I bet the critics would love it. The kind of crap on the market these days, i don't think they would mind a "revolutionary, groundbreaking, experimental and eclectic sound". That is to say, the myriad musical influences thrown into a pot and served beasting...err, I meant bursting. No wait, I meant served up with sass, panache and style. Ahh, what the hell am I spewing? A band named "A F*cking Waste Of Time", with a debut album titled "A Steaming Pile of Crap" and a greatest hits collection called "Unbelievable Bullshit Vols 1, 2 and 3" is one heck of a dream, but not half-likely to happen. Too shocking and daring. *Sighs* Well, I guess I'd better stick to less controversial stuff.

Alright, enough of that. I will write more tomorrow, so for now, Adieu, Au Revoir and Goodnight!

Traveller In A Long-Forgotten Dream

2008-05-14T22:00:00.000+08:00

I sometimes drift away into my own recollections. You could say my past is an interesting one. Maybe for some it is very boring. I don't know. To me, it's what I was, and what I am. What I will be is to be seen.

Maybe the key to what lies ahead might still lie buried in bits and pieces of dreams, shattered and rebuilt. Maybe it was one of those broken bits that refused to stick together in a new dream, and ended up discarded to my memories. Life has gone on, and yet it might still remain.

Life has reached a time of decisions and dilemmas. So much is required of me, yet I am unsure of how much I actually have to give. Is my candle burning out? Am I running on empty? Is my heart growing cold? So many questions, no answers. And so little time to find them. Why me? Why now?

Has the world forsaken me? Have you forsaken me? Am I really all alone? Perhaps I am. And the thought frightens me.

Facing Future...Thinking Ahead

2008-05-08T01:10:00.000+08:00

It's been a bumpy journey so far. Both good times and bad times have come along, and I guess I've held my own thus far. But how much longer can I weather my storms? Perhaps it's all about willpower. My lack of it, more like. It seems I'm living on a prayer right now. Whatever the case is, I've found an escape route.

The School Of Film and Media Studies! Or, the School of Business and Accountancy! I've learned I can transfer courses after the semester, depending on results and other factors, including my ability to write a convincing letter of appeal. Anyway, it means that I have to grit my teeth and stick hard and fast 'til August swings by, then perhaps a sweet chariot will come forth to carry me...somewhere other than engineering.

I just realised that I don't have any photos of myself. Hmm, that may be a problem. I need to remember what I look like if I somehow forget what I look like...yeaaaaah, like that's really gonna happen. Ah well, a random thought a day keeps squirrels away!

Today was a very nice day, except for some minor things. I tried paying attention in class, and ended up daydreaming about a world with no color. Show you how vivid my imagination can be, no? Enough about the boring bits, now for a little more fun.

As most people should know, I have joined flag football. It's something like half-contact American Football, I guess that's the best description I can give. Training so far has been tiring, exciting, and rather bruising as well. I went for my first training on Friday, and managed to sprain someone's ankle. And today, I flattened a girl, and kicked another guy. The worst parts? The girl was on my team, and the guy was just trying to get out of my way. Damn, I feel guilty. Well, I did buy the girl a drink to try and make up for flattening her, so I hope there are no hard feelings there! Oh, and to the idiot(s) who smashed me in the groin two or three times, I can't do anything, I guess, but hope that the fleas of a thousand unwashed camels infect your lederhosen. Limped home, realised there was a party on, stuffed my face, ignored all guests, and ended up here, typing at my computer desk.

Oh, I will not be attending the FRESH! Dance Party. For one, my dancing still sucks, and another, I gave my ticket to Carina and Kenny. The pair of lovebirds looked like they needed it more than me! (Just don't tell 'em I said that, betcha they'd effin' murder me!)

Oh, and if I ever get a band, I want to name it Johnny Quicksilver and The Kings. Why? One Word: Queen.

So ends yet another post by me. I should think of a nickname for meself, and start using it to annoy people, along with a motto and/or a catchphrase. Ooh, I Know! Faugh A Ballagh! Anyways, that's all folks, I shall go back to talking about girls in my life some other time. Oh, and i will redo the girls' songs. They seem too few, non? Ah well, C'est La Vie, C'est L'amour!

A Sunny Afternoon, But Storm Clouds Gather

2008-05-01T22:14:00.004+08:00

It's been an excellent day. Food, fun, friends and freedom, all important, all appeared. Was expecting a better turnout for the guys, but I guess we can never all move in sync. Still, good to see familiar faces, and comforting to know we haven't forgotten each other, or become totally different people. The girls who came along were a pleasant surprise, as I didn't think girls were interested in stuffing themselves. Still, they held their own, and I guess we must've done quite a bit of damage to the restaurant stocks. Job well done, guys.

After lunch, we somehow decided to see Iron Man, but it seemed that all theaters were fully booked, or only had lousy seats available. Well, I could've warned you guys that public holidays are lousy for watching movies, but it wouldn't have made any difference. I think it's better to see movies when they are a week or two, maybe even three weeks into their run. Wait for the fuss to die down, then enjoy it in a near-empty, spacious and comfortable theater.

Instead of watching Iron Man, we went to the Coffee Bean opposite SMU to slack and down some drinks. I had yet another one of my sugar/caffeine bombs, much to the disbelief of my friends, who may have thought I was past that sort of thing. NEWSFLASH! I'm still me, yeah?

After a nice time slacking, Rahman and I went to the King Albert Park McDonald's to meet some of his friends. They are quite nice people, and I'm glad he's found friends who have a sense of humor, however weird and wicked it may be. But something more important happened on the
journey to K-A-P.

I had a long conversation with Rahman, which made me realize something I was trying to run away from, and something I dreaded to realize.

I don't like my course one bit, and I am slogging my brains out for nothing. Nothing is sticking, and all the numbers just don't add up. Even four hours of work this morning still didn't help me one jot. Perhaps I really DO need to change course. I must hope and pray for divine intervention. I am losing whatever slim hopes I had of doing well for my common tests. I also learned that I just need a private pilot's license or a student pilot's license to be a commercial pilot, so my main reason for entering this course just evaporated before my eyes. God, I'm discouraged. Please, if there's anyone out there who can help me, I beg you, help me before it's too late. I need to change course to something that's my forte, my strong point. I made the terrible mistake of trying to play to my weaknesses, not my strengths. God, I hope this doesn't turn into another one of those horrible mistakes that my life seems to be a catalogue of.

Forging Ahead...Building Foundations

2008-04-28T23:44:00.006+08:00

It's quiet now. Everyone's in bed, all save me. I have a little time to contemplate and reflect, on past, present and future.

Poly life is going swellingly, apart from some minor(or major) setbacks. I found out that I have to struggle through and entire semester of nonsense, before I get to the relevant stuff, stuff that I'm interested in. I wanted to change course, but that thought is unrealistic. Shit, I hate my course(for now). Physics and Maths everywhere, and my course lecturers are not that interesting at all. Okay, fine, they're downright boring. A snooze-fest. Human Valium. 'Nuff said. More updates on how emo about school I've become: Coming soon.

I don't think I will seriously join any CCA in my first year. What I've seen so far of the sports CCAs is hardly impressive. Football was a disaster. The coach is a dickhead. Now, I don't want to insult the Malays, but they are too cliquish. They pass to each other and hog the ball, so no-one else seems to be playing. Also, I'm a goalkeeper, but there are several others ahead of me in the pecking order. I'm the guy who just happens to keep goal. The rest are serious players(school team, club or even national). So, football? No thanks. Rugby? Same old same old. Big forwards, small backs(mostly). Just get a team with big backs, and we'll get steamrolled. So, no thanks as well. DJ auditions went well, but I can't swear on air, or talk nonsense, and I gotta play mainstream music... riiiight, like that's gonna be easy. I might join flag football, or some other sport. And I want to apply for the youth flying club. A pilot's license might come in handy, no?

Now, for a little more cheer and laughter. A Sakae raid is planned for this Thursday, and sms alerts are going out tomorrow. They made the mistake of having a public holiday lunchtime buffet, we take them to school for it. 1130am to 430pm. Showtime!

This Friday was supposed to be Dinner & Dance Night. But both my date and I are unable to attend, so that scuppers things. Yes, I asked someone to be my date. Now, for all those nosy parkers who would dearly love to go after me about my date, I will be factual, so you guys won't bug me too much.

Her name is J♥♥♥♥♥. She was in my FOC group. She is super-enthusiastic, and hyper-charged to boot. Much more supercharged than me on my McDonald's coffee and sugar rush. She is my new definition of beautiful. Yes, I really like her. I think I just might do anything for her. But I guess I will never know too much about her unless she lets me in. That was another reason I wanted to change course. She's in the School of Business and Accountancy. I wanted to switch to Accountancy. Go figure. Well, maybe this time I actually have a chance. Too many missed opportunities, too many wasted moments. Action, not talk. Eye of the Tiger, ain't no stopping halfway. Is my happy end somewhere in this new fairytale I'm weaving? Only time will tell.

26 April. A Brand New Day. My Wish...

Me And My Gang...The Guys List!

2008-04-27T20:54:00.001+08:00

Been really some time since I blogged, so I now present the guys' list, 100 Songs that I feel best represent my buddies through thick or thin, come hell or high water. For any additional song requests, feel free to drop me a line. Rock On, Brothers! Never Forget!

Queen - We Will Rock You
Queen - We Are The Champions
Bon Jovi - Have A Nice Day
The Beatles - Hey Jude
The Beatles - With A Little Help From My Friends
The Beatles - Revolution
Bon Jovi - Blaze Of Glory
Bon Jovi - It's My Life
Bon Jovi - Bells Of Freedom
Bob Seger - Like A Rock
Brian May - Driven By You
Bruce Springsteen - Murder Incorporated
Bruce Springsteen - Glory Days
Bruce Springsteen - Born To Run
CCR - Have You Ever Seen The Rain
The Corrs - Rebel Heart
David Church - Gonna Punch Someone Tonight
dc Talk - Colored People
Duran Duran - Wild Boys
Elton John - The Circle Of Life
Elton John - Saturday Night's Alright (For Fighting)
Elvis Presley - Slicin' Sand'
Elvis Presley - Viva Las Vegas
Elvis Presley - Jailhouse Rock
Eric Clapton - Knockin' On Heaven's Door
Eric Clapton - I've Got A Rock 'N Roll Heart
Frank Sinatra - My Way
Frank Sinatra - Moon River
Frank Sinatra - Mack The Knife
Good Charlotte - We Believe
Good Charlotte - The Anthem
Green Day - Boulevard Of Broken Dreams
Green Day - Good Riddance(Time Of Your Life)
Guns N Roses - Paradise City
Guns N Roses - Welcome To The Jungle
Harold Faltemeyer & Steve Stevens - Top Gun Anthem
Harold Faltemeyer - Axel F
The Highwaymen - Highwayman
The Highwaymen - American Remains
The Highwaymen - Silver Stallion
The Highwaymen - Mamas Don't Let Your Babies Grow Up To Be Cowboys
Il Divo - Time Of Our Lives
James Brown - Get Up (I Feel Like Being A Sex Machine)
James Taylor - You've Got A Friend
Jerry Lee Lewis - Great Balls Of Fire
Jesse McCartney - Second Star To The Right
Jesse McCartney - Good Life
John Denver - It's About Time
John Denver - Rocky Mountain High
John Denver - Calypso
John Denver - Country Roads
John Mayer - Waiting On The World To Change
John Rzeznik - I'm Still Here
John Travolta & The T-Birds - Grease Lightning
Johnny Cash - The General Lee
Jonas Brothers - Yo Ho( A Pirate's Life For Me)
Josh Groban - Vincent (Starry Starry Night)
Jump 5 - Aloha E Komo Mai
Jump 5 - Hawaiian Rollercoaster Ride
Kenny Rogers - The Last Ten Years (Superman)
Kenny Rogers - The Gambler
Linkin Park - Breaking The Habit
Linkin Park - Shadow Of The Day
Linkin Park - What I've Done
Lynyrd Skynyrd - Sweet Home Alabama
Lynyrd Skynyrd - Simple Man
Lynyrd Skynyrd - Saturday Night Special
McFly - Room On The Third Floor
Michael Bolton - Lean On Me
Michael Buble - What A Wonderful World
Monty Python - Always Look On The Bright Side Of Life
Monty Python - The Spam Song
Nelly - Here Comes The Boom
The Newsboys - In Christ Alone
Nickelback - Rockstar
Paul McCartney & Wings - Pipes Of Peace
Phil Collins - Welcome
Phil Collins - Great Spirits
Phil Collins - Son Of Man
The Police - Message In A Bottle
Queen - Bohemian Rhapsody
Queen - Seven Seas Of Rye
Queen - Hammer To Fall
Queen - A Kind Of Magic
Queen - Friends Will Be Friends
Queen - Princes Of The Universe
Queen - The Show Must Go On
Rascal Flatts - When The Sand Runs Out
Rascal Flatts - Me And My Gang
Rascal Flatts - Stand
Rascal Flatts - Mayberry
Rod Stewart - Never Give Up On A Dream
Simon & Garfunkel - The Boxer
Simon & Garfunkel - Old Friends
Smash Mouth - Everyday Superhero
Spiderbait - Ghost Riders In The Sky
Stevie Wonder - Stay Gold
Sting - My Funny Friend And Me
Survivor - Eye Of The Tiger
Waylon Jennings - Good Ol' Boys

Sweet Sensations...For All Seasons

2008-04-11T22:28:00.005+08:00

Here, at long last, is the list of Girls who have helped me along life's journey so far, as guides, mentors and friends, and some songs for each.

Alphabetical order, generic initials only, to avoid any "interesting" comments.

A. - Maroon 5: Makes Me Wonder, Josh Groban: She's Out Of My Life

D. & E. - The Saddle Club: Friends Forever, Randy Newman: You've Got A Friend In Me

E. - Josh Groban: Remember Me, Westlife: Colour My World

E. - Queen: You're My Best Friend, Josh Groban: In Her Eyes, You Raise Me Up, Rascal Flatts: My Wish

F. - Rascal Flatts: Here's To You, U2: I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For

F. - Baha Men: Best Years Of Our Lives, Rascal Flatts: Stand

F. & F. - Justin Timberlake: Lovestoned/I Think She Knows, Rascal Flatts: Cool Thing

J. - Mcfly: You've Got A Friend, Rascal Flatts: Fast Cars And Freedom

J.H. - Josh Groban: So She Dances, Rascal Flatts: Bless The Broken Road, Phil Collins: Find A Way To My Heart, MLTR: Take Me To Your Heart

M. - Johnny Cash: I Walk The Line, Bruce Springsteen: Dancing In The Dark

N. - Rascal Flatts: Help Me Remember, Blue: I-O-I-O, Johnny Cash: Ring Of Fire

T. - Queen: These Are The Days Of Our Lives, Westlife: Obvious

S. - Rascal Flatts: What Hurts The Most, Shine On, From Time To Time, Everclear: Brown Eyed Girl

W.W. - Josh Groban: My Confession, Phil Collins: This Must Be Love
, Nickelback: Far Away

*Note: More Will Follow

A Brief Discussion, And Some Other Things

2008-04-10T17:27:00.002+08:00

Ah, a day without going out of the house. Sedentary living. Peace and quiet, just my computer and me, a few games, and a bottle of water. I've been playing all my games for possibly the last time in a long time, and I've uninstalled most of them. I guess my fun is over, and it's time to get back to the ol' daily grind. Tomorrow I have to purchase the rest of my notes, and also get the compilation CD by The Corrs. What else? Oh yes, remember to update all my laptop software, and finish the virus and spyware scans.

I might be in over my head. I took a long and hard look at my "notes", and came to the conclusion that there sure as hell is a ton of maths in my course. Okay, I might've pathetically underestimated the sheer load of maths coming down. still, no cause for panic. I'm going to stick it out during the first month, and see how things go. If I can't make a good average, or keep up with the course, I'll change course. Where to and what for, you might ask. Well, if I change, I'll change because I can't stand having to go through another 3 years of hell, suffering because I didn't get out in time. Where? I don't know...maybe some course with less maths, or at least maths I can understand. It's all ifs, so I'm still going to do my best. I guess Yoda was right, do or do not, there is no try.

On a much brighter note, I was trying to match songs to the Girls I know, and here's what I came up with.

Nothing, actually. The inevitable drama about my feelings for each one will have to wait til tomorrow. So sorry to disappoint anyone expecting any juicy scandals and the like, but nothing to see here folks, move along! *Sneaky Snicker*

The Journey So Far

2008-04-09T10:16:00.003+08:00

It's a few months into my poly journey, and a few days before school officially starts. I would like to take a moment to pause, and reflect on the journey so far, and what lies ahead.

My first impression of Ngee Ann Poly was: Wow, nice place. My impression has not changed. It is a very nice place, and is full of very nice people. The girls are good-looking, eh? *grin* Anyways, I have met a very interesting group of people, who know how to have fun. That's very important, now I guess we will find out if we all know how to study. I just realised that my course is full of maths. Shit, no frickin' way! Not again! Okay, relax, take deep breaths, think. I know! If I really try to suck at my course in the first month, maybe I can request a change of course! Hmm, but that would deviate from my plans as well... Another dilemma to resolve. Moving on!

I have found friends. Not just casual friends, the kind you say hi to and share stationery and notes with, rather, friends who I will go out for outings with, share my problems and dreams with, friends who I will be willing to drop everything and help, in short, brothers and sisters. To my friends from secondary school, never fear, you guys have already attained this status, and I will never forget you all. Let's try and meet up sometime as a group, yeah? Oh, and next long weekend at Bryan's house. Activities to be confirmed.

Girls Girls Girls! I've seen several I really like. Can't decide. Too...hot...can't breathe...*faints*
Okay, enough of that. But really, I've seen several I seriously might ask out. I don't know. We'll see soon enough. Names? Well, after the last debacle I'm keeping my cards hidden. To quote a song, oh what a feeling!

Season In The Sun, Part 2

2008-04-08T20:29:00.003+08:00

Okay, so today didn't really feature the sun too much, but I still had a blast! Woke up early to check on my shoes, and also eat breakfast. My leather shoes have completely fried off after I oiled them, so after a good brushing they should be ready for use. By the way, I used mink oil, so any animal activists out there, sue me!

Tau Huay outing today. We went to East Coast! Once again, I haven't been there in ages. About 20 of us present. I'm wondering, WHERE THE HELL WERE THE REST? Alright, so some of them (the Hua Yi emos) were certainly not missed, other, more important members were missing. Jiahui, for one. She would have given our enthusiasm one heck of a boost. Had a great time cycling. Again, I haven't gotten on a bike in ages. Ah, all my memories are coming back to me. Those halcyon days are gone, but I think the best is on the way. We had to pay $6 for renting bikes, but it was well worth it, I guess.

Riding the bike proved to be a breeze. even though I haven't touched one in four years, everything just came flooding back to me. Samuel and I started off slowly, but we ended up leading the group forward most of the way. Rode from the bike shop to Changi, then we turned back. The journey back gave both Sam and I more "permanent" souvenirs. We crashed into each other near then end, when his bike gears locked and pitched him off the bike. He hit my bike and I flew off, trying to land on the grass rather than the road. Sadly, it was not to be. We both ended up with cuts and scratches, and in my case, I left a nice piece from my elbow and knee on the road. William was laughing. (William , we'll get to you tomorrow.) We limped back to the start point to return our bikes, and left along with another girl, Sharini, who had also sustained injuries. She went home, Sam and I went to Sakae Sushi and raided the place. 40+ plates between the two of us. Not a bad effort.

Went home exhausted and still bleeding. I got a lot of stares on the bus, and one or two people offering me some tissues to staunch the blood. Like a battleship damaged but not defeated, I limped home to rest and rearm, which leaves me where I am now, in front of the computer.

That's all folks! 'Til tomorrow!

Season In The Sun

2008-04-05T02:30:00.002+08:00

I'm radiating heat right now. Full on burning. Sunburn. Ouch.

Went to Sentosa today. First recreational trip in 10 years. Long, isn't it? Anyway, it's story time again! Please not that some of it may be rather exaggerated stuff.

Breakfast. A Whole Whale. A Pint Of Milk. A Pot Of Honey. None of the above. Heh heh, fooled some people, eh? A nondescript breakfast, went down to Compass point to meet Sally and Travis. Ended up going with just Travis to meet the rest of Kappa Tau at Harbourfront MRT. Quite a disappointing turnout, nine people from K1, seven girls and two guys altogether, and Sally was late. I miss William and Samuel's nonsense...Alas, wherefore art thou my pals? Still, it could have been worse. K4 had one GL and one freshman. Travis still wanted breakfast, so K1 followed him to Mc's for a second helping of breakfast.I had my usual $2 sugar rush. Tea and some coffee with many packets of sugar and creamer...I leave it to your imagination to guess. Paid 3 bucks for a monorail to Sentosa.

The place has changed since I was last there. Doesn't feel like a cheap resort anymore, more like a nice and decent place to holiday. The beach seems cleaner. Air smells fresher. Even the water seems clearer. We spent most of the time at the beach, playing games and splashing around in the water. Everybody got wet. I decided to voluntarily throw myself in the water, to avoid getting unceremoniously chucked in. A word of caution to all going to Sentosa... get your own drinks. The stuff there is ridiculously overpriced. Trust me on that one.

After a day of sun, Kappa Tau headed back to VivoCity for some food. Had to go after that, my dad wanted me back for dinner. Video post, one last memory.

Freshmen And Freedom. And Fun, Too!

2008-03-30T21:55:00.002+08:00

I'm tired. Exhausted. Dead beat. My batteries need a heck load of recharging. I just got back from the most exciting, enlightening, entertaining and exhilarating camp I've ever attended. Oh, did I mention it was tons of fun too? To imagine I almost skipped it, and almost packed up and left in the third hour, scares me. I could have missed out on all the fun!(The really good-looking girls were a very very very welcome bonus too!) FOC 08 ROCKED SOLID YO! KAPPA TAU r0x0rz!!!111!!! TAU HUAY FOREVER!

Please pardon my sudden and inexplicable burst of cheering. I am merely expressing the satisfaction I got out of attending the camp. Allow me, if you will, to make a long post and detail the events that occurred those past few days and nights.

FIRST DAY
The first day was exactly how most first days in camp are. Long, tiring, boring and somewhat depressing. When I first walked into camp, I didn't exactly have the best impression of it. It looked overcrowded for one, and despite enthusiastic camp leaders running around doing their best to stir us up, we simply weren't stirred. A very nice performance from the school percussion band, but otherwise, the introduction was one hell of a bore. I actually fell asleep five or six times! But that did not beat what I felt when we saw our sleeping areas. A sports hall??? What kind of moronic twit squeezes seven-f***ing-hundred people (teenagers, to boot) into one sports hall? Oh wait, we call that assembly in SA. After that, some attempts at group bonding. I was put in K1, Tau Huay group of Kappa Tau. When I got a look at everyone else, they looked as dead or bored as yours truly. I though: Geez, if camp's gonna be with them, it's gonna be shit. But the girls look cute... Enough of that. Uneventful except for some creepy stories from the GLs and DHs 'til after dinner.

Watched Juno, but didn't finish, as we got dragged out for the night walk. Great time to do that to me. For some reason, I was really pissed when they split us up, so much so that I wanted to give the first dressed up person one heck of a punch. One of those damned horror movie masks, fake knife and no blood. Oh gosh, how scary. A few other somewhat novel scare tactics, but my partner and I somehow kept bumping into the group before us just after they got spooked. I have absolutely no idea how such a thing happened. Honestly! Still, it got better at the end, and I felt like there was much better stuff coming soon. Finished at 2am or so, and slept at around 3. Exhausted, but somewhat excited.

SECOND DAY

Here comes all the good stuff. Games Day! Cheers Day! Marbles Day! When I woke up, I got this feeling that everyone was starting to get together, and team spirit was slowly flowing into our tired bodies. We followed Melissa Travis and Azhar to our first station games, after learning some cheers. Our first game involved soap, detergent, water and a slide. 'Nuff said.

Other games involved butter, toothpaste, water, clothing, body contact, strategy and other interesting stuff. I will describe the toothpaste game, as it was bloomin' memorable for me. We were supposed to play pass the toothpaste, body part contact, for example nose to ear, tongue to toe, ass to hair, etc. I ended up as the second last player, and was sandwiched between two girls. The girl in front of me drew "mouth", then I drew "mouth". You can imagine how that felt. I was thinking: Wait... mouth to mouth, ain't that like a kiss? Oh shi... Woah, slow down. That girl's a stunner! Lucky me! Woohoo! Now what did Melissa get? She got "cheek". So I get to touch a cute girl's lips and another girl's cheek? Not a bad activity! Then I saw the game-master's hand. The top three cards were all "mouth"! Was he trying to be funny? I don't know. What I do know is that I got a very soft pair of lips touching mine for a microsecond and me getting to give Melissa a peck on the cheek. Very cool. I don't know what will happen if I see the girl again. I might just act on an impulse. She really is a stunner.

At the end of day two, we were all exhausted, dirty, smelly and very happy. I lost my voice after cheering at the top of said voice, but still polished off seven curry puffs and three swiss rolls for supper. What a day!

THIRD DAY
Campfire Night! Dancing in the dark! Not as tiring as the previous day, but sure as fun. We woke up, did the usual wash and eat, then we practiced some dancing and cheers. Next activity was a water game, waterbombs flying everywhere, everyone getting soaking wet, fun fun fun! However, K1 did not get to be the "bombers", as the game was called off due to too many cases of foul play. Sad, no?

Moving on, we went back to shower, after which we ate and went for our campfire. Principal is cool! Principal is cool! A few clips from various camp leaders, and some promos from the adventure (attention) seekers, as well as the principal's speech, some GL and freshies performances. Kappa seemed to have formed a cheering alliance with Zeta, as we were seated on the same side of the hall. More cheering, then supper!

As we filed back in from supper, we were handed lightsticks and told to find our dance partners, then the lights dimmed. The sounds of Flo Rida belting out "Low" kicked off the mass dance with one helluva bang, and after we finished our choreographed routine, we were free to dance anyhow we wanted. Some of us kept forming gigantic conga lines, but that got boring after a while, so we did the usual break into circles and show off your moves. I managed to dance as well, no small feat given how far away the music played was from my own styles of music. Heck, I had a good time! (Though I did tear the skin off my left leg. Hell, I've seen worse.) We finished our mass dancing, and headed back to our sleeping area for doughnuts. I was given my own box of twelve, but everyone in my group kept nicking them. I only had six! Geez guys, ask before you steal! I was friggin' hungry, y'know!

THIRD NIGHT, FOURTH DAY
We got little to no sleep on the last night. It was prank night. Everyone who was not a freshie running around with spray cans, toothpaste, markers, doughnuts, shavers, and all other manner of joke implements. Some of us went over to the girls' side of the hall and stayed there. No, there were no "interesting activities", but we still had a nice time. I managed to cop a few winks, so my thanks to all the girls who acted as my "guardian angels". Aww, ain't that cute? Err, never mind. Moving on!

The last day. Sad, proud, homesick, tired, happy...etc. We watched one or two clips of our time in FOC, and got free bottles of tea. Photos were taken, promises were made to stay in touch, tears were shed, cheers were chanted, you get the picture, eh? The most eye-opening school experience I've ever had. Some of the prettiest ladies I have ever seen. Some of the best days of my life. I thank one and all who were a part of my experience, and I will see you guys around.

Yes, I know that this is longer than an Oscar acceptance speech, but I am more or less done. KAPPA TAU ETA!

Ticket Stub, Bowling Ball or Chopsticks?

2008-03-24T15:04:00.002+08:00

It's been a very interesting past few days. My package has been delivered to the leading lady. It's the last time I shall go there, unless she wants me to stay. But now, I will start to drift away. Whatever happens in the future is now in her hands, not mine. I will walk my own line.

I have two days of freedom left, before I have to attend the Freshman Camp. Excited, yes, but also somewhat bored. I've seen too many camps, I guess. I hope something original is in store. Oh, a note to anyone who wants to try ragging. There are several boys from 4S1 coming to camp, so they'd better think twice before they try anything with anyone of us. We were asked to bring an old t-shirt, but all my t-shirts are old and "well-ventilated". Yet another problem to take care of.

Also, I need a haircut. I'm considering a crewcut with a pomp fringe(greaser style, baby!) or a marine H&T. For those not familiar, it's short for high and tight. The Rangers and Marines use it a lot. Or, I could very well go extreme and use the recon H&T, which is skin as well. Cool, eh? For more info, check these websites

What else will I do in two days? Well, I need some new picks for my guitar, as one has gotten lost and the other doesn't feel right. Also, I feel like watching a movie, going bowling, or stuffing my face. And I sure ain't gonna do it alone. Depending on who's free, I shall go out tomorrow, the day after or even both days. Hip Hurray for a carefree life!

Oh, and here's the next video from Celtic Thunder. I will also buy their album if I can find it.

P's, Q's and Celtic Thunder

2008-03-18T22:24:00.002+08:00

I've been up and about the whole day, (yes, a remarkable change from what I usually do, I know). Went down to Ngee Ann poly, got my bloody fees paid, and got my first laptop. Specs aren't too bad, except for the BLOODY WINDOWS VISTA BUSINESS! Freakin' stupid thing. AND to top it off, I finally have space to stuff my games and the effin' compatibility issues start flooding me. Oh well... still, I installed BFME2, Rugby 06, FIFA 07 and The Sims 2 without a hitch... now for GTA3 and MOHPA, then we'll see what we can do about the stupid lag in-game. Or, my backup is to uninstall Vista and install Windows XP. Brilliant, eh?

Oh, and while youtubing I came across a video by Damian McGinty. Remember him? The cute little boy singing "Puppy Love"? Yeah, he's now in a band called Celtic Thunder. Really great singers. Sharp dressers, too. As you would probably guessed by now, they sing traditional Celtic stuff, and some songs also from the same genius who brought us "Ireland's Call", Phil Coulter. For those who have watched an Irish rugby game, it really is a spectacle to watch the faithful at Croke Park bellow out their anthem with such spirit, especially if they're playing the English. And if you've studied the history of Ireland, it has never had a unified anthem to sing 'til Mr. Coulter came along. Anyways, he fused traditional Gaelic with English to create one of the greatest songs I've ever heard. Allow me to share it. Enjoy.

A Dream Is A Wish...

2008-03-13T23:05:00.003+08:00

Due to a myriad delays and distractions, I have to give Tessa her birthday gift on Friday or Saturday. I pray it does not rain. It would ruin everything, again. I have to get a rose as well... I wonder what color I should get? The classic red rose? The graceful pink rose? The passionate coral rose? Or the beautiful burgundy? I don't know. Suffice to say I have to look at my budget, as I hear roses are dreadfully expensive these days.

Well, a dream really is a wish. I guess my dreams are pretty modest compared to most, but I think that with setting targets I can achieve something. Out of sight, out of mind and all that, eh?

On another note, Congratulations to the Region 3/4 Captain's Ball team for winning the 2008 Youth Championships! (And doing it without any substitutes, and no lunch to boot.) All in all, we scored more than 10 points per match, and restricted our opponents to a paltry 4 points per match! A jolly good showing for a team that never trained together(unlike some other eager beaver teams I could think of), never had much expectations, and were generally seen as either cannon fodder or dark horses. We are the little team that could. The Few. I Salute You!

Let's see, now... my back, shoulders, arms, legs and hip all feel like a throbbing mass of pain, but DAMN! It was worth it!

Far Away - A Special Dedication To Tessa On Her 17th Birthday

2008-03-10T20:38:00.004+08:00

This time, this place
Misused, mistakes
Too long, too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving
Hold on to me and, never let me go.

Someday Out Of The Blue

2008-03-06T12:13:00.012+08:00

Some day out of the blue
In a crowded street or a deserted square
I'll turn and I'll see you
As if our love were new
Some day we can start again, some day soon

Here comes the night
Here come the memories
Lost in your arms
Down in the foreign fields
Not so long ago
Seems like eternity
The sweet afternoons
Still capture me

Some day out of the blue
In a crowded street or a deserted square
I'll turn and I'll see you
As if our love were new
Some day we can start again, some day soon

I still believe
I still put faith in us
We had it all and watched it slip away
Where are we now
Not where we want to be
Those hot afternoons
Still follow me

Some day out of the blue
Maybe years from now
Or tomorrow night
I'll turn and I'll see you
As if we always knew
Some day we would live again, some day soon

I still believe
I still put faith in us

I still believe
I still put faith in us

I still believe
I still put faith in us

Here comes the night
Here come the memories
Lost in your arms
Down in the foreign fields
Not so long ago
Seems like eternity
The sweet afternoons
Still capture me

Some day out of the blue
Maybe years from now
Or tomorrow night
I'll turn and I'll see you
As if we always knew
Some day we would live again, some day soon

Some day out of the blue
In a crowded street or a deserted square
I'll turn and I'll see you
As if our love were new
Some day we can start again, some day soon

I still believe
I still put faith in us

I still believe
I still put faith in us

I still believe
I still put faith in us

(Fade)
I still believe
I still put faith in us

Peace In The Living Room

2008-03-03T23:35:00.001+08:00

The Cold War is over. The walls have fallen. It took a week, but it happened. A diplomatic breakthrough occurred, sitting in front of a television set watching football. Differences settled, an understanding reached. Not emotional by any standards, but still a resolution. My dad and I have finally made up our differences, and we started by finding a common ground. Football. Manchester United. Both of us are rabid fans, and it was the first common ground rediscovered. Saturday night I flipped on the telly, and was watching a game when he came out of the room to have a coffee. We started talking, and the long and short of it is that we settled the whole argument, he has his son back and I have my father back.

In any case, he has agreed not to wind me up over small issues, and I've agreed not to fly off the handle at small arguments. I have to learn, I guess. Maybe I should stop going into nearly every argument to try and prove something.

7 Days

Cold War

2008-02-29T12:05:00.004+08:00

The Cold War was first fought between two opposing ideologies, and since then, countless miniature versions have been fought between parents and their teenagers, which were likewise another conflict of ideas. Well, I fought one just before the O's, and it looks like I'm fighting one again.

Since Monday, my father and I have refused to speak to each other, and only accept the other's presence as a formality. Why? Because he refused to accept me going to poly, reneging on a promise that he would support me wholeheartedly. Monday night, he kept badgering me about whether I could make the grade or not.

For those who know me well enough, I work best when people do NOT constantly question my confidence or my motivation. For those not in the know, let me tell you that it is one of the best ways to piss me off, that is, if you're cruisin' for a bruisin'. Why so? Well the simple fact is that the more others question me, the more I question myself, and I can be very self-critical, not exactly what others would think of me.

Anyway, back to my little story. Point is, my dad and I have been ignoring each other, even when we went down with a flu one after another. Well, my decision has been made. I like it this way. He doesn't bother about me, I couldn't give a rat's ass or a flying f*** about him. I LIKE IT. If he doesn't like me going to poly, I can still go overseas. I've been reading up on some high schools overseas, and it seems that I qualify to go overseas to study, if I can get my visa approved. All I need now is for that one catalyst, that one spark that will set off an inferno. That one domino that will set off a chain of events that would lead to me leaving Singapore for a foreign shore. ALONE. I don't give a shit if my dad goes berserk over it. All that gives me is what he owes me. Years of freedom. Oh, and he still owes me money. And if he wants to keep me here, he's gonna have to bloody well find me.

Rockabilly Revival

2008-02-23T01:17:00.004+08:00

An update on my life in general. Since SAJC is beginning to turn away 9-pointers, I guess that little-ole-me has no chance whatsoever of getting anything outta this. *Sigh* After all the things I've done for this crapheap they call an educational institution this is what they do to me? Oh well, gotta hold my head up high and walk on. To all my friends, no matter whether you know me as a school friend, a SuperTeen friend, or in any other relation, like drama, debates and speech competitions, if you've made it to SA, my heartiest congratulations to you all. You've done better than I did, and probably deserved it more than me. Yes, I'm talking to you, Rahman, Samuel Stephens, Veerababu, Cheney, Levin, Erica, Felissa Lim, and any others I might've missed out. But I will see you all again one day. I promise you that. Now then, MOVING ON!

I'm going back to my old roots. Rockabilly and Country music is the way for me, along with Greasers, Rockers, Cowboys, chopped bikes, aviators, leather jackets, Stetsons, boots, brass knucks, switchblades and the rest of that culture. I will occasionally put in new songs for my collection, but I wish to first ground myself in the rockabilly ways. CCR, Elvis, Cash, and all the rest. A new direction. Another Earthquake.

I will see you again, on the 10th. 17+1+1, I Love You. But it's now up to you, to say if you love me too.

February Song

2008-02-19T22:25:00.002+08:00

Where has that old friend gone
Lost in a February song
Tell him it won't be long
Til he opens his eyes, opens his eyes

Where is that simple day
Before colors broke into shades
And how did I ever fade
Into this life, into this life

And I never want to let you down
Forgive me if I slip away
When all that I've known is lost and found
I promise you I, I'll come back to you one day

Morning is waking up
And sometimes it's more than just enough
When all that you need to love
Is in front of your eyes
It's in front of your eyes

And I never want to let you down
Forgive me if I slip away
Sometimes it's hard to find the ground
Cause I keep on falling as I try to get away
From this crazy world

And I never want to let you down
Forgive me if I slip away
When all that I've known is lost and found
I promise you I, I'll come back to you one day

Where has that old friend gone
Lost in a February song
Tell him it won't be long
Til he opens his eyes
Opens his eyes.

24 Hours, Or So

2008-02-12T10:08:00.000+08:00

In a day's time it's Valentine's Day. A Hallmark holiday marked by the giving of flowers, cards, chocolates, and other interesting gifts. In my case, just a card, I think. I'm stuffing all money into the bank, to be removed at a later date. My friends are all on hiatus, I believe. Most have not updated their blogs or talked to me too much. Not exactly the best way to maintain friendships, but I guess it will continues like this for a while. I wonder where I'm headed? I guess my ultimate fate is in someone else's Hands, for now. Not the way I planned it. But still, it's my choice, now I must live with it. I guess now all I can do is write about it.

1 Necklace, 17 Flowers, 17 Candles, 1 Love,
forever yours.

A Fork In The Road

2008-01-27T14:55:00.000+08:00

All right, not everything has gone to plan these past weeks. Still, I believe the best is yet to come. I have come to a crossroads in my educational life, and I'm not sure which road I'm headed down. But one thing's for sure, I will always have my friends backing me up. You know, it's so reassuring to me that I can count on all my friends when I need them.

Alright, now for something completely different. I'm saving up cash for some new gear I've always wanted, so I may not be sponsoring any meals anytime soon. That being said, I might still pay for lunch or dinner, on special occasions. Also, I canceled my Maroon 5 tickets. Too expensive, and the special girl I asked is busy on the same day. Alas, it is not to be. Slings and arrows of outrageous fortune and all that, eh? More updates soon.

17 Years, 237 T's, 18 O's, 6205 Days, 1 LIFE.

2008-01-25T00:17:00.000+08:00

It's Been Great. 17 years on this good earth, 17 years of life, love, tears, joy, laughter and all life's little wonders. I've made many friends, fought a few enemies, lost loved ones, seen people come and go in the revolving door that is life, and I'm the better for it. I've fallen in love, become a young man, survived many a date with destiny, walked away from so many things and embraced so many others. I've had regrets, moments of insanity, but also taken my chances, and seen flashes of brilliance. To all who have impacted me and given me life, friendship, and love, I Salute You, I Appreciate You And I Love You. May the days of your lives be kind, warm, long, and full of the blessings you have bestowed upon a fool such as I. God Bless Us, Everyone.

You'll Never Walk Alone

2008-01-22T18:26:00.000+08:00

When you walk through a storm,
Hold your head up high
And don't be afraid of the dark.
At the end of the storm,
Is a golden sky,
And the sweet, silver song of a lark.

Walk on through the wind,
Walk on through the rain,
Though your dreams be tossed and blown.
Walk on, walk on, with hope in your heart,
And you'll never walk alone,
You'll never walk alone.

When you walk through a storm,
Hold your head up high,
And don't be afraid of the dark.
At the end of the storm,
Is a golden sky,
And the sweet, silver song of a lark.

Walk on through the wind,
Walk on through the rain,
Though your dreams be tossed and blown.
Walk on, walk on, with hope in your heart,
And you'll never walk alone,
You'll never walk alone.

The Waiting Game

2008-01-18T18:23:00.000+08:00

If all my friends are to be believed, this will be the last two weeks of freedom I have left. Rumors abound about when our results will be released,, but I've given up on worrying. Worrying distracts me. I'm gonna have my fun, that is a fact. Still a few movies left to download or watch, still some things to do. My iPod's working just fine, and currently holds 1400+songs and 3 movies. Nice, eh? I will import more over the coming days. Here's to a new beginning!

An Apple™ A Day

2008-01-14T12:28:00.000+08:00

Gaaaah, I've had it with Creative stuff. 2 MP3 players have quit on me, and my mouse is doing its best impersonation of "Grease Lightning". Switching over to iPod, and put getting a new mouse sooner or later on my priorities.

Everyone I know seems to be having fun. Quite a few people are in JC, some are working, the rest are just slacking. Me? I'm doing fine. Volunteering with the Drama Club in SA for CCA Display was fun. Oh, and I got to see my SYF performance on video! Alright! But what my future holds, I'm not too sure. JC sounds like an OK way to spend 1.5 years, but I just learnt that MI has both an A level and a diploma cert upon graduation.... tempting, no? We'll see.

On a more network note, congratulations to Jonathan Sng for getting a girlfriend. Maybe now you'll be less hyper. All the best to you both. Same goes for Ng Pei Jun. Oh, and I've decided to bury the hatchet when it comes to Tristan, Pei Jun and Timothy Lum. All three of these jokers now have my word that I will not insult you guys. For real. No Kidding. I'm Serious. Apologies to you all. I'd rather start my year nicely. Have a nice year!

Music Soothes The Savage Beast

2008-01-07T22:26:00.000+08:00

My MP3 player has finally given up the ghost. Kicked the bucket. Retired permanently. Hopped the twig. Asleep forever. Died.

Well, that was sad. But realistically, I couldn't expect it to last forever, now, could I? What with the kind of people in my house, gadgets and sources of entertainment are usually goners. If they were alive, all entertainment sources assigned to my house would have to be the tough and hard-as-nails kind of endurance, otherwise they would need to be so fragile that they are irreplaceable.

Good news though, my birthday's on the 25th of January, so I will go down to Audio House tomorrow to check on the prices, and hopefully get a new MP3 player. Could anyone give me an unbiased analysis of the Zune, Zen and iPod, and tell me which I should get? Thanks guys. Goodnight!

The Meaning Of The Word

2008-01-07T20:05:00.000+08:00

What's in a word? What's in a name? Well, I decided to snap out of my self-imposed stupor, and do a little research on a name very dear to my heart. The one who makes my world spin round.

Tessa is a feminine given name. The name is thought to be derived from the name Theresa, in turn derived from the Greek verb therizein, meaning to harvest. Common versions are Theresa, Teresa, Therese, Tess, Terri, Tessie, Reese, Tisa, Resa, and T. Teresita is the diminutive form of Teresa in Spanish.

The meaning of the name Tessa, or Theresa, is "one who reaps". The name implies one who is destined to work hard, but who will receive great bounty for her efforts. The name is associated with the fall season of the earth's life cycle: a time of harvest, of plenty, of purposeful labors, of warmth and generosity. Tessa shares her harvest with the world, as the earth has given its fruits to Tessa, thus respecting and supporting the natural cycle of life.

Brand New Day

2008-01-02T00:00:00.000+08:00

It's a whole different ballgame now. 2008 has started. A Happy New Year to all my dearest friends and family. In the past few days, my party came and went, and so did the movie marathon night at church. This New Year has left me in a slightly more reflective and lucid mood, if only because I have a cold.

I guess my party could be considered a moderate success. Once calls started coming in the last time about cancellations, I had downgraded my attendance expectations to around 10+ people. At highest count, there were 19 people at the party, not counting my brother and myself. To me, that was a success, even if I had to spend money and time on it. I hope everyone had fun, and I hope that everyone enjoyed the food and company.

The New Year's Day movie marathon was fun, because we didn't stick to the rules. Got to Yishun, and then Xuan Yang, James, Arthur and I went straight for the Lord Of The Rings Room. I don't know, but I think we had a hunch no one was too interested in watching LOTR. After a few arguments, and some negotiations, we finally setup Xuan Yang's computer, and watched Stardust, and Kingdom Of Heaven. Meanwhile, the rooms and corridors outside degenerated into chaos, everyone monkeying around and messing up the place. Ain't that great?

Spent all the rest of New Year's Day asleep, watching movies or playing BF2. Great waste of time, eh? Let's see now, New Year's Resolutions, err, my new year's resolution is to... ah screw it. Let's go with a few optimistic goals instead, shall we?

Ask ♥T♥e♥s♥s♥a♥ out. Yes, I really do love her, but I want to know her feelings about me. If she has different feelings, I will step back or walk away.
Learn guitar. My chord changes are horrible, and I need a focused practice time. Also, be a little bit more open concerning other people's music tastes.
Get into JC. No offense to all the poly people, but I think my style of learning suits JC better. If not, MI, poly, overseas or kill myself (in no particular order).
Get fit. Yep, you heard this from the lazy bugger himself. Get fit.
Keep this blog alive. The last one died a pathetic and miserable death. Once is enough.
For once, not lose my wallet, MP3 player, handphone, water bottles, or anything dear to me. That means I can lose my way or my marbles. Haha, lame joke.
Not waste more than 3 hours daily on the computer. Well, I said these goals were optimistic, right?
Learn to cook a few more dishes. My current repertoire needs updating, I think.
See my guy friends find a girlfriend and girl friends find a boyfriend. Seriously, I believe all the friends I have really deserve someone special. You all have been special to me, the guy who started secondary school as a lonely outsider with no social life whatsoever, as you gave me a sense of belonging. I sincerely thank you. May God Bless You.
Save money. Somehow, I feel as if I have been rather miserly with giving other people treats last year, and so I should save up and bring everyone out more often.
Be nice to my teachers, and for once avoid trying to kill them of exasperation and sheer disgust.
Update my jokes. I think some of them are wearing pretty thin, or are inappropriate at certain times.
Remember ♥T♥e♥s♥s♥a♥'s birthday, and get her a really romantic gift. A diamond necklace good enough? Or should it be silver? Haha, just kidding. But seriously, I Will Remember 10th March, 2008.

Thus ends my optimistic spree. Good night everyone, and here's wishing y'all all the best for 2008!

Man In The Middle

2007-12-27T16:37:00.000+08:00

To quote The Bee Gees, I'm just the man in the middle. Of what? Everything, of course. It's nice being the eye of the hurricane. Everything else is blowing around you, you are safe and calm. Party's in three days! But up to today, interesting events have been unfolding all over the place.

Rahman has his dad back again! Hooray for moderates! I hope the two can continue to co-exist peacefully.
Bryan's back, and is willing to help with the drinks.
Gawain's finally contactable, and is willing to source drinks, at a price.
Christmas was a blast, and I really had a lot of fun. The cash and presents weren't too bad either.
I am a full Corporal in BF2, with an eye on being a Sergeant. Yay unlocks! I unlocked the PKM Light Machine Gun, and the M95 Barret Sniper Rifle! Viva Las Headshots! Can't stop rockin'! Woohoo!
I got a handphone! Yes, I am finally contactable. But be warned, I will still use my home phone if I'm at home.
Party menu is decided, and so are the drinks!

Indeed, I have much to be grateful for. I thank all my friends and family, for helping me make it so far this year. Now, Ladies And Gentleman, For The Thousands In Attendance, And The Millions Watching At Home, LLLLEEEET"S GET READY TO RRRUUUUUUUUUUMMBLE!

North By Northeast

2007-12-11T18:58:00.000+08:00

To quote Jack Black in the movie The Holiday: "Legend has it that when the Santa Anas blow, all bets are off, anything can happen." In my case, in the past few days when I've been out walking one heck of a cold breeze has been blowing. A chilling, frosty blast of ice whistling down from the north. Change is due soon. I can feel it, but I ain't sure what is gonna happen to me. But one thing's for sure, something's gotta give. It's too much to try and contend with the force of Winter, wind's coming in north by northeast. I'm just gonna lie back and go wherever the wind takes me.

On a more carefree and non-intellectual note, Fight Club training today was fun, and what happened after was even more fun. Today's attendance consisted of myself, Bryan, Abel, Jeremy Wong, and Wei Jie. The other four were practicing armed combat, something I do not excel in. I fight without rules, that's why I can be dangerous. My only style or mantra for combat is that unpredictability equals danger. If people can read you like a book, you might as well not bother. I took out my boredom on a wall and some pillars, and managed to bust open my left hand knuckles. Minor bleeding, just a flesh wound. I've had worse.

Stopped at around 12, went for lunch with Brian's German foreign exchange student Kim, at Serangoon Gardens Market. Char Kway Teow and Steamed dumplings. Aaaah, the sweet unhealthiness of it all. You know, I just realized that Kim looks extremely cute. I wonder why Bryan hasn't asked her out yet? I think I can see chemistry (no not the subject!) between the two of them. Hey, I'm no expert, but I think they are good for each other. Whatever.... Anyways, we went back to Bryan's place, and played poker using arcade chips in place of money. I psychoed Bryan out ForTheWin! Whoopee! Whee! Old Mr B, Riddle-Me-Ree! HAHAHA! I'm had such fun WINNING! But seriously, thanks Bryan, for being such a nice guy. You make a crazy nut like me happy I have such good buddies. I take my hat off to you.

Hmm, I must be going slightly mad. I'm supposed to be scheming, planning and plotting over a certain lady, and yet I'm wasting time? Wait, prioritizing ain't exactly my strong point. Gaah, forget it. I bought her a 2GB thumb drive for Christmas, and I'm gonna load it with love songs. If she don't get the hint, enough of that then. I'll slow down. Jingle Bell Rock, and Merry Christmas! Comin' At You!

The Piper At The Gates Of Dawn

2007-12-07T22:00:00.000+08:00

You know, what with all this controversy over movies like The Golden Compass, The Chronicles Of Narnia, Harry Potter, The Lord Of The Rings, The Da Vinci Code and so on, I though I might just weigh in with my two bucks worth. Well, here goes.

I believe that to each, his own. You may come up with your own interpretations of whatever events may transpire. For example, V For Vendetta could be viewed as dangerous anti-government propaganda, or as a dark, yet heroic story of a man fighting a battle no one else would dare fight. Likewise, Robin Hood may be seen as a dangerous bandit who openly defies the law, or as a working-class hero (yeoman) with lordly roots who was unjustly removed from position. Even Tom Sawyer and Huckleberry Finn could be represented as troublemaking rebels against society and all embodiments of authority. In short, a bad example for any young mind. Or, they could be looked at as mischievous, but well-intentioned young scamps who make good in the end. Even children's classic Wind In The Willows has a chapter that generated much controversy. The Piper At The Gates Of Dawn, Chapter 7 in the book, was denounced as demonic, un-Christian and certainly not something for children to read. But when I first read the story, I saw only the wild, beautiful spirit of nature itself. The chapter, in my humble opinion, is just a celebration about the beauty of nature, not some deeper message designed to encourage belief in demons and spirits. So it was a great book, great fiction. Honestly, I know my idea isn't gonna change people's view, but I hope people can believe whatever they want, but at the same time respect the fact that not everyone will have the same opinion, and nobody likes to be forced into changing opinions. Good night, and God Bless Us, Everyone!

Roadblock, Or Just A Traffic Light?

2007-11-29T00:44:00.000+08:00

Bloody 1am, and I'm supposed to be sleeping. Oh well. Here's a recount of Wednesday's events.

Slept until around 10, then got up, and somehow made my way down to Dhoby Ghaut, to go jamming with Rahman, Wei Jie and Jeremy. Those guys seem to forget that I can't play musical instruments yet, just vocals. Plus, to compound matters, we did not know any jamming studios. But we still went all the way to Swee Lee to muck around for a few hours. Rain started pouring down, so we ran through a little storm and got back to City Hall. Sakae Buffet Rocks! The only problems being that it's GST costs are bloody horrible(especially for students) and bloody hidden. Also, they have this problem of not fixing their coms, so we can't always order by computer. There were also these two tables of idiots in front of us in the buffet line. Typical Beng and Lian behaviour. Talk talk talk, swear in dialect, talk about things in a very inward-looking, non-cosmopolitan way, moan and groan about eating and gaining weight in singlish, blahblahblah. Oh BOOHOO. Don't eat if you don't want to. Sheesh. Never mind, we still managed to down close to 75 plates altogether, making it well worth the $60+ spent.

Got home, Maplestory refused to cooperate. I'm sorry Rahman, it wouldn't cooperate even when I told it that it had to collaborate, or be shot. So I played Mechwarrior for a few hours, then listened to Rascal Flatts until my dad complained I was supposed to be asleep. But I have one major piece of bad, or good, news.

Miss T.W. does not want to go watch Enchanted. She's already seen the movie, with some friends if I'm not wrong. But still, how this ends up depends on me, and I've just decided to view it as a traffic light, rather than a roadblock. I will ask her to watch The Golden Compass, and I will ask her tomorrow. That way, I can bring her to the premiers, or something like that. After all, the early bird gets the worm, if at first you don't succeed try try again, and all that. I am 100% certain I will do it. I won't stop trying, of that I'm assured.

Oh, and Happy Birthday Bryan Ng! Thanks for ten years of memories, and here's wishing for many more! Dias Naomh Aindrea! SA_FOREVER!

Postcards For A Party

2007-11-23T19:36:00.000+08:00

Party's been confirmed for the 29th. I am truly sorry to all those who have to rearrange their schedules, but it can't be helped. Since I still can't confirm everyone, I will be sending out cards to invite everyone. Job search is stagnating, as my relatives still haven't got back to me. Also, I now have A Guitar! Yamato G44, made in Japan. Paid $99 for it. I'm very happy with the whole package, even if I can only play three chords as of now. Let my odyssey towards becoming a guitar hero begin! Rock On!

Alright, enough of that. I shall be visiting the SuperTeens camp next week, and saying hello to some of the guys. Also, I will be practising on my guitar, for about 30 mins each day, till I can play my beloved country and gospel songs. Once again, my thanks to Rahman and Jeremy Ho for accompanying me to get my guitar. Pics will be on my Friendster site, so go there and take a looksie. Goodnight!

Storm Clouds Gather, And A Sunbeam Shines Through

2007-11-19T00:42:00.000+08:00

Two pieces of news, one bad and one that's very cagey. First off, concerning the BBQ. People are starting to cancel on me left, right, centre, up, down, and middle for good measure. Thus, I am seriously considering reorganising the whole BBQ, or moving it to a later date, namely the 22nd or the 29th of December. I know it's a heck near Christmas and Year's End, but it can't be helped. I still want to have a mega bash, and get everyone in for it. Food will also be bountiful, and I don't want any going to waste. Let's see, what else? Oh, now for a sunbeam or two. My job-hunt is picking up steam, and I should be able to get something concrete by the end of next week. I sincerely hope I can get Rahman a job as well. I would enjoy working alongside a comrade, at the very least.

But by far the brightest sunbeam: I have summoned up whatever inner courage I have to ask her out. I have been near for so many years, and yet wasted them all. But now, now is different. There is nothing to distract me, no exams nagging at the back of my head, no job or task screaming for attention. Just one goal, one purpose, one love. Everything else seems to have evaporated into a meaningless whisper in the breeze. It's funny how it hit me right before the exams. Priorities, I mean. Never mind. What I do know is that I love her, it sure ain't no crush. Not this time. Now when I look back, I guess the few relationships I had were never serious, more just a crazy crush, spur-of-the-moment kinda things. Flirting, at best. Yes, I Love Her. I just wish that someday I will have the courage to say that to her.

Dear God, I've seen what you can do,
I've seen you make miracles and hopeless dreams come true.
You made the heavens, the stars and the sea,
So how hard is it to ask if she loves me?