Checklist...Cheque Please!

Right, so I've spent a bomb on Christmas this year. I hope next year ain't so hard on my wallet. But still, I hope that everyone liked their presents. Next year, I ain't so sure about what you guys will get.

The New Year is charging forward like a runaway train, and we're all in the way. Once again, I will not make any resolutions, because I sure won't keep 'em. However, I have a few achievable goals in mind. No drastic changes, I hope. I've had enough this year.

1. I'm going back to school
2. I'm switching to yogurt for lunch in school
3. I'm gonna learn to play the guitar from scratch
4. I will save more money than this year
5. I will learn to laugh more, and cuss less

That's all for what I plan to do next year, year 2009. It will be the 18th year I walk this road, and I'm looking forward to it.

Oh, here's a checklist for what I still want to get.

1. New Backphones
2. Effects Pedal
3. Adidas Cobra Gloves
4. Twin Red Oak Bokkens
5. Leather Jacket
6. The Complete Lord of the Rings Collection - DVD and Books
7. The Complete Harry Potter Collection - DVD and Books
8. GTA IV
9. James Bond DVD Collection
10. Football Manager 2009

So there, hints on what I want for my birthday. Cash is also appreciated. *Cheeky Grin* Anyway, the next post will be a review of December, so please don't think this blog is dead. Thank you very much. Oh, and one more thing. THANKS FOR ALL THE FOOD AND GIFTS!

Season's Greetings

To all my friends and relations: Merry Christmas, and a Happy New Year. Thanks for another great year. I Love You All.

The 12 Days - My Christmas Wishlist

We all know that song the twelve days of Christmas, partridges, doves, rings, the whole caboodle. Well, here's my Christmas list, one item for each day.

1. Epiphone Les Paul Special 2/SG Special
   
2. Laney 20W Amp
3. Twin Red Oak Bokkens
4. Adidas Cobra Gloves
5. Levi's Jeans (straight cut)
6. Harley-Davidson/ Hard Rock Cafe Leather Jacket
7. The Complete Lord of the Rings Collection - DVD and Books
   
8. The Complete Harry Potter Collection - DVD and Books
   
9. The Dark Knight Special Edition DVD
10. Superman Returns Special Edition DVD
11. James Bond Complete DVD Collection
12. GTA IV

Oh, and I need to upgrade my computer and internet speed. This list may change by next week. Cheers, and a Merry Christmas to all!

Turn And Face The Strange

November's been a crazy month. So many different things have happened, and I think that I really should write it all down before I forget.

Arthur asked me to do this, so I might as well get it over with. Yes, that whole ten things crap.

1. I'm in love again
2. I'm still a rock n' roller
   
3. I'm obsessed with the 60's
4. I still can't play more then 4 chords
5. I have a Christmas list to put up
6. I've put up the Christmas tree
7. I'm finally on Facebook
8. I want an electric guitar
   
9. I Believe In The Man In The Big Blue Sky (and His absurd sense of humor)
10. I waiting for the Hammer to Fall
    

Right, now that that's over and done with, tag 10 people. Right, how hard could it be?

1. Tessa
2. Jiahui
3. Arthur
4. James
5. Rachel
6. Rachel
7. Rahman
8. Jeremy
   
9. Esther
10. Wei Jie
    

Alright, that's that. You are all free to try and guess the significance of those names.

Now, what else do I need to update people about? Oh yeah, Christmas. Party at my place (the annual one) isn't confirmed yet. I need to have things to do. Sitting around eating and talking seems like an awful waste of a nice big space that I call my house. Perhaps I should get a karaoke set...NAH! But a games platform would really be nice. And if my dad's sound system was working, yeah, that would be great too.

People ask me, what will I do with my pay? Well, some of it I'm saving, some of it is for Christmas, and some of it will be for my guitar. Yes, I'm going to get an electric guitar. Now here's a problem: what happens to my old guitar? Should I keep it, sell it, or give it away? I don't know. You tell me.

Hard Rock Cafe night was really good. Food, friends, music, and a live band. But it could have been better. For some reason, a patron decided to treat us to a godawful 40+ minutes of AVRIL FUCKING LAVIGNE!!! WHAT THE FUCK???!!! That sure as hell ruined the evening. I thought Hard Rock Cafe was about rock music, not all this girl-power skater chick trash. And I also happened to hear Fallout Boy and MCR. What happened to the old Hard Rock Cafe? The one that played classic rock songs? All that seems to have disappeared. No disrespect meant to the DJ, but some of the song choices were extremely poor. Loud, noisy, and not in the least musical. At least the live band made up for that. Classy act, Enigma. Very classy. And finally got my apple crumble. Bliss.

2008's gonna be a strange year. I'll be a year behind everyone, I'll be going back to school, I'll hopefully know where I'm supposed to be, and maybe my life can finally move on. Chapter needs finishing. We'll see how this one ends.

The One Constant In The World

Change. Ya gotta love it. It comes along out of the blue, and smacks straight into you when you're just going on, minding your own business. Bolt out of the bloody blue. Whoop-de-effin-doo. Anyway, here's confirmation of my current status, and my plans.

I have officially dropped out of my course. I am now an intern at a finance company. I plan to resume my studies next year. I have no intention of returning to my old course, or other engineering/science course, for that matter. I still plan to get my driver's license. My endpoint is still the same, just that the route has changed slightly.

I have made a few promises I fully intend to keep. First off, I will pay for the net's popcorn. I am completely serious. Second. I will learn as much as I can on my job, and not succumb to possible boredom. Third. I will pay attention to a friend's advice that sometimes, she might be right in front of me, but I might not see her...once I figure out what the hell that means. Fourth. I will keep going to the gym. Fifth. Start my Christmas list.

To all who are gonna have exams soon, all the best. For those starting school again, just chill... you'll get over it...it's another tequila sunrise, that's all.

Life Is A Highway

I'm less tired than I was at the start of the break. Also, less bored. Several interesting events have unfolded. I'm much better for them. It's been a good few weeks.

I have a few announcements to make. Firstly, I am leaving my course of studies. Whatever was taught sure hasn't stuck. Probably never will. I will be getting a job when term re-opens, and will not be returning to school, except maybe to pinch some movies, books and the like. Or I might do that during the last week of break. Whatever works out, I guess.

Secondly, I am giving up my pursuit of her. I did send her an email asking her out, just for a movie and coffee, but have yet to receive a proper response. Also, since I am leaving my course (and most probably the polytechnic), it don't seem too sensible to keep her thinking I'm trying something. I leave that part of my life to chance, fate and time.

Third. HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAHMAN! Yeah, yeah, I'm weeks late, but still, better late than never, eh? (I really need to stop procrastinating, retyping entire articles and deleting them). Anyway, here's wishing you all the best for promo results. Ride on, my brother-in-arms!

Fourth. I am trying to hammer out a plan for my life, or at least the education part of it. Yes, I'm actually thinking hard during a holiday break. No, I don't mean that I was not thinking when I was talking about your life. Of course I was thinking, and not on autopilot. It's just that I am putting as much serious thought as I can into this. All better now? Good. Thank you. Now sod off, you hypersensitive bitch. No wait! I didn't mean to hurt your feelings, it was meant for the other guy. Yeah, you at the back, the one who didn't get it...oh never mind.

Now, for something a little less serious.

I've been going out a lot more lately. 2 badminton games, 1 basketball game, lunch, a school tour, a gaming spree, and more food and drink. For once, I actually enjoyed myself bags more, rather than the usual sitting in front of a computer, like I'm doing now. So, to the cool cats of region 3/4, who planned and organized all the events, thanks for a job well done. Boredom has been alleviated.

Let's see, am I missing anything....nope, don't think I have. Well, til next time chaps. Oh wait. Yeah. Paul Newman has gone to the great roundup in the sky. This video is posted in his honor. To the Hudson Hornet.

Sod It All

Holidays. Bloody hell. More like boredom, if you ask me. Me dad is still stalling over the job, I have no idea how my exams went (though I hope I failed everything), I don't have much to look forward to, all my games have gone stale, and I've finished watching all the stuff my dad and i bought on our $500 spending spree. Oh yeah, and some updates on that list of mine.

1. Get The Girl. - Big mistake. She seems to be too busy/uninterested in guys at the moment.
2. Get my JJ-ness back. - Well, this one's a little better. Despite being utterly bored, I've at least started reading books again, and I'm trying to understand how my thought processes, beliefs, ideas, philosophies and experiences were formed. In short, I'm beginning to understand me again.
3. Get a job. - Like I said, my dad's stalling. Maybe Gold 90FM has a student DJ position.
4. Get money. - Besides my weekly pittance, not much unless I get a job....
5. Get lots of fun. - Everyone seems to be busy or camping, so no fun as of yet.
6. Get fit. - Faring the best. Knocked off about two kilos so far, should be down to 91 by the end of the hols.
7. Get ready to rock 'n roll. - This one's half and half. I found a nice Epiphone guitar pack (Les Paul Special II no less) for about $600. Problem? I need $600.

Bloody effin' hell, what a lousy rotten holiday this is. And it's now 3am on a Monday morning, with results out tomorrow and a day of badminton to look forward to. A favourite line of mine, hopefully prophetic at this time...Business is about to pick up.

Fluctuations And Other Obscenities

A Chinaman walks into a restaurant and orders some food. After the meal, he looks at the bill and asks why it is so expensive this week when last week he paid 20% less for the same dishes. The waiter replies:" Fluctuations", to which the Chinaman replies, "Fluck you too."

A Jew says to a Chinaman:" Hey you chink, stop squinting!" The Chinaman replies," Hey, it's your fault, Jew, you sold me these cheap glasses!"

This ends my little presentation. Thank you very much, ladies and gentlemen.

Prices are going down, and portions are going up. Oh, wait, that's the other way around. Ah well. Guess it will do me good to eat less than eight meals a day. Yeah, I used to eat breakfast, a mid-morning snack, brunch, lunch, an afternoon nibble, tea, dinner, coffee and finally, supper. Oh, and add in various miscellaneous bites of this and that when I'm feeling peckish. So yeah, I'm just your average ordinary everyday polar bear...err, I meant teenager.

Exams have ended. I might do well. Pigs might fly. Whales might walk. Aliens might exist. I might stop cracking racist and dirty jokes. Yeah, like that's ever gonna happen.

My holidays are until the 12th of October. Yep, read it and weep, buddies. 12th October. Bloody hell, that's a lot of time on my hands. Time to start getting of my arse and getting a good job. As a chef. Yeah, that's an idea. Poison people with too much sugar, milk, cream, salt, eggs, pepper and other ingredients and condiments. Oh, and salad. Wait, what? AAAAAH! Think junk food! JUNK FOOD! CHOCOLATE ICE CREAM WITH VANILLA CREAM CHOC CHIPS COOKIES CHOC SAUCE PEANUT BUTTER STRAWBERRY CREAM ICING APPLE CRUMBLE CHEESECAKE AND A BIG FROTHY MUG OF COFFEE WITH FULL FAT MILK SUGAR SOLUTION CHOC SAUCE TOPPED WITH WHIPPED CREAM SUGAR GLAZING AND A CHERRY ON TOP! Yes, much better now.

Y'know, most if not all the nice girls I know have gone to or are in other countries, are attached, or very uptight about getting attached. Was there never a tale of more woe, than Juliet, and searching desperately for her, Romeo?

But soft! What light through yonder window breaks? It is the east, and Juliet is the sun! Arise, fair sun, and slay the envious moon. It is the east, and Juliet is the sun. - From "Romeo and Juliet, Act 2 Scene 2"

Yeah, and I wrote all that without referring to my copy of R&J. Jolly well done, old boy! Good form and all that. My literature skills might be dormant, but they sure as heck still exist. That's comforting.

Moving on, my plans for the holidays, in no particular order.

1. Get The Girl.
2. Get my JJ-ness back.
3. Get a job.
4. Get money.
5. Get lots of fun.
6. Get fit.
7. Get ready to rock 'n roll.

Here's To Fast Cars, Freedom and Jiahui!

It Ain't Over Til It's Over, And It Ain't Over Yet

Yeah, I know. Title's a real mouthful, ain't it? But hey, it reflects life at the moment. Crisis points have been reached, and they are passing. I am growing stronger and more confident. I like my class much better now. I still want to change course. I wanna rock!

Business is about to pick up. I am reaching the end of the semester. Crunch time. The day of reckoning. Blah blah blah and all that horseshit. I have projects unfinished. I have no classes on Monday. I have much more to say, and not much is related to school.

FFB team has been set. That's right, I ain't a free agent no more. Yessir, I'm a team player now. No more lone wolf, cos I'm running with the pack! I have no idea of the team name, but I'm fully confident of its players. We have the meanest defense this side of Ngee Ann, and I'm their newest addition! Clear The Way!

I finally convinced my dad that I should change course. Now he's all for it, but he ain't as sure that FSV will be a good option. He leans more towards another engineering discipline, due to his belief that engineering builds discipline and trains thought process. I think he's right, but thing is, I don' t want to be an engineer. I want to be something else. This is not my call. It may be a stepping stone, but not a call. I'm sure that there will be further developments, so I must try to keep this blog updated. Moving on!

My school library really needs to wake up. I mean, half the movies I've already seen, and quite a chunk of the music is either boring John Lemon crap, U2 soundalikes, emo piss-shit, and some obscure stuff nobody, not even me, has ever heard of. And a third of their listed available movies are missing or damaged. That really is a shame, y'know? Just when I want to see a good movie, it ain't there. Oh well. Such is life.

National Day's on Friday. Oh, wait, BRYAN says it's on Friday. Not me. Geez, that guy must never read the newspapers, watch TV, check his watch or his phone. Anyway, I'll be going back to my alma mater. Saint Andrew's. Gee, just saying alma mater makes me feel like some old man. Hmm, I shall go back and piss all the sec ones off by telling them how in my day we actually used ink on paper.........actually had to write notes, actually had to queue up in the canteen.......okay, enough with all that old fart nonsense. Little hand says it's time to rock 'n roll.

I Think It's Gonna Be A Long Long Time

This is one heck of a song. And these days, though I am feeling more at home in the poly, I am still lonely. I miss my bros. I really do. Yeah, I'm hanging with a new crowd, but most of them can't hold a candle to the old gang.

I'm beginning to find silver linings behind clouds these days, even though I sound rather depressed. Truth be told, I'm just tired. But I trust that strength will come from somewhere.

I've been nosing around in the library, and discovered some interesting stuff. Soundtracks, rock albums, old movies and rare books. I really love just browsing through and enjoying them in what little free time I have. And I really want to change course. Easy option accusations be damned. I just want for once, to do something I want to do. But first, I must finish my fight. Tie up loose ends, and leave no doubt.

It's a good thing many Flag Football (which henceforth will be referred to as FFB,) people are in ECE division. It helps to have some experienced operators around to help the rookie. And they are really nice people. They are probably the ones who most remind me of the old crowd, a bunch of crazy, fun, hyperactive and friendly guys, obsessed with playing and girls, but also serious about studies...to a certain extent(grin at the broken SS rule).

And ever since I saw her, I can't stop thinking about her. How is she? Is she happy? Is she stressed? Will she turn up next time KTH has an outing? When will I next see her again? Will she give me a chance? So many questions, and I might never get any answers. But I say again, better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all.

Through The Barrier

Time flows on. I am tired. I am battered. I am bruised. I am weary. I am one with my pain. I am one with my hurt. I am at peace. I am free.

It's been a hard day's work. Woke up late, again(aaaagh, must kick the habit), and got to school, late. Had to put up with remarks from my class. Y'know, I hate most of them. Faggots. They think they are all so goddamn clever, eh? Most of 'em are assholes. I won't waste any more space on them. But to the few who make my classroom life a little more enjoyable, I thank you. Bless your hearts for the kindness you've shown. Thank you.

I'm aching, bruised and battered all over. Flag football was one heck of a battle today. The Atlas Knights played The Black Knights. We lost. 4-1. Respectable, but we could have done better. I went down three times. Once, to a clothesline from Nadia(though she didn't really mean it), once to dive tackle Hashim, and once because something in my back gave way. That last one hurt the most. For a few minutes, I was unable to even stand properly, but had to play through the pain and finish the match. Limped off, and tried to fix it myself. Failed miserably, but still managed to get to a nearby pillar, to lean on and take some strain off.

The funny thing is, when I was slumped against that pillar, I was hoping for something to take my mind off the annoying, and very persistent ache in my back. I sure as heck got it. And what a boost it was.

She walked by. She Walked By. SHE WALKED BY! And all I could say was f*cking "Hi!" Dammit, I couldn't even stand properly, let alone walk up to her and ask her out. WHY! Why is it that Lady Luck and her daughter Ms Fortune absolutely must walk hand in effin' hand? Jesus, Mary and Joseph in Tinseltown! Oh, Mary Magdalene! All the Saints and Martyrs and Jesus! Did I happen to mention Jesus? (Spot the movie reference.)

But despite all my bemoaning of Lady Luck's daughter, I still feel really light-headed. I don't know. It's like the minute I saw her I forgot what the hell was wrong with my back. Every nerve in my back was screaming "Sit down, you fool!", but I couldn't give a rat's ass. I swear, even my brain seemed to shut down for a while, and I lost most powers of speech.

I have not seen her in a long time. But her face seems somehow etched in my memory. Like a program you can never delete, and don't want to. Somebody told me at the start of poly, if you don't forget her after three months of not seeing her, it's probably not just a crush. But never rush these things. Be a friend first, boyfriend can wait. Wise words, and I'll follow them. But perhaps I'll allow myself the little indulgence of saying... I Love You.

Omnia Mutantur, Nihil Interit.

Omnia Mutantur, Nihil Interit. Much has happened, much more has changed. And yet nothing is lost. Once again, it's been a long while since I've updated, and I am weary. For someone like me to be bereft of inspiration to write is, well, absurd. And yet, it happened.

After the common tests, I found myself drained. So drained that I simply went blank. Everything somehow ceased to have meaning, and fun lacked any feeling. But I guess it might have been expected. I actually bothered to study my brains out for MATHS and PHYSICS, which ain't exactly my strong points, so perhaps burnout, while not an iota of fun, was worth the trouble. It means I actually put some effort in. God, I hope it pays off.

The holidays have been fun, and given me a much needed respite and recharge. I guess I'm about ready for school, except there are one or two things still left undone. Damned EECAD. Yet another reason for me wanting to change course. Alright, enough moping, time to gear up for the last days of fun!

Oh yeah, I must recap what I've done the past few days. Apart from the usual eating, sleeping, watching TV and playing computer games, I've watched Kung Fu Panda, bought some new CDs, opened a bank account, eaten a high-class lunch at The Padang, and generally run amok. Oh yeah, one or two outings for movies, food, coffee and bowling. I got three days left. Hey waiter! More fun!

Oh yeah, I still like her. Her birthday was during April, and I somehow forgot to get her something (short notice and all). Well, here's a few videos, some for her, and some for my personal inspiration.











Omnia Mutantur, Nihil Interit. Everything Changes, Nothing Is Truly Lost.
Wish You Were Here, But You're In My Heart.

A Confession To Make

I have a small confession to make. Okay, maybe not so small. Alright! A very big one, to me at least. I like someone. I like her very much. I really really like her. I.....hmm, too early to say that. Give it another month or three before I can say that. Bad luck to say that too early. Wait, sod that last comment. You make your own luck. But I gotta keep a hold on myself. Don't rush things. Don't act stupidly. Just hold on for dear life. And shut my trap. Yeah, that'll work(I hope). Here's looking at you, kid.

Oh, a little musing for all my friends as well. For Rahman and Wei Jie, a dream is always alive, as long as there are one or two fools left to dream. For Dino and Kay, JUSTINA!

I've been reassessing my life, and trying to put everything in perspective. I realised that I joined AE for all the wrong reasons, and that I was being foolish in trying to make a weakness and strength. I pray that the Man residing in Heaven sees fit to give me a chance to change course and redeem my foolishness. God help me. Amen.

A talk with my advisory lecturer has gotten things looking up. I told her my whole problem, and she said I seemed to have pretty good reason for a transfer. Add that to my CCA records, and I get very good credentials to make my case.

And according to another friend of mine, people have transferred for lesser reasons. It seems that business is about to pick up. Now, time for some serious work, and a little strategy. Fundamentals of Aerospace Tech is open book, so I will print all the relevant lecture notes and bring my textbook. Haha! A Cunning Plan! More cunning than a fox wot 'as been appointed prof of cunning at Camford University! More on studies to follow, soon.

Now, net on Friday equals potluck equals stuff myself and comment on how everybody else does light dishes. What happened to the pot in potluck, people? Sometimes, you guys really amaze me...

Here's some other less depressing stuff. Flag Football league is starting up soon, a chance for me to tear up the fields, thundering towards the foes! Wonder who should I join...Faugh A Ballagh! Garryowen And Glory!

49th. The 7th 7. What An Achievement! Here's a little spark for the upcoming summer!

A Warm May Holiday

What a day! I'm tanked up on coffee and food, blogging while listening to my music, and ready to rush my e-learning tomorrow, so I can sit in front of the computer, finish my projects, and kick back. I've had much fun, so it will soon be time for the work to begin. Strangely, I can't wait!

Day started off well. A great Monday, what with it being a holiday and all. Woke up on time, and met up with Rahman, Jeremy and Weijie at Bryan's house. Abel came along later. We had some fun mucking around with guitars, a pool table, and cards. Not too much interesting stuff happened, but all of it was fun nonetheless.

The original plan was to muck around at Bryan's, then head off by ourselves, but plans change. We ended up at more or less the same area(Suntec and Marina), so I guess that counts as a slight deviation. We had lunch, and slacked around talking in a Coffee Bean for an hour or so, catching up. I hope we will have more days like this, which are both serious and fun at the same time, where we laugh, and learn even more about each other. My hope is that this whole group will stick together for a long time to come, and never forget one another.

We ended up in Carl's Jr later having drinks and fries. Went home with Jeremy after that. We had a very interesting conversation on the train, about the possibility of forming a band. A very strange one, with a stranger name and a weird musical sense. I bet the critics would love it. The kind of crap on the market these days, i don't think they would mind a "revolutionary, groundbreaking, experimental and eclectic sound". That is to say, the myriad musical influences thrown into a pot and served beasting...err, I meant bursting. No wait, I meant served up with sass, panache and style. Ahh, what the hell am I spewing? A band named "A F*cking Waste Of Time", with a debut album titled "A Steaming Pile of Crap" and a greatest hits collection called "Unbelievable Bullshit Vols 1, 2 and 3" is one heck of a dream, but not half-likely to happen. Too shocking and daring. *Sighs* Well, I guess I'd better stick to less controversial stuff.

Alright, enough of that. I will write more tomorrow, so for now, Adieu, Au Revoir and Goodnight!

Traveller In A Long-Forgotten Dream

I sometimes drift away into my own recollections. You could say my past is an interesting one. Maybe for some it is very boring. I don't know. To me, it's what I was, and what I am. What I will be is to be seen.

Maybe the key to what lies ahead might still lie buried in bits and pieces of dreams, shattered and rebuilt. Maybe it was one of those broken bits that refused to stick together in a new dream, and ended up discarded to my memories. Life has gone on, and yet it might still remain.

Life has reached a time of decisions and dilemmas. So much is required of me, yet I am unsure of how much I actually have to give. Is my candle burning out? Am I running on empty? Is my heart growing cold? So many questions, no answers. And so little time to find them. Why me? Why now?

Has the world forsaken me? Have you forsaken me? Am I really all alone? Perhaps I am. And the thought frightens me.

Facing Future...Thinking Ahead

It's been a bumpy journey so far. Both good times and bad times have come along, and I guess I've held my own thus far. But how much longer can I weather my storms? Perhaps it's all about willpower. My lack of it, more like. It seems I'm living on a prayer right now. Whatever the case is, I've found an escape route.

The School Of Film and Media Studies! Or, the School of Business and Accountancy! I've learned I can transfer courses after the semester, depending on results and other factors, including my ability to write a convincing letter of appeal. Anyway, it means that I have to grit my teeth and stick hard and fast 'til August swings by, then perhaps a sweet chariot will come forth to carry me...somewhere other than engineering.

I just realised that I don't have any photos of myself. Hmm, that may be a problem. I need to remember what I look like if I somehow forget what I look like...yeaaaaah, like that's really gonna happen. Ah well, a random thought a day keeps squirrels away!

Today was a very nice day, except for some minor things. I tried paying attention in class, and ended up daydreaming about a world with no color. Show you how vivid my imagination can be, no? Enough about the boring bits, now for a little more fun.

As most people should know, I have joined flag football. It's something like half-contact American Football, I guess that's the best description I can give. Training so far has been tiring, exciting, and rather bruising as well. I went for my first training on Friday, and managed to sprain someone's ankle. And today, I flattened a girl, and kicked another guy. The worst parts? The girl was on my team, and the guy was just trying to get out of my way. Damn, I feel guilty. Well, I did buy the girl a drink to try and make up for flattening her, so I hope there are no hard feelings there! Oh, and to the idiot(s) who smashed me in the groin two or three times, I can't do anything, I guess, but hope that the fleas of a thousand unwashed camels infect your lederhosen. Limped home, realised there was a party on, stuffed my face, ignored all guests, and ended up here, typing at my computer desk.

Oh, I will not be attending the FRESH! Dance Party. For one, my dancing still sucks, and another, I gave my ticket to Carina and Kenny. The pair of lovebirds looked like they needed it more than me! (Just don't tell 'em I said that, betcha they'd effin' murder me!)

Oh, and if I ever get a band, I want to name it Johnny Quicksilver and The Kings. Why? One Word: Queen.

So ends yet another post by me. I should think of a nickname for meself, and start using it to annoy people, along with a motto and/or a catchphrase. Ooh, I Know! Faugh A Ballagh! Anyways, that's all folks, I shall go back to talking about girls in my life some other time. Oh, and i will redo the girls' songs. They seem too few, non? Ah well, C'est La Vie, C'est L'amour!

A Sunny Afternoon, But Storm Clouds Gather

It's been an excellent day. Food, fun, friends and freedom, all important, all appeared. Was expecting a better turnout for the guys, but I guess we can never all move in sync. Still, good to see familiar faces, and comforting to know we haven't forgotten each other, or become totally different people. The girls who came along were a pleasant surprise, as I didn't think girls were interested in stuffing themselves. Still, they held their own, and I guess we must've done quite a bit of damage to the restaurant stocks. Job well done, guys.

After lunch, we somehow decided to see Iron Man, but it seemed that all theaters were fully booked, or only had lousy seats available. Well, I could've warned you guys that public holidays are lousy for watching movies, but it wouldn't have made any difference. I think it's better to see movies when they are a week or two, maybe even three weeks into their run. Wait for the fuss to die down, then enjoy it in a near-empty, spacious and comfortable theater.

Instead of watching Iron Man, we went to the Coffee Bean opposite SMU to slack and down some drinks. I had yet another one of my sugar/caffeine bombs, much to the disbelief of my friends, who may have thought I was past that sort of thing. NEWSFLASH! I'm still me, yeah?

After a nice time slacking, Rahman and I went to the King Albert Park McDonald's to meet some of his friends. They are quite nice people, and I'm glad he's found friends who have a sense of humor, however weird and wicked it may be. But something more important happened on the
journey to K-A-P.

I had a long conversation with Rahman, which made me realize something I was trying to run away from, and something I dreaded to realize.

I don't like my course one bit, and I am slogging my brains out for nothing. Nothing is sticking, and all the numbers just don't add up. Even four hours of work this morning still didn't help me one jot. Perhaps I really DO need to change course. I must hope and pray for divine intervention. I am losing whatever slim hopes I had of doing well for my common tests. I also learned that I just need a private pilot's license or a student pilot's license to be a commercial pilot, so my main reason for entering this course just evaporated before my eyes. God, I'm discouraged. Please, if there's anyone out there who can help me, I beg you, help me before it's too late. I need to change course to something that's my forte, my strong point. I made the terrible mistake of trying to play to my weaknesses, not my strengths. God, I hope this doesn't turn into another one of those horrible mistakes that my life seems to be a catalogue of.

Forging Ahead...Building Foundations

It's quiet now. Everyone's in bed, all save me. I have a little time to contemplate and reflect, on past, present and future.

Poly life is going swellingly, apart from some minor(or major) setbacks. I found out that I have to struggle through and entire semester of nonsense, before I get to the relevant stuff, stuff that I'm interested in. I wanted to change course, but that thought is unrealistic. Shit, I hate my course(for now). Physics and Maths everywhere, and my course lecturers are not that interesting at all. Okay, fine, they're downright boring. A snooze-fest. Human Valium. 'Nuff said. More updates on how emo about school I've become: Coming soon.

I don't think I will seriously join any CCA in my first year. What I've seen so far of the sports CCAs is hardly impressive. Football was a disaster. The coach is a dickhead. Now, I don't want to insult the Malays, but they are too cliquish. They pass to each other and hog the ball, so no-one else seems to be playing. Also, I'm a goalkeeper, but there are several others ahead of me in the pecking order. I'm the guy who just happens to keep goal. The rest are serious players(school team, club or even national). So, football? No thanks. Rugby? Same old same old. Big forwards, small backs(mostly). Just get a team with big backs, and we'll get steamrolled. So, no thanks as well. DJ auditions went well, but I can't swear on air, or talk nonsense, and I gotta play mainstream music... riiiight, like that's gonna be easy. I might join flag football, or some other sport. And I want to apply for the youth flying club. A pilot's license might come in handy, no?

Now, for a little more cheer and laughter. A Sakae raid is planned for this Thursday, and sms alerts are going out tomorrow. They made the mistake of having a public holiday lunchtime buffet, we take them to school for it. 1130am to 430pm. Showtime!

This Friday was supposed to be Dinner & Dance Night. But both my date and I are unable to attend, so that scuppers things. Yes, I asked someone to be my date. Now, for all those nosy parkers who would dearly love to go after me about my date, I will be factual, so you guys won't bug me too much.

Her name is J♥♥♥♥♥. She was in my FOC group. She is super-enthusiastic, and hyper-charged to boot. Much more supercharged than me on my McDonald's coffee and sugar rush. She is my new definition of beautiful. Yes, I really like her. I think I just might do anything for her. But I guess I will never know too much about her unless she lets me in. That was another reason I wanted to change course. She's in the School of Business and Accountancy. I wanted to switch to Accountancy. Go figure. Well, maybe this time I actually have a chance. Too many missed opportunities, too many wasted moments. Action, not talk. Eye of the Tiger, ain't no stopping halfway. Is my happy end somewhere in this new fairytale I'm weaving? Only time will tell.

26 April. A Brand New Day. My Wish...

Me And My Gang...The Guys List!

Been really some time since I blogged, so I now present the guys' list, 100 Songs that I feel best represent my buddies through thick or thin, come hell or high water. For any additional song requests, feel free to drop me a line. Rock On, Brothers! Never Forget!

1. Queen - We Will Rock You
2. Queen - We Are The Champions
3. Bon Jovi - Have A Nice Day
4. The Beatles - Hey Jude
   
5. The Beatles - With A Little Help From My Friends
6. The Beatles - Revolution
   
7. Bon Jovi - Blaze Of Glory
8. Bon Jovi - It's My Life
9. Bon Jovi - Bells Of Freedom
   
10. Bob Seger - Like A Rock
    
11. Brian May - Driven By You
12. Bruce Springsteen - Murder Incorporated
13. Bruce Springsteen - Glory Days
14. Bruce Springsteen - Born To Run
15. CCR - Have You Ever Seen The Rain
    
16. The Corrs - Rebel Heart
17. David Church - Gonna Punch Someone Tonight
18. dc Talk - Colored People
19. Duran Duran - Wild Boys
20. Elton John - The Circle Of Life
21. Elton John - Saturday Night's Alright (For Fighting)
22. Elvis Presley - Slicin' Sand'
23. Elvis Presley - Viva Las Vegas
24. Elvis Presley - Jailhouse Rock
25. Eric Clapton - Knockin' On Heaven's Door
26. Eric Clapton - I've Got A Rock 'N Roll Heart
27. Frank Sinatra - My Way
28. Frank Sinatra - Moon River
29. Frank Sinatra - Mack The Knife
30. Good Charlotte - We Believe
31. Good Charlotte - The Anthem
32. Green Day - Boulevard Of Broken Dreams
33. Green Day - Good Riddance(Time Of Your Life)
34. Guns N Roses - Paradise City
35. Guns N Roses - Welcome To The Jungle
36. Harold Faltemeyer & Steve Stevens - Top Gun Anthem
37. Harold Faltemeyer - Axel F
38. The Highwaymen - Highwayman
39. The Highwaymen - American Remains
40. The Highwaymen - Silver Stallion
41. The Highwaymen - Mamas Don't Let Your Babies Grow Up To Be Cowboys
42. Il Divo - Time Of Our Lives
43. James Brown - Get Up (I Feel Like Being A Sex Machine)
44. James Taylor - You've Got A Friend
45. Jerry Lee Lewis - Great Balls Of Fire
46. Jesse McCartney - Second Star To The Right
47. Jesse McCartney - Good Life
48. John Denver - It's About Time
49. John Denver - Rocky Mountain High
50. John Denver - Calypso
    
51. John Denver - Country Roads
52. John Mayer - Waiting On The World To Change
53. John Rzeznik - I'm Still Here
    
54. John Travolta & The T-Birds - Grease Lightning
55. Johnny Cash - The General Lee
56. Jonas Brothers - Yo Ho( A Pirate's Life For Me)
57. Josh Groban - Vincent (Starry Starry Night)
58. Jump 5 - Aloha E Komo Mai
59. Jump 5 - Hawaiian Rollercoaster Ride
    
60. Kenny Rogers - The Last Ten Years (Superman)
61. Kenny Rogers - The Gambler
62. Linkin Park - Breaking The Habit
63. Linkin Park - Shadow Of The Day
64. Linkin Park - What I've Done
65. Lynyrd Skynyrd - Sweet Home Alabama
66. Lynyrd Skynyrd - Simple Man
67. Lynyrd Skynyrd - Saturday Night Special
68. McFly - Room On The Third Floor
    
69. Michael Bolton - Lean On Me
70. Michael Buble - What A Wonderful World
71. Monty Python - Always Look On The Bright Side Of Life
72. Monty Python - The Spam Song
73. Nelly - Here Comes The Boom
74. The Newsboys - In Christ Alone
75. Nickelback - Rockstar
    
76. Paul McCartney & Wings - Pipes Of Peace
77. Phil Collins - Welcome
78. Phil Collins - Great Spirits
79. Phil Collins - Son Of Man
80. The Police - Message In A Bottle
81. Queen - Bohemian Rhapsody
82. Queen - Seven Seas Of Rye
83. Queen - Hammer To Fall
84. Queen - A Kind Of Magic
85. Queen - Friends Will Be Friends
86. Queen - Princes Of The Universe
87. Queen - The Show Must Go On
    
88. Rascal Flatts - When The Sand Runs Out
89. Rascal Flatts - Me And My Gang
90. Rascal Flatts - Stand
91. Rascal Flatts - Mayberry
    
92. Rod Stewart - Never Give Up On A Dream
93. Simon & Garfunkel - The Boxer
94. Simon & Garfunkel - Old Friends
95. Smash Mouth - Everyday Superhero
96. Spiderbait - Ghost Riders In The Sky
    
97. Stevie Wonder - Stay Gold
98. Sting - My Funny Friend And Me
99. Survivor - Eye Of The Tiger
100. Waylon Jennings - Good Ol' Boys

Sweet Sensations...For All Seasons

Here, at long last, is the list of Girls who have helped me along life's journey so far, as guides, mentors and friends, and some songs for each.

Alphabetical order, generic initials only, to avoid any "interesting" comments.

A. - Maroon 5: Makes Me Wonder, Josh Groban: She's Out Of My Life

D. & E. - The Saddle Club: Friends Forever, Randy Newman: You've Got A Friend In Me

E. - Josh Groban: Remember Me, Westlife: Colour My World

E. - Queen: You're My Best Friend, Josh Groban: In Her Eyes, You Raise Me Up, Rascal Flatts: My Wish

F. - Rascal Flatts: Here's To You, U2: I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For

F. - Baha Men: Best Years Of Our Lives, Rascal Flatts: Stand

F. & F. - Justin Timberlake: Lovestoned/I Think She Knows, Rascal Flatts: Cool Thing

J. - Mcfly: You've Got A Friend, Rascal Flatts: Fast Cars And Freedom

J.H. - Josh Groban: So She Dances, Rascal Flatts: Bless The Broken Road, Phil Collins: Find A Way To My Heart, MLTR: Take Me To Your Heart

M. - Johnny Cash: I Walk The Line, Bruce Springsteen: Dancing In The Dark

N. - Rascal Flatts: Help Me Remember, Blue: I-O-I-O, Johnny Cash: Ring Of Fire

T. - Queen: These Are The Days Of Our Lives, Westlife: Obvious

S. - Rascal Flatts: What Hurts The Most, Shine On, From Time To Time, Everclear: Brown Eyed Girl

W.W. - Josh Groban: My Confession, Phil Collins: This Must Be Love
, Nickelback: Far Away

*Note: More Will Follow

A Brief Discussion, And Some Other Things

Ah, a day without going out of the house. Sedentary living. Peace and quiet, just my computer and me, a few games, and a bottle of water. I've been playing all my games for possibly the last time in a long time, and I've uninstalled most of them. I guess my fun is over, and it's time to get back to the ol' daily grind. Tomorrow I have to purchase the rest of my notes, and also get the compilation CD by The Corrs. What else? Oh yes, remember to update all my laptop software, and finish the virus and spyware scans.

I might be in over my head. I took a long and hard look at my "notes", and came to the conclusion that there sure as hell is a ton of maths in my course. Okay, I might've pathetically underestimated the sheer load of maths coming down. still, no cause for panic. I'm going to stick it out during the first month, and see how things go. If I can't make a good average, or keep up with the course, I'll change course. Where to and what for, you might ask. Well, if I change, I'll change because I can't stand having to go through another 3 years of hell, suffering because I didn't get out in time. Where? I don't know...maybe some course with less maths, or at least maths I can understand. It's all ifs, so I'm still going to do my best. I guess Yoda was right, do or do not, there is no try.


On a much brighter note, I was trying to match songs to the Girls I know, and here's what I came up with.

Nothing, actually. The inevitable drama about my feelings for each one will have to wait til tomorrow. So sorry to disappoint anyone expecting any juicy scandals and the like, but nothing to see here folks, move along! *Sneaky Snicker*

The Journey So Far

It's a few months into my poly journey, and a few days before school officially starts. I would like to take a moment to pause, and reflect on the journey so far, and what lies ahead.

My first impression of Ngee Ann Poly was: Wow, nice place. My impression has not changed. It is a very nice place, and is full of very nice people. The girls are good-looking, eh? *grin* Anyways, I have met a very interesting group of people, who know how to have fun. That's very important, now I guess we will find out if we all know how to study. I just realised that my course is full of maths. Shit, no frickin' way! Not again! Okay, relax, take deep breaths, think. I know! If I really try to suck at my course in the first month, maybe I can request a change of course! Hmm, but that would deviate from my plans as well... Another dilemma to resolve. Moving on!

I have found friends. Not just casual friends, the kind you say hi to and share stationery and notes with, rather, friends who I will go out for outings with, share my problems and dreams with, friends who I will be willing to drop everything and help, in short, brothers and sisters. To my friends from secondary school, never fear, you guys have already attained this status, and I will never forget you all. Let's try and meet up sometime as a group, yeah? Oh, and next long weekend at Bryan's house. Activities to be confirmed.

Girls Girls Girls! I've seen several I really like. Can't decide. Too...hot...can't breathe...*faints*
Okay, enough of that. But really, I've seen several I seriously might ask out. I don't know. We'll see soon enough. Names? Well, after the last debacle I'm keeping my cards hidden. To quote a song, oh what a feeling!

Season In The Sun, Part 2

Okay, so today didn't really feature the sun too much, but I still had a blast! Woke up early to check on my shoes, and also eat breakfast. My leather shoes have completely fried off after I oiled them, so after a good brushing they should be ready for use. By the way, I used mink oil, so any animal activists out there, sue me!

Tau Huay outing today. We went to East Coast! Once again, I haven't been there in ages. About 20 of us present. I'm wondering, WHERE THE HELL WERE THE REST? Alright, so some of them (the Hua Yi emos) were certainly not missed, other, more important members were missing. Jiahui, for one. She would have given our enthusiasm one heck of a boost. Had a great time cycling. Again, I haven't gotten on a bike in ages. Ah, all my memories are coming back to me. Those halcyon days are gone, but I think the best is on the way. We had to pay $6 for renting bikes, but it was well worth it, I guess.

Riding the bike proved to be a breeze. even though I haven't touched one in four years, everything just came flooding back to me. Samuel and I started off slowly, but we ended up leading the group forward most of the way. Rode from the bike shop to Changi, then we turned back. The journey back gave both Sam and I more "permanent" souvenirs. We crashed into each other near then end, when his bike gears locked and pitched him off the bike. He hit my bike and I flew off, trying to land on the grass rather than the road. Sadly, it was not to be. We both ended up with cuts and scratches, and in my case, I left a nice piece from my elbow and knee on the road. William was laughing. (William , we'll get to you tomorrow.) We limped back to the start point to return our bikes, and left along with another girl, Sharini, who had also sustained injuries. She went home, Sam and I went to Sakae Sushi and raided the place. 40+ plates between the two of us. Not a bad effort.

Went home exhausted and still bleeding. I got a lot of stares on the bus, and one or two people offering me some tissues to staunch the blood. Like a battleship damaged but not defeated, I limped home to rest and rearm, which leaves me where I am now, in front of the computer.

That's all folks! 'Til tomorrow!

Season In The Sun

I'm radiating heat right now. Full on burning. Sunburn. Ouch.

Went to Sentosa today. First recreational trip in 10 years. Long, isn't it? Anyway, it's story time again! Please not that some of it may be rather exaggerated stuff.

Breakfast. A Whole Whale. A Pint Of Milk. A Pot Of Honey. None of the above. Heh heh, fooled some people, eh? A nondescript breakfast, went down to Compass point to meet Sally and Travis. Ended up going with just Travis to meet the rest of Kappa Tau at Harbourfront MRT. Quite a disappointing turnout, nine people from K1, seven girls and two guys altogether, and Sally was late. I miss William and Samuel's nonsense...Alas, wherefore art thou my pals? Still, it could have been worse. K4 had one GL and one freshman. Travis still wanted breakfast, so K1 followed him to Mc's for a second helping of breakfast.I had my usual $2 sugar rush. Tea and some coffee with many packets of sugar and creamer...I leave it to your imagination to guess. Paid 3 bucks for a monorail to Sentosa.

The place has changed since I was last there. Doesn't feel like a cheap resort anymore, more like a nice and decent place to holiday. The beach seems cleaner. Air smells fresher. Even the water seems clearer. We spent most of the time at the beach, playing games and splashing around in the water. Everybody got wet. I decided to voluntarily throw myself in the water, to avoid getting unceremoniously chucked in. A word of caution to all going to Sentosa... get your own drinks. The stuff there is ridiculously overpriced. Trust me on that one.

After a day of sun, Kappa Tau headed back to VivoCity for some food. Had to go after that, my dad wanted me back for dinner. Video post, one last memory.

Freshmen And Freedom. And Fun, Too!

I'm tired. Exhausted. Dead beat. My batteries need a heck load of recharging. I just got back from the most exciting, enlightening, entertaining and exhilarating camp I've ever attended. Oh, did I mention it was tons of fun too? To imagine I almost skipped it, and almost packed up and left in the third hour, scares me. I could have missed out on all the fun!(The really good-looking girls were a very very very welcome bonus too!) FOC 08 ROCKED SOLID YO! KAPPA TAU r0x0rz!!!111!!! TAU HUAY FOREVER!

Please pardon my sudden and inexplicable burst of cheering. I am merely expressing the satisfaction I got out of attending the camp. Allow me, if you will, to make a long post and detail the events that occurred those past few days and nights.

FIRST DAY
The first day was exactly how most first days in camp are. Long, tiring, boring and somewhat depressing. When I first walked into camp, I didn't exactly have the best impression of it. It looked overcrowded for one, and despite enthusiastic camp leaders running around doing their best to stir us up, we simply weren't stirred. A very nice performance from the school percussion band, but otherwise, the introduction was one hell of a bore. I actually fell asleep five or six times! But that did not beat what I felt when we saw our sleeping areas. A sports hall??? What kind of moronic twit squeezes seven-f***ing-hundred people (teenagers, to boot) into one sports hall? Oh wait, we call that assembly in SA. After that, some attempts at group bonding. I was put in K1, Tau Huay group of Kappa Tau. When I got a look at everyone else, they looked as dead or bored as yours truly. I though: Geez, if camp's gonna be with them, it's gonna be shit. But the girls look cute... Enough of that. Uneventful except for some creepy stories from the GLs and DHs 'til after dinner.

Watched Juno, but didn't finish, as we got dragged out for the night walk. Great time to do that to me. For some reason, I was really pissed when they split us up, so much so that I wanted to give the first dressed up person one heck of a punch. One of those damned horror movie masks, fake knife and no blood. Oh gosh, how scary. A few other somewhat novel scare tactics, but my partner and I somehow kept bumping into the group before us just after they got spooked. I have absolutely no idea how such a thing happened. Honestly! Still, it got better at the end, and I felt like there was much better stuff coming soon. Finished at 2am or so, and slept at around 3. Exhausted, but somewhat excited.

SECOND DAY

Here comes all the good stuff. Games Day! Cheers Day! Marbles Day! When I woke up, I got this feeling that everyone was starting to get together, and team spirit was slowly flowing into our tired bodies. We followed Melissa Travis and Azhar to our first station games, after learning some cheers. Our first game involved soap, detergent, water and a slide. 'Nuff said.

Other games involved butter, toothpaste, water, clothing, body contact, strategy and other interesting stuff. I will describe the toothpaste game, as it was bloomin' memorable for me. We were supposed to play pass the toothpaste, body part contact, for example nose to ear, tongue to toe, ass to hair, etc. I ended up as the second last player, and was sandwiched between two girls. The girl in front of me drew "mouth", then I drew "mouth". You can imagine how that felt. I was thinking: Wait... mouth to mouth, ain't that like a kiss? Oh shi... Woah, slow down. That girl's a stunner! Lucky me! Woohoo! Now what did Melissa get? She got "cheek". So I get to touch a cute girl's lips and another girl's cheek? Not a bad activity! Then I saw the game-master's hand. The top three cards were all "mouth"! Was he trying to be funny? I don't know. What I do know is that I got a very soft pair of lips touching mine for a microsecond and me getting to give Melissa a peck on the cheek. Very cool. I don't know what will happen if I see the girl again. I might just act on an impulse. She really is a stunner.

At the end of day two, we were all exhausted, dirty, smelly and very happy. I lost my voice after cheering at the top of said voice, but still polished off seven curry puffs and three swiss rolls for supper. What a day!

THIRD DAY
Campfire Night! Dancing in the dark! Not as tiring as the previous day, but sure as fun. We woke up, did the usual wash and eat, then we practiced some dancing and cheers. Next activity was a water game, waterbombs flying everywhere, everyone getting soaking wet, fun fun fun! However, K1 did not get to be the "bombers", as the game was called off due to too many cases of foul play. Sad, no?

Moving on, we went back to shower, after which we ate and went for our campfire. Principal is cool! Principal is cool! A few clips from various camp leaders, and some promos from the adventure (attention) seekers, as well as the principal's speech, some GL and freshies performances. Kappa seemed to have formed a cheering alliance with Zeta, as we were seated on the same side of the hall. More cheering, then supper!

As we filed back in from supper, we were handed lightsticks and told to find our dance partners, then the lights dimmed. The sounds of Flo Rida belting out "Low" kicked off the mass dance with one helluva bang, and after we finished our choreographed routine, we were free to dance anyhow we wanted. Some of us kept forming gigantic conga lines, but that got boring after a while, so we did the usual break into circles and show off your moves. I managed to dance as well, no small feat given how far away the music played was from my own styles of music. Heck, I had a good time! (Though I did tear the skin off my left leg. Hell, I've seen worse.) We finished our mass dancing, and headed back to our sleeping area for doughnuts. I was given my own box of twelve, but everyone in my group kept nicking them. I only had six! Geez guys, ask before you steal! I was friggin' hungry, y'know!

THIRD NIGHT, FOURTH DAY
We got little to no sleep on the last night. It was prank night. Everyone who was not a freshie running around with spray cans, toothpaste, markers, doughnuts, shavers, and all other manner of joke implements. Some of us went over to the girls' side of the hall and stayed there. No, there were no "interesting activities", but we still had a nice time. I managed to cop a few winks, so my thanks to all the girls who acted as my "guardian angels". Aww, ain't that cute? Err, never mind. Moving on!

The last day. Sad, proud, homesick, tired, happy...etc. We watched one or two clips of our time in FOC, and got free bottles of tea. Photos were taken, promises were made to stay in touch, tears were shed, cheers were chanted, you get the picture, eh? The most eye-opening school experience I've ever had. Some of the prettiest ladies I have ever seen. Some of the best days of my life. I thank one and all who were a part of my experience, and I will see you guys around.

Yes, I know that this is longer than an Oscar acceptance speech, but I am more or less done. KAPPA TAU ETA!

Ticket Stub, Bowling Ball or Chopsticks?

It's been a very interesting past few days. My package has been delivered to the leading lady. It's the last time I shall go there, unless she wants me to stay. But now, I will start to drift away. Whatever happens in the future is now in her hands, not mine. I will walk my own line.

I have two days of freedom left, before I have to attend the Freshman Camp. Excited, yes, but also somewhat bored. I've seen too many camps, I guess. I hope something original is in store. Oh, a note to anyone who wants to try ragging. There are several boys from 4S1 coming to camp, so they'd better think twice before they try anything with anyone of us. We were asked to bring an old t-shirt, but all my t-shirts are old and "well-ventilated". Yet another problem to take care of.

Also, I need a haircut. I'm considering a crewcut with a pomp fringe(greaser style, baby!) or a marine H&T. For those not familiar, it's short for high and tight. The Rangers and Marines use it a lot. Or, I could very well go extreme and use the recon H&T, which is skin as well. Cool, eh? For more info, check these websites

What else will I do in two days? Well, I need some new picks for my guitar, as one has gotten lost and the other doesn't feel right. Also, I feel like watching a movie, going bowling, or stuffing my face. And I sure ain't gonna do it alone. Depending on who's free, I shall go out tomorrow, the day after or even both days. Hip Hurray for a carefree life!

Oh, and here's the next video from Celtic Thunder. I will also buy their album if I can find it.

P's, Q's and Celtic Thunder

I've been up and about the whole day, (yes, a remarkable change from what I usually do, I know). Went down to Ngee Ann poly, got my bloody fees paid, and got my first laptop. Specs aren't too bad, except for the BLOODY WINDOWS VISTA BUSINESS! Freakin' stupid thing. AND to top it off, I finally have space to stuff my games and the effin' compatibility issues start flooding me. Oh well... still, I installed BFME2, Rugby 06, FIFA 07 and The Sims 2 without a hitch... now for GTA3 and MOHPA, then we'll see what we can do about the stupid lag in-game. Or, my backup is to uninstall Vista and install Windows XP. Brilliant, eh?

Oh, and while youtubing I came across a video by Damian McGinty. Remember him? The cute little boy singing "Puppy Love"? Yeah, he's now in a band called Celtic Thunder. Really great singers. Sharp dressers, too. As you would probably guessed by now, they sing traditional Celtic stuff, and some songs also from the same genius who brought us "Ireland's Call", Phil Coulter. For those who have watched an Irish rugby game, it really is a spectacle to watch the faithful at Croke Park bellow out their anthem with such spirit, especially if they're playing the English. And if you've studied the history of Ireland, it has never had a unified anthem to sing 'til Mr. Coulter came along. Anyways, he fused traditional Gaelic with English to create one of the greatest songs I've ever heard. Allow me to share it. Enjoy.

A Dream Is A Wish...

Due to a myriad delays and distractions, I have to give Tessa her birthday gift on Friday or Saturday. I pray it does not rain. It would ruin everything, again. I have to get a rose as well... I wonder what color I should get? The classic red rose? The graceful pink rose? The passionate coral rose? Or the beautiful burgundy? I don't know. Suffice to say I have to look at my budget, as I hear roses are dreadfully expensive these days.

Well, a dream really is a wish. I guess my dreams are pretty modest compared to most, but I think that with setting targets I can achieve something. Out of sight, out of mind and all that, eh?

On another note, Congratulations to the Region 3/4 Captain's Ball team for winning the 2008 Youth Championships! (And doing it without any substitutes, and no lunch to boot.) All in all, we scored more than 10 points per match, and restricted our opponents to a paltry 4 points per match! A jolly good showing for a team that never trained together(unlike some other eager beaver teams I could think of), never had much expectations, and were generally seen as either cannon fodder or dark horses. We are the little team that could. The Few. I Salute You!

Let's see, now... my back, shoulders, arms, legs and hip all feel like a throbbing mass of pain, but DAMN! It was worth it!

Far Away - A Special Dedication To Tessa On Her 17th Birthday

This time, this place
Misused, mistakes
Too long, too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving
Hold on to me and, never let me go.

Someday Out Of The Blue

Some day out of the blue
In a crowded street or a deserted square
I'll turn and I'll see you
As if our love were new
Some day we can start again, some day soon

Here comes the night
Here come the memories
Lost in your arms
Down in the foreign fields
Not so long ago
Seems like eternity
The sweet afternoons
Still capture me

Some day out of the blue
In a crowded street or a deserted square
I'll turn and I'll see you
As if our love were new
Some day we can start again, some day soon

I still believe
I still put faith in us
We had it all and watched it slip away
Where are we now
Not where we want to be
Those hot afternoons
Still follow me

Some day out of the blue
Maybe years from now
Or tomorrow night
I'll turn and I'll see you
As if we always knew
Some day we would live again, some day soon

I still believe
I still put faith in us

I still believe
I still put faith in us

I still believe
I still put faith in us

Here comes the night
Here come the memories
Lost in your arms
Down in the foreign fields
Not so long ago
Seems like eternity
The sweet afternoons
Still capture me

Some day out of the blue
Maybe years from now
Or tomorrow night
I'll turn and I'll see you
As if we always knew
Some day we would live again, some day soon

Some day out of the blue
In a crowded street or a deserted square
I'll turn and I'll see you
As if our love were new
Some day we can start again, some day soon

I still believe
I still put faith in us

I still believe
I still put faith in us

I still believe
I still put faith in us

(Fade)
I still believe
I still put faith in us

Peace In The Living Room

The Cold War is over. The walls have fallen. It took a week, but it happened. A diplomatic breakthrough occurred, sitting in front of a television set watching football. Differences settled, an understanding reached. Not emotional by any standards, but still a resolution. My dad and I have finally made up our differences, and we started by finding a common ground. Football. Manchester United. Both of us are rabid fans, and it was the first common ground rediscovered. Saturday night I flipped on the telly, and was watching a game when he came out of the room to have a coffee. We started talking, and the long and short of it is that we settled the whole argument, he has his son back and I have my father back.

In any case, he has agreed not to wind me up over small issues, and I've agreed not to fly off the handle at small arguments. I have to learn, I guess. Maybe I should stop going into nearly every argument to try and prove something.

7 Days

Cold War

The Cold War was first fought between two opposing ideologies, and since then, countless miniature versions have been fought between parents and their teenagers, which were likewise another conflict of ideas. Well, I fought one just before the O's, and it looks like I'm fighting one again.

Since Monday, my father and I have refused to speak to each other, and only accept the other's presence as a formality. Why? Because he refused to accept me going to poly, reneging on a promise that he would support me wholeheartedly. Monday night, he kept badgering me about whether I could make the grade or not.

For those who know me well enough, I work best when people do NOT constantly question my confidence or my motivation. For those not in the know, let me tell you that it is one of the best ways to piss me off, that is, if you're cruisin' for a bruisin'. Why so? Well the simple fact is that the more others question me, the more I question myself, and I can be very self-critical, not exactly what others would think of me.


Anyway, back to my little story. Point is, my dad and I have been ignoring each other, even when we went down with a flu one after another. Well, my decision has been made. I like it this way. He doesn't bother about me, I couldn't give a rat's ass or a flying f*** about him. I LIKE IT. If he doesn't like me going to poly, I can still go overseas. I've been reading up on some high schools overseas, and it seems that I qualify to go overseas to study, if I can get my visa approved. All I need now is for that one catalyst, that one spark that will set off an inferno. That one domino that will set off a chain of events that would lead to me leaving Singapore for a foreign shore. ALONE. I don't give a shit if my dad goes berserk over it. All that gives me is what he owes me. Years of freedom. Oh, and he still owes me money. And if he wants to keep me here, he's gonna have to bloody well find me.

Rockabilly Revival

An update on my life in general. Since SAJC is beginning to turn away 9-pointers, I guess that little-ole-me has no chance whatsoever of getting anything outta this. *Sigh* After all the things I've done for this crapheap they call an educational institution this is what they do to me? Oh well, gotta hold my head up high and walk on. To all my friends, no matter whether you know me as a school friend, a SuperTeen friend, or in any other relation, like drama, debates and speech competitions, if you've made it to SA, my heartiest congratulations to you all. You've done better than I did, and probably deserved it more than me. Yes, I'm talking to you, Rahman, Samuel Stephens, Veerababu, Cheney, Levin, Erica, Felissa Lim, and any others I might've missed out. But I will see you all again one day. I promise you that. Now then, MOVING ON!

I'm going back to my old roots. Rockabilly and Country music is the way for me, along with Greasers, Rockers, Cowboys, chopped bikes, aviators, leather jackets, Stetsons, boots, brass knucks, switchblades and the rest of that culture. I will occasionally put in new songs for my collection, but I wish to first ground myself in the rockabilly ways. CCR, Elvis, Cash, and all the rest. A new direction. Another Earthquake.

I will see you again, on the 10th. 17+1+1, I Love You. But it's now up to you, to say if you love me too.

February Song

Where has that old friend gone
Lost in a February song
Tell him it won't be long
Til he opens his eyes, opens his eyes

Where is that simple day
Before colors broke into shades
And how did I ever fade
Into this life, into this life

And I never want to let you down
Forgive me if I slip away
When all that I've known is lost and found
I promise you I, I'll come back to you one day

Morning is waking up
And sometimes it's more than just enough
When all that you need to love
Is in front of your eyes
It's in front of your eyes

And I never want to let you down
Forgive me if I slip away
Sometimes it's hard to find the ground
Cause I keep on falling as I try to get away
From this crazy world

And I never want to let you down
Forgive me if I slip away
When all that I've known is lost and found
I promise you I, I'll come back to you one day

Where has that old friend gone
Lost in a February song
Tell him it won't be long
Til he opens his eyes
Opens his eyes.

24 Hours, Or So

In a day's time it's Valentine's Day. A Hallmark holiday marked by the giving of flowers, cards, chocolates, and other interesting gifts. In my case, just a card, I think. I'm stuffing all money into the bank, to be removed at a later date. My friends are all on hiatus, I believe. Most have not updated their blogs or talked to me too much. Not exactly the best way to maintain friendships, but I guess it will continues like this for a while. I wonder where I'm headed? I guess my ultimate fate is in someone else's Hands, for now. Not the way I planned it. But still, it's my choice, now I must live with it. I guess now all I can do is write about it.

1 Necklace, 17 Flowers, 17 Candles, 1 Love,
forever yours.

A Fork In The Road

All right, not everything has gone to plan these past weeks. Still, I believe the best is yet to come. I have come to a crossroads in my educational life, and I'm not sure which road I'm headed down. But one thing's for sure, I will always have my friends backing me up. You know, it's so reassuring to me that I can count on all my friends when I need them.

Alright, now for something completely different. I'm saving up cash for some new gear I've always wanted, so I may not be sponsoring any meals anytime soon. That being said, I might still pay for lunch or dinner, on special occasions. Also, I canceled my Maroon 5 tickets. Too expensive, and the special girl I asked is busy on the same day. Alas, it is not to be. Slings and arrows of outrageous fortune and all that, eh? More updates soon.

17 Years, 237 T's, 18 O's, 6205 Days, 1 LIFE.

It's Been Great. 17 years on this good earth, 17 years of life, love, tears, joy, laughter and all life's little wonders. I've made many friends, fought a few enemies, lost loved ones, seen people come and go in the revolving door that is life, and I'm the better for it. I've fallen in love, become a young man, survived many a date with destiny, walked away from so many things and embraced so many others. I've had regrets, moments of insanity, but also taken my chances, and seen flashes of brilliance. To all who have impacted me and given me life, friendship, and love, I Salute You, I Appreciate You And I Love You. May the days of your lives be kind, warm, long, and full of the blessings you have bestowed upon a fool such as I. God Bless Us, Everyone.

You'll Never Walk Alone

When you walk through a storm,
Hold your head up high
And don't be afraid of the dark.
At the end of the storm,
Is a golden sky,
And the sweet, silver song of a lark.

Walk on through the wind,
Walk on through the rain,
Though your dreams be tossed and blown.
Walk on, walk on, with hope in your heart,
And you'll never walk alone,
You'll never walk alone.

When you walk through a storm,
Hold your head up high,
And don't be afraid of the dark.
At the end of the storm,
Is a golden sky,
And the sweet, silver song of a lark.

Walk on through the wind,
Walk on through the rain,
Though your dreams be tossed and blown.
Walk on, walk on, with hope in your heart,
And you'll never walk alone,
You'll never walk alone.

The Waiting Game

If all my friends are to be believed, this will be the last two weeks of freedom I have left. Rumors abound about when our results will be released,, but I've given up on worrying. Worrying distracts me. I'm gonna have my fun, that is a fact. Still a few movies left to download or watch, still some things to do. My iPod's working just fine, and currently holds 1400+songs and 3 movies. Nice, eh? I will import more over the coming days. Here's to a new beginning!

An Apple™ A Day

Gaaaah, I've had it with Creative stuff. 2 MP3 players have quit on me, and my mouse is doing its best impersonation of "Grease Lightning". Switching over to iPod, and put getting a new mouse sooner or later on my priorities.

Everyone I know seems to be having fun. Quite a few people are in JC, some are working, the rest are just slacking. Me? I'm doing fine. Volunteering with the Drama Club in SA for CCA Display was fun. Oh, and I got to see my SYF performance on video! Alright! But what my future holds, I'm not too sure. JC sounds like an OK way to spend 1.5 years, but I just learnt that MI has both an A level and a diploma cert upon graduation.... tempting, no? We'll see.

On a more network note, congratulations to Jonathan Sng for getting a girlfriend. Maybe now you'll be less hyper. All the best to you both. Same goes for Ng Pei Jun. Oh, and I've decided to bury the hatchet when it comes to Tristan, Pei Jun and Timothy Lum. All three of these jokers now have my word that I will not insult you guys. For real. No Kidding. I'm Serious. Apologies to you all. I'd rather start my year nicely. Have a nice year!

Music Soothes The Savage Beast

My MP3 player has finally given up the ghost. Kicked the bucket. Retired permanently. Hopped the twig. Asleep forever. Died.

Well, that was sad. But realistically, I couldn't expect it to last forever, now, could I? What with the kind of people in my house, gadgets and sources of entertainment are usually goners. If they were alive, all entertainment sources assigned to my house would have to be the tough and hard-as-nails kind of endurance, otherwise they would need to be so fragile that they are irreplaceable.

Good news though, my birthday's on the 25th of January, so I will go down to Audio House tomorrow to check on the prices, and hopefully get a new MP3 player. Could anyone give me an unbiased analysis of the Zune, Zen and iPod, and tell me which I should get? Thanks guys. Goodnight!

The Meaning Of The Word

What's in a word? What's in a name? Well, I decided to snap out of my self-imposed stupor, and do a little research on a name very dear to my heart. The one who makes my world spin round.

Tessa is a feminine given name. The name is thought to be derived from the name Theresa, in turn derived from the Greek verb therizein, meaning to harvest. Common versions are Theresa, Teresa, Therese, Tess, Terri, Tessie, Reese, Tisa, Resa, and T. Teresita is the diminutive form of Teresa in Spanish.

The meaning of the name Tessa, or Theresa, is "one who reaps". The name implies one who is destined to work hard, but who will receive great bounty for her efforts. The name is associated with the fall season of the earth's life cycle: a time of harvest, of plenty, of purposeful labors, of warmth and generosity. Tessa shares her harvest with the world, as the earth has given its fruits to Tessa, thus respecting and supporting the natural cycle of life.

Brand New Day

It's a whole different ballgame now. 2008 has started. A Happy New Year to all my dearest friends and family. In the past few days, my party came and went, and so did the movie marathon night at church. This New Year has left me in a slightly more reflective and lucid mood, if only because I have a cold.

I guess my party could be considered a moderate success. Once calls started coming in the last time about cancellations, I had downgraded my attendance expectations to around 10+ people. At highest count, there were 19 people at the party, not counting my brother and myself. To me, that was a success, even if I had to spend money and time on it. I hope everyone had fun, and I hope that everyone enjoyed the food and company.

The New Year's Day movie marathon was fun, because we didn't stick to the rules. Got to Yishun, and then Xuan Yang, James, Arthur and I went straight for the Lord Of The Rings Room. I don't know, but I think we had a hunch no one was too interested in watching LOTR. After a few arguments, and some negotiations, we finally setup Xuan Yang's computer, and watched Stardust, and Kingdom Of Heaven. Meanwhile, the rooms and corridors outside degenerated into chaos, everyone monkeying around and messing up the place. Ain't that great?

Spent all the rest of New Year's Day asleep, watching movies or playing BF2. Great waste of time, eh? Let's see now, New Year's Resolutions, err, my new year's resolution is to... ah screw it. Let's go with a few optimistic goals instead, shall we?

1. Ask ♥T♥e♥s♥s♥a♥ out. Yes, I really do love her, but I want to know her feelings about me. If she has different feelings, I will step back or walk away.
   
2. Learn guitar. My chord changes are horrible, and I need a focused practice time. Also, be a little bit more open concerning other people's music tastes.
   
3. Get into JC. No offense to all the poly people, but I think my style of learning suits JC better. If not, MI, poly, overseas or kill myself (in no particular order).
   
4. Get fit. Yep, you heard this from the lazy bugger himself. Get fit.
5. Keep this blog alive. The last one died a pathetic and miserable death. Once is enough.
6. For once, not lose my wallet, MP3 player, handphone, water bottles, or anything dear to me. That means I can lose my way or my marbles. Haha, lame joke.
7. Not waste more than 3 hours daily on the computer. Well, I said these goals were optimistic, right?
8. Learn to cook a few more dishes. My current repertoire needs updating, I think.
9. See my guy friends find a girlfriend and girl friends find a boyfriend. Seriously, I believe all the friends I have really deserve someone special. You all have been special to me, the guy who started secondary school as a lonely outsider with no social life whatsoever, as you gave me a sense of belonging. I sincerely thank you. May God Bless You.
   
10. Save money. Somehow, I feel as if I have been rather miserly with giving other people treats last year, and so I should save up and bring everyone out more often.
11. Be nice to my teachers, and for once avoid trying to kill them of exasperation and sheer disgust.
12. Update my jokes. I think some of them are wearing pretty thin, or are inappropriate at certain times.
13. Remember ♥T♥e♥s♥s♥a♥'s birthday, and get her a really romantic gift. A diamond necklace good enough? Or should it be silver? Haha, just kidding. But seriously, I Will Remember 10th March, 2008.

Thus ends my optimistic spree. Good night everyone, and here's wishing y'all all the best for 2008!