Say It Isn't So

Yeah, so my life is rather confusing at the moment. But I guess that's how it always is, right? And I kinda like it that way.

School's been back in session for about a month now, and I'm clicking back into the swing of things. I like all my classes so far. Shame I couldn't take another CDS, but then again, that leaves me with some time to kick back with a good book and a nice cup of tea. I love how everything seems to fall into place sometimes. The Socio group's got Singapore Dreaming for our focus movie. I've never watched it, but I hope it's good. Open-mind approach, activated.

Okay, so I might not be an expert at photography. Thankfully, there's plenty of people willing to teach me and guide me along the way. To everyone who helped me so far, thanks for the boost!

I want to try out for FOC facilitator! I mean, no-one from CMM turned out last time, so we should at least be represented this time around, right?

Christmas is strolling back into season again. How time flies. It seems like yesterday I was grumbling about Christmas being over too soon, and yet, here it is again. Aaaaah, holidays are always welcome.

Watching movies is a nice way to spend your time. Watching movies with somebody who appreciates them is even more fun. Watching movies with a girl who appreciates them, and actually has lots more to offer than just an airy "Yeah, it was nice", is AWESOME. Thanks for a wonderful time, Ms. K, and here's hoping for much more to come.

There's no Christmas morning service in church this year, so we should have a party at my place. That would be fun. Try inviting 50 teens, and watch the place go crazy. Or Andes can arrange the chalet for selected guests only. No party poopers, and no high-mighty-and-holier-than-thou attitudes.

I think I like two girls at the same time. How's that for screwed up? Heh heh. Oh, and I think one of my seniors is really hot. Yep, that's the definition of screwed up, last time I checked. Oh well, I'll just grin and enjoy the pretty women in my life. =)

The Golden Boy

Freddie Mercury is a LEGEND! Of course, you already knew that, didn't you?

School's back in session, and the holidays are well and truly over. I may not have accomplished everything I set out to do, but I did manage to do a few things, and I'm happy to be back in the saddle for another term.

The flavor of the month is tea. I've become addicted to a cup of tea in the morning, it really kick-starts my day. I might even give up all my other more fascinating concoctions for it. Then again, maybe I won't. And I like a girl. I hope she likes me. She's not my age. Her smile is beautiful. Every little thing she does is magic. It just makes me want to break out into song sometimes.

The last week or so of holidays has been kind to me. I watched a movie, I played football with some old friends, and I made something incredibly tasty. Best of all, I got to go out with a beautiful girl, I ate ice cream with a great friend, and I went out for a quiet err....meal with two other good friends. Yes, I'm incredibly blessed.

First week of term's been okay. I mean, I kinda expected how the cards would fall, in terms of forming groups for projects. The lectures have been cool so far, except for my CDS. Boy howdy, is that lecturer a boring old fart. Anyway, I'm skipping all his lectures this term, since everything is already in the handbook. Which means Friday is a 2 hour day, ending at 11am! Better yet, Wednesday follows the same format, and I only have an afternoon lecture on Monday. Can I get an AMEN?

But seriously, I need to do better this term. Less sleeping in lectures, less last-minute rushing. Maybe more caffeine. I've got MMP (the online module), PerCom, Photo, J2 Feature, and Socio. I might need to borrow a DSLR, and I definitely need models for my photography tutorials. Yes, I mean you gotta come in as photo subjects. So if anybody wants to volunteer their services, I would like to know. I can't afford to pay you, but I'll probably take you out for dinner after that. I'm not a professional yet, y'know.

Another reason why the first week was bearable: Friday. Dropped in on Jan while she was working, gave her a little surprise. Hope it brightened her day up! She certainly cheered up my dreary afternoon.

Everything seems so much brighter this year. I wish it could go on forever. And my adventure continues...

Second Verse, Same As The First

The new year has become just another year. The holiday euphoria has worn off, and I believe we can all go back to the comfort of the familiar. Routine, habit, ritual and practice. It had to come sometime, but believe me, I wish it never would.

Imagine. By the end of this year, we will all note the drop of another grain of sand in our hourglasses. Will we truly be "another year older, another year wiser"? I certainly hope so.

So far, so good. Things have been going along very well. I'm still working, probably til end Feb. However, I am on vacation...now, what should I do with said vacation?

Goals...ever so simple, and yet, so far away from achievement. Oh well, here goes nothing.

1. Stabilize weight at 90kg
2. Learn to play my electric guitar
3. Get into my course of choice
4. Be nice to people.
5. Ask a girl out properly, without somehow pissing her off or frightening her away.
6. FACEBOOK!
7. Celebrate my birthday.

Okay, that's all from me. Targets haven't changed too much, I guess. Second verse, same as the first.

Season's Greetings

To all my friends and relations: Merry Christmas, and a Happy New Year. Thanks for another great year. I Love You All.

The One Constant In The World

Change. Ya gotta love it. It comes along out of the blue, and smacks straight into you when you're just going on, minding your own business. Bolt out of the bloody blue. Whoop-de-effin-doo. Anyway, here's confirmation of my current status, and my plans.

I have officially dropped out of my course. I am now an intern at a finance company. I plan to resume my studies next year. I have no intention of returning to my old course, or other engineering/science course, for that matter. I still plan to get my driver's license. My endpoint is still the same, just that the route has changed slightly.

I have made a few promises I fully intend to keep. First off, I will pay for the net's popcorn. I am completely serious. Second. I will learn as much as I can on my job, and not succumb to possible boredom. Third. I will pay attention to a friend's advice that sometimes, she might be right in front of me, but I might not see her...once I figure out what the hell that means. Fourth. I will keep going to the gym. Fifth. Start my Christmas list.

To all who are gonna have exams soon, all the best. For those starting school again, just chill... you'll get over it...it's another tequila sunrise, that's all.

Life Is A Highway

I'm less tired than I was at the start of the break. Also, less bored. Several interesting events have unfolded. I'm much better for them. It's been a good few weeks.

I have a few announcements to make. Firstly, I am leaving my course of studies. Whatever was taught sure hasn't stuck. Probably never will. I will be getting a job when term re-opens, and will not be returning to school, except maybe to pinch some movies, books and the like. Or I might do that during the last week of break. Whatever works out, I guess.

Secondly, I am giving up my pursuit of her. I did send her an email asking her out, just for a movie and coffee, but have yet to receive a proper response. Also, since I am leaving my course (and most probably the polytechnic), it don't seem too sensible to keep her thinking I'm trying something. I leave that part of my life to chance, fate and time.

Third. HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAHMAN! Yeah, yeah, I'm weeks late, but still, better late than never, eh? (I really need to stop procrastinating, retyping entire articles and deleting them). Anyway, here's wishing you all the best for promo results. Ride on, my brother-in-arms!

Fourth. I am trying to hammer out a plan for my life, or at least the education part of it. Yes, I'm actually thinking hard during a holiday break. No, I don't mean that I was not thinking when I was talking about your life. Of course I was thinking, and not on autopilot. It's just that I am putting as much serious thought as I can into this. All better now? Good. Thank you. Now sod off, you hypersensitive bitch. No wait! I didn't mean to hurt your feelings, it was meant for the other guy. Yeah, you at the back, the one who didn't get it...oh never mind.

Now, for something a little less serious.

I've been going out a lot more lately. 2 badminton games, 1 basketball game, lunch, a school tour, a gaming spree, and more food and drink. For once, I actually enjoyed myself bags more, rather than the usual sitting in front of a computer, like I'm doing now. So, to the cool cats of region 3/4, who planned and organized all the events, thanks for a job well done. Boredom has been alleviated.

Let's see, am I missing anything....nope, don't think I have. Well, til next time chaps. Oh wait. Yeah. Paul Newman has gone to the great roundup in the sky. This video is posted in his honor. To the Hudson Hornet.

Fluctuations And Other Obscenities

A Chinaman walks into a restaurant and orders some food. After the meal, he looks at the bill and asks why it is so expensive this week when last week he paid 20% less for the same dishes. The waiter replies:" Fluctuations", to which the Chinaman replies, "Fluck you too."

A Jew says to a Chinaman:" Hey you chink, stop squinting!" The Chinaman replies," Hey, it's your fault, Jew, you sold me these cheap glasses!"

This ends my little presentation. Thank you very much, ladies and gentlemen.

Prices are going down, and portions are going up. Oh, wait, that's the other way around. Ah well. Guess it will do me good to eat less than eight meals a day. Yeah, I used to eat breakfast, a mid-morning snack, brunch, lunch, an afternoon nibble, tea, dinner, coffee and finally, supper. Oh, and add in various miscellaneous bites of this and that when I'm feeling peckish. So yeah, I'm just your average ordinary everyday polar bear...err, I meant teenager.

Exams have ended. I might do well. Pigs might fly. Whales might walk. Aliens might exist. I might stop cracking racist and dirty jokes. Yeah, like that's ever gonna happen.

My holidays are until the 12th of October. Yep, read it and weep, buddies. 12th October. Bloody hell, that's a lot of time on my hands. Time to start getting of my arse and getting a good job. As a chef. Yeah, that's an idea. Poison people with too much sugar, milk, cream, salt, eggs, pepper and other ingredients and condiments. Oh, and salad. Wait, what? AAAAAH! Think junk food! JUNK FOOD! CHOCOLATE ICE CREAM WITH VANILLA CREAM CHOC CHIPS COOKIES CHOC SAUCE PEANUT BUTTER STRAWBERRY CREAM ICING APPLE CRUMBLE CHEESECAKE AND A BIG FROTHY MUG OF COFFEE WITH FULL FAT MILK SUGAR SOLUTION CHOC SAUCE TOPPED WITH WHIPPED CREAM SUGAR GLAZING AND A CHERRY ON TOP! Yes, much better now.

Y'know, most if not all the nice girls I know have gone to or are in other countries, are attached, or very uptight about getting attached. Was there never a tale of more woe, than Juliet, and searching desperately for her, Romeo?

But soft! What light through yonder window breaks? It is the east, and Juliet is the sun! Arise, fair sun, and slay the envious moon. It is the east, and Juliet is the sun. - From "Romeo and Juliet, Act 2 Scene 2"

Yeah, and I wrote all that without referring to my copy of R&J. Jolly well done, old boy! Good form and all that. My literature skills might be dormant, but they sure as heck still exist. That's comforting.

Moving on, my plans for the holidays, in no particular order.

1. Get The Girl.
2. Get my JJ-ness back.
3. Get a job.
4. Get money.
5. Get lots of fun.
6. Get fit.
7. Get ready to rock 'n roll.

Here's To Fast Cars, Freedom and Jiahui!

I Think It's Gonna Be A Long Long Time

This is one heck of a song. And these days, though I am feeling more at home in the poly, I am still lonely. I miss my bros. I really do. Yeah, I'm hanging with a new crowd, but most of them can't hold a candle to the old gang.

I'm beginning to find silver linings behind clouds these days, even though I sound rather depressed. Truth be told, I'm just tired. But I trust that strength will come from somewhere.

I've been nosing around in the library, and discovered some interesting stuff. Soundtracks, rock albums, old movies and rare books. I really love just browsing through and enjoying them in what little free time I have. And I really want to change course. Easy option accusations be damned. I just want for once, to do something I want to do. But first, I must finish my fight. Tie up loose ends, and leave no doubt.

It's a good thing many Flag Football (which henceforth will be referred to as FFB,) people are in ECE division. It helps to have some experienced operators around to help the rookie. And they are really nice people. They are probably the ones who most remind me of the old crowd, a bunch of crazy, fun, hyperactive and friendly guys, obsessed with playing and girls, but also serious about studies...to a certain extent(grin at the broken SS rule).

And ever since I saw her, I can't stop thinking about her. How is she? Is she happy? Is she stressed? Will she turn up next time KTH has an outing? When will I next see her again? Will she give me a chance? So many questions, and I might never get any answers. But I say again, better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all.

Through The Barrier

Time flows on. I am tired. I am battered. I am bruised. I am weary. I am one with my pain. I am one with my hurt. I am at peace. I am free.

It's been a hard day's work. Woke up late, again(aaaagh, must kick the habit), and got to school, late. Had to put up with remarks from my class. Y'know, I hate most of them. Faggots. They think they are all so goddamn clever, eh? Most of 'em are assholes. I won't waste any more space on them. But to the few who make my classroom life a little more enjoyable, I thank you. Bless your hearts for the kindness you've shown. Thank you.

I'm aching, bruised and battered all over. Flag football was one heck of a battle today. The Atlas Knights played The Black Knights. We lost. 4-1. Respectable, but we could have done better. I went down three times. Once, to a clothesline from Nadia(though she didn't really mean it), once to dive tackle Hashim, and once because something in my back gave way. That last one hurt the most. For a few minutes, I was unable to even stand properly, but had to play through the pain and finish the match. Limped off, and tried to fix it myself. Failed miserably, but still managed to get to a nearby pillar, to lean on and take some strain off.

The funny thing is, when I was slumped against that pillar, I was hoping for something to take my mind off the annoying, and very persistent ache in my back. I sure as heck got it. And what a boost it was.

She walked by. She Walked By. SHE WALKED BY! And all I could say was f*cking "Hi!" Dammit, I couldn't even stand properly, let alone walk up to her and ask her out. WHY! Why is it that Lady Luck and her daughter Ms Fortune absolutely must walk hand in effin' hand? Jesus, Mary and Joseph in Tinseltown! Oh, Mary Magdalene! All the Saints and Martyrs and Jesus! Did I happen to mention Jesus? (Spot the movie reference.)

But despite all my bemoaning of Lady Luck's daughter, I still feel really light-headed. I don't know. It's like the minute I saw her I forgot what the hell was wrong with my back. Every nerve in my back was screaming "Sit down, you fool!", but I couldn't give a rat's ass. I swear, even my brain seemed to shut down for a while, and I lost most powers of speech.

I have not seen her in a long time. But her face seems somehow etched in my memory. Like a program you can never delete, and don't want to. Somebody told me at the start of poly, if you don't forget her after three months of not seeing her, it's probably not just a crush. But never rush these things. Be a friend first, boyfriend can wait. Wise words, and I'll follow them. But perhaps I'll allow myself the little indulgence of saying... I Love You.

Forging Ahead...Building Foundations

It's quiet now. Everyone's in bed, all save me. I have a little time to contemplate and reflect, on past, present and future.

Poly life is going swellingly, apart from some minor(or major) setbacks. I found out that I have to struggle through and entire semester of nonsense, before I get to the relevant stuff, stuff that I'm interested in. I wanted to change course, but that thought is unrealistic. Shit, I hate my course(for now). Physics and Maths everywhere, and my course lecturers are not that interesting at all. Okay, fine, they're downright boring. A snooze-fest. Human Valium. 'Nuff said. More updates on how emo about school I've become: Coming soon.

I don't think I will seriously join any CCA in my first year. What I've seen so far of the sports CCAs is hardly impressive. Football was a disaster. The coach is a dickhead. Now, I don't want to insult the Malays, but they are too cliquish. They pass to each other and hog the ball, so no-one else seems to be playing. Also, I'm a goalkeeper, but there are several others ahead of me in the pecking order. I'm the guy who just happens to keep goal. The rest are serious players(school team, club or even national). So, football? No thanks. Rugby? Same old same old. Big forwards, small backs(mostly). Just get a team with big backs, and we'll get steamrolled. So, no thanks as well. DJ auditions went well, but I can't swear on air, or talk nonsense, and I gotta play mainstream music... riiiight, like that's gonna be easy. I might join flag football, or some other sport. And I want to apply for the youth flying club. A pilot's license might come in handy, no?

Now, for a little more cheer and laughter. A Sakae raid is planned for this Thursday, and sms alerts are going out tomorrow. They made the mistake of having a public holiday lunchtime buffet, we take them to school for it. 1130am to 430pm. Showtime!

This Friday was supposed to be Dinner & Dance Night. But both my date and I are unable to attend, so that scuppers things. Yes, I asked someone to be my date. Now, for all those nosy parkers who would dearly love to go after me about my date, I will be factual, so you guys won't bug me too much.

Her name is J♥♥♥♥♥. She was in my FOC group. She is super-enthusiastic, and hyper-charged to boot. Much more supercharged than me on my McDonald's coffee and sugar rush. She is my new definition of beautiful. Yes, I really like her. I think I just might do anything for her. But I guess I will never know too much about her unless she lets me in. That was another reason I wanted to change course. She's in the School of Business and Accountancy. I wanted to switch to Accountancy. Go figure. Well, maybe this time I actually have a chance. Too many missed opportunities, too many wasted moments. Action, not talk. Eye of the Tiger, ain't no stopping halfway. Is my happy end somewhere in this new fairytale I'm weaving? Only time will tell.

26 April. A Brand New Day. My Wish...

Sweet Sensations...For All Seasons

Here, at long last, is the list of Girls who have helped me along life's journey so far, as guides, mentors and friends, and some songs for each.

Alphabetical order, generic initials only, to avoid any "interesting" comments.

A. - Maroon 5: Makes Me Wonder, Josh Groban: She's Out Of My Life

D. & E. - The Saddle Club: Friends Forever, Randy Newman: You've Got A Friend In Me

E. - Josh Groban: Remember Me, Westlife: Colour My World

E. - Queen: You're My Best Friend, Josh Groban: In Her Eyes, You Raise Me Up, Rascal Flatts: My Wish

F. - Rascal Flatts: Here's To You, U2: I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For

F. - Baha Men: Best Years Of Our Lives, Rascal Flatts: Stand

F. & F. - Justin Timberlake: Lovestoned/I Think She Knows, Rascal Flatts: Cool Thing

J. - Mcfly: You've Got A Friend, Rascal Flatts: Fast Cars And Freedom

J.H. - Josh Groban: So She Dances, Rascal Flatts: Bless The Broken Road, Phil Collins: Find A Way To My Heart, MLTR: Take Me To Your Heart

M. - Johnny Cash: I Walk The Line, Bruce Springsteen: Dancing In The Dark

N. - Rascal Flatts: Help Me Remember, Blue: I-O-I-O, Johnny Cash: Ring Of Fire

T. - Queen: These Are The Days Of Our Lives, Westlife: Obvious

S. - Rascal Flatts: What Hurts The Most, Shine On, From Time To Time, Everclear: Brown Eyed Girl

W.W. - Josh Groban: My Confession, Phil Collins: This Must Be Love
, Nickelback: Far Away

*Note: More Will Follow

The Journey So Far

It's a few months into my poly journey, and a few days before school officially starts. I would like to take a moment to pause, and reflect on the journey so far, and what lies ahead.

My first impression of Ngee Ann Poly was: Wow, nice place. My impression has not changed. It is a very nice place, and is full of very nice people. The girls are good-looking, eh? *grin* Anyways, I have met a very interesting group of people, who know how to have fun. That's very important, now I guess we will find out if we all know how to study. I just realised that my course is full of maths. Shit, no frickin' way! Not again! Okay, relax, take deep breaths, think. I know! If I really try to suck at my course in the first month, maybe I can request a change of course! Hmm, but that would deviate from my plans as well... Another dilemma to resolve. Moving on!

I have found friends. Not just casual friends, the kind you say hi to and share stationery and notes with, rather, friends who I will go out for outings with, share my problems and dreams with, friends who I will be willing to drop everything and help, in short, brothers and sisters. To my friends from secondary school, never fear, you guys have already attained this status, and I will never forget you all. Let's try and meet up sometime as a group, yeah? Oh, and next long weekend at Bryan's house. Activities to be confirmed.

Girls Girls Girls! I've seen several I really like. Can't decide. Too...hot...can't breathe...*faints*
Okay, enough of that. But really, I've seen several I seriously might ask out. I don't know. We'll see soon enough. Names? Well, after the last debacle I'm keeping my cards hidden. To quote a song, oh what a feeling!

Ticket Stub, Bowling Ball or Chopsticks?

It's been a very interesting past few days. My package has been delivered to the leading lady. It's the last time I shall go there, unless she wants me to stay. But now, I will start to drift away. Whatever happens in the future is now in her hands, not mine. I will walk my own line.

I have two days of freedom left, before I have to attend the Freshman Camp. Excited, yes, but also somewhat bored. I've seen too many camps, I guess. I hope something original is in store. Oh, a note to anyone who wants to try ragging. There are several boys from 4S1 coming to camp, so they'd better think twice before they try anything with anyone of us. We were asked to bring an old t-shirt, but all my t-shirts are old and "well-ventilated". Yet another problem to take care of.

Also, I need a haircut. I'm considering a crewcut with a pomp fringe(greaser style, baby!) or a marine H&T. For those not familiar, it's short for high and tight. The Rangers and Marines use it a lot. Or, I could very well go extreme and use the recon H&T, which is skin as well. Cool, eh? For more info, check these websites

What else will I do in two days? Well, I need some new picks for my guitar, as one has gotten lost and the other doesn't feel right. Also, I feel like watching a movie, going bowling, or stuffing my face. And I sure ain't gonna do it alone. Depending on who's free, I shall go out tomorrow, the day after or even both days. Hip Hurray for a carefree life!

Oh, and here's the next video from Celtic Thunder. I will also buy their album if I can find it.

A Dream Is A Wish...

Due to a myriad delays and distractions, I have to give Tessa her birthday gift on Friday or Saturday. I pray it does not rain. It would ruin everything, again. I have to get a rose as well... I wonder what color I should get? The classic red rose? The graceful pink rose? The passionate coral rose? Or the beautiful burgundy? I don't know. Suffice to say I have to look at my budget, as I hear roses are dreadfully expensive these days.

Well, a dream really is a wish. I guess my dreams are pretty modest compared to most, but I think that with setting targets I can achieve something. Out of sight, out of mind and all that, eh?

On another note, Congratulations to the Region 3/4 Captain's Ball team for winning the 2008 Youth Championships! (And doing it without any substitutes, and no lunch to boot.) All in all, we scored more than 10 points per match, and restricted our opponents to a paltry 4 points per match! A jolly good showing for a team that never trained together(unlike some other eager beaver teams I could think of), never had much expectations, and were generally seen as either cannon fodder or dark horses. We are the little team that could. The Few. I Salute You!

Let's see, now... my back, shoulders, arms, legs and hip all feel like a throbbing mass of pain, but DAMN! It was worth it!

Far Away - A Special Dedication To Tessa On Her 17th Birthday

This time, this place
Misused, mistakes
Too long, too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving
Hold on to me and, never let me go.

Someday Out Of The Blue

Some day out of the blue
In a crowded street or a deserted square
I'll turn and I'll see you
As if our love were new
Some day we can start again, some day soon

Here comes the night
Here come the memories
Lost in your arms
Down in the foreign fields
Not so long ago
Seems like eternity
The sweet afternoons
Still capture me

Some day out of the blue
In a crowded street or a deserted square
I'll turn and I'll see you
As if our love were new
Some day we can start again, some day soon

I still believe
I still put faith in us
We had it all and watched it slip away
Where are we now
Not where we want to be
Those hot afternoons
Still follow me

Some day out of the blue
Maybe years from now
Or tomorrow night
I'll turn and I'll see you
As if we always knew
Some day we would live again, some day soon

I still believe
I still put faith in us

I still believe
I still put faith in us

I still believe
I still put faith in us

Here comes the night
Here come the memories
Lost in your arms
Down in the foreign fields
Not so long ago
Seems like eternity
The sweet afternoons
Still capture me

Some day out of the blue
Maybe years from now
Or tomorrow night
I'll turn and I'll see you
As if we always knew
Some day we would live again, some day soon

Some day out of the blue
In a crowded street or a deserted square
I'll turn and I'll see you
As if our love were new
Some day we can start again, some day soon

I still believe
I still put faith in us

I still believe
I still put faith in us

I still believe
I still put faith in us

(Fade)
I still believe
I still put faith in us

Rockabilly Revival

An update on my life in general. Since SAJC is beginning to turn away 9-pointers, I guess that little-ole-me has no chance whatsoever of getting anything outta this. *Sigh* After all the things I've done for this crapheap they call an educational institution this is what they do to me? Oh well, gotta hold my head up high and walk on. To all my friends, no matter whether you know me as a school friend, a SuperTeen friend, or in any other relation, like drama, debates and speech competitions, if you've made it to SA, my heartiest congratulations to you all. You've done better than I did, and probably deserved it more than me. Yes, I'm talking to you, Rahman, Samuel Stephens, Veerababu, Cheney, Levin, Erica, Felissa Lim, and any others I might've missed out. But I will see you all again one day. I promise you that. Now then, MOVING ON!

I'm going back to my old roots. Rockabilly and Country music is the way for me, along with Greasers, Rockers, Cowboys, chopped bikes, aviators, leather jackets, Stetsons, boots, brass knucks, switchblades and the rest of that culture. I will occasionally put in new songs for my collection, but I wish to first ground myself in the rockabilly ways. CCR, Elvis, Cash, and all the rest. A new direction. Another Earthquake.

I will see you again, on the 10th. 17+1+1, I Love You. But it's now up to you, to say if you love me too.

February Song

Where has that old friend gone
Lost in a February song
Tell him it won't be long
Til he opens his eyes, opens his eyes

Where is that simple day
Before colors broke into shades
And how did I ever fade
Into this life, into this life

And I never want to let you down
Forgive me if I slip away
When all that I've known is lost and found
I promise you I, I'll come back to you one day

Morning is waking up
And sometimes it's more than just enough
When all that you need to love
Is in front of your eyes
It's in front of your eyes

And I never want to let you down
Forgive me if I slip away
Sometimes it's hard to find the ground
Cause I keep on falling as I try to get away
From this crazy world

And I never want to let you down
Forgive me if I slip away
When all that I've known is lost and found
I promise you I, I'll come back to you one day

Where has that old friend gone
Lost in a February song
Tell him it won't be long
Til he opens his eyes
Opens his eyes.

24 Hours, Or So

In a day's time it's Valentine's Day. A Hallmark holiday marked by the giving of flowers, cards, chocolates, and other interesting gifts. In my case, just a card, I think. I'm stuffing all money into the bank, to be removed at a later date. My friends are all on hiatus, I believe. Most have not updated their blogs or talked to me too much. Not exactly the best way to maintain friendships, but I guess it will continues like this for a while. I wonder where I'm headed? I guess my ultimate fate is in someone else's Hands, for now. Not the way I planned it. But still, it's my choice, now I must live with it. I guess now all I can do is write about it.

1 Necklace, 17 Flowers, 17 Candles, 1 Love,
forever yours.

A Fork In The Road

All right, not everything has gone to plan these past weeks. Still, I believe the best is yet to come. I have come to a crossroads in my educational life, and I'm not sure which road I'm headed down. But one thing's for sure, I will always have my friends backing me up. You know, it's so reassuring to me that I can count on all my friends when I need them.

Alright, now for something completely different. I'm saving up cash for some new gear I've always wanted, so I may not be sponsoring any meals anytime soon. That being said, I might still pay for lunch or dinner, on special occasions. Also, I canceled my Maroon 5 tickets. Too expensive, and the special girl I asked is busy on the same day. Alas, it is not to be. Slings and arrows of outrageous fortune and all that, eh? More updates soon.